Peter

October 25th. Day I never want to remember..... hell I really don't know what to do now. I'm not a social person, I'm not good in sports. The only thing I have going for me is school which I try so fucking hard in but still do terrible. I don't get along with people and don't have any friends. But I do have a lot of people who treat me like shit. It's sad when there are these 3 assholes that instagate situations about me and say things I never said, then my biology teacher believes them and tells the assistant principal that I'm the one that's acting weird. It's also sad when a brand new english teacher thinks you are strange just by the way I respond to questions in class. I have said many many vulgar, terroristical, things in the last 3 months. I'm now starting to realize that I cannot do that anymore. The people on the Sayre Cross Country team mean well. People that know me think I'm weird or different whick I am. I would rather spend a weekend doing my homework than go to a highschool football game of someones house to play poker. That's just an example of how anti-social I am. I get really nervous around the opposite sex. Like I'm not talking about embarrassed, I'm talking about shaking, stuttering, lightheadedness, and I make threats. My father works 14 hours a day and I only see him 1 hour a day. I don't see him on weekends. So, I'm with my mother almost all of the time and I'm so used to being around her, I have almost rejected my dad from my whole life. I don't even talk to him and when I have to I walk away or just ignore him. I could go on forever.......