madelyn[a.d.n.m.f.y.]

they call her madelyn

. hurt me love .
. I like it when you treat me that way .
. There was only one rule:...Never fall in love .
I am...madelyn // italian/hispanic and i have a new york accent // a new yorker 4 life yo! // stuck in brownsville for now , hopefully not long // anti-relationships // a huge dork // emo right now, not like the music genre just emotional. // clumsy[i trip over my own feet, drop things as soon as they are handed to me] // boring at times // charming and darling, when I want to be // stubborn // a bitch [be grateful asshole] //annoying// in love, but never loved // VERY bitter // nothing // awesome // weird // happy..yeah. // done done done // funny, at least i think so, thats all that matters really // not part of a certain group, clique or scene. [Just me]
. But who can decide what they dream .
I enjoy...music // movies // weird and strange things // laughing at inappropriate things // sleeping // you // myself. the end.
. Lies whisper like lullabies .
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole suit of armor, for years, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' or 'how very perceptive"' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that, especially not love. I hate love. - Neil Gaiman.
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