steven

i like to party,i am a river rat,go to the lake in the summer,and recope in the winter. Other then the random partying (which i try not to do so much) i think i have lead an interesting life. At the age of 15 i was put in a psych ward in Indianapolis which to say the least was interesting. I was diagnosed as bi-polar 1, self mutilation, social anxiety disorder, and sever depression. I was in there there for about a month, which seemed like 20 years. After a month of being tied down in the padded room for "offservation" (at least that is what they called it). I finally got out and went back to school in the small town of Delphi. Now when being gone that long kids notice, and of course they ask questions. So after about 3 days word got around to where i was and that is when the real torment begain. After dealing with the students for a year or so, when i was 17 years old i once again went beck to the place i was begining to call home (joke). Once again i was tied down like a dog and since i have already been to that place the people that worked there made it 20 times harder on me so i got to stay there even longer then the first time. Once getting out i of course went back to school. If i thought the first time back was hell i was dead wrong. I only lasted 1 semester before i quite Delphi High School and i am not upset about it one bit. Now after i left school the family started in on me, so i did the only thing i new to do, get my GED which i did with honors. Now that may seem like a lot to some people and nothing to others because there is always someone whos got it worse. But the story does not stop there. All together i have been in the psych wards 6 different times and in rehab twice(i am in one right now). I have tried to kill myself twice, once i was leagally dead but with these "amazing" doctors i am still here. I have had to heart attacks due to drug use, but now i am trying to find the joy in life that i hear so much about from other people. which is why i have a myspace page really. So if you actually took the time to read all of this i thank you and please give me some feed back.Layout made by