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My descent is the story of everyman. I am hatred, darkness, and despair.
Cleared the fog that was veiled around me and blurred my sights. Suddenly, I'm no longer aching to honor my plights.Rising moon and my skin is peeling. Past undone. Suddenly, I can't justify what I had become.Into the trees. Past meadow grounds. And further away from my home. Baying behind me. I hear the hounds. Flock's chasing to find me alone.A trail of sickness leading to me. If I am haunted, then you will see.Searching the darkness and emptiness. I'm hiding away from the sun. Will never rest. Will never be at ease. All my matter's expired so I run.There falls another. Vapor hands released the blade. Insane regrets at the drop. Instruments of death before me.Lose all to save a little. At your peril it's justified. And dismiss your demons. As death becomes a jest. You are the laughing stock. Of the absinthe minded. Confessions stuck in your mouth. And long gone fevers reappear.Nocturnally helpless, and weak in the light. Depending on a prayer. Pacing deserted roads to find a seed of hope.They are the trees. Rotten pulp inside and never well. Roots sucking, thieving from my source. Tired boughs reaching for the light.It is all false pretension. Harlequin forest. Awaiting redemption for a lifetime. As they die alone with no one by their side. Are they forgiven?Stark determination. Poisoning the soul. Unfettered beast inside. Claiming sovereign control.And now the woods are burning. Tearing life crops asunder. Useless blackened remains. Still pyre smoldering.In time the hissing of her sanity. Faded out her voice and soiled her name. And like marked pages in a diary. Everything seemed clean that is unstained. The incoherent talk of ordinary days. Why would we really need to live? Decide what is clear and what's within a haze. What you should take and what to give.Devil cracked the earthly shell. Foretold she was the one.Holding her down. Channeling darkness. Hemlock for the Gods. Fading resistance. Draining the weakness. Penetrating inner light.Road into the dark unaware. Winding ever higher.Everything you believed is a lie. Everyone you loved is a death burden. So you take comfort in him. And you are receptive to stark wishes. No longer struggling to declare your stand. You would inflict no harm to others. They are unaware of you. And in a loop of futile events. You are everything, they are nothing.Found a way to rid myself clean of pain. And the fever that's been haunting me has gone away.Looking through my window, I seem to recognize all the people passing by. But I am alone. And far from home. And nobody knows me.Never heard me say goodbye. Never shall I speak to anyone again. All days are in darkness. And I'm biding my time. Once I am sure of my task I will rise again.

By the pain I see in others..


Lamentations

Our abode amongst the stars is waiting, long enough for our last breath of life. You stare at nothing, right through me, at times resembling the Devil's concubine. And me, I am the idol that would long to caress our eyes until they would open no more. I would comfort you if I only could, but as we all know by now... I am just thin air. Unaware as you are of my presence, you are losing yourself. Hiding within the amen corner.

The blink of an eye. You know it's me. You keep the dagger close at hand.




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Chad J. Brown

Age: Nineteen
Gender: Male
Status: Single
Zodiac: Virgo
Orientation: Straight
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Loves: This hottie right here.. Haha!

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I'm Chad. I'm Navajo (full breed :D). I'm 5'11" and my birthday is Augustus XXVI. Clans: Bitter Water. Big water. Black streak wood. And towering house. I live in Chinle. Latitude 36.154N. Longitude -109.551W. Born and raised here. I live here for the moment. Good place to be raised. Not the best but it works for me. Anyways I'm a pure metal head. I listen to metal, alot. When I sleep, when I wake up, etc. I HATE rap/hip-hop. I despise it quite bitterly and with prejudice. Try your best to comprehend that people, ok!? I play the guitar. Don't have a band up as of this moment but I'm working on it. I have four (count 'em, 4) guitars to call my own. Named Abigail (Harmony). Melinda (ESP). Scarlette (Dean). October (ESP bass). These are my babies, my so-called pride and joy. So if you want to start a small project or something, I'm your man. I've recently completed a year of school until I decided that college just isn't for me. So I pondered about my options and now I've enlisted in the Marine Corps. I would say it's a good decision. But don't be a scold and waste my time. Don't come to me and lecture about what I should do instead. I'm not all perfect so be not angry that you cannot make me as you wish them to be, since you cannot make yourself as you wish to be. I already decided and I'm sticking to it. So here I am.. awaiting my fate. And don't be a fool. Life is a waste of time and time is a waste of life, so waste your time and have the time of your life! Haha

My Blog

Sunrise that never came

I stand all alone, The lake of fireThat separates light and dark.Seven alike since that day.The memories shrouds pain in my chest.Cornerstone that cannot be.These feelings grow darker.Candlelight burn...
Posted by on Tue, 23 Dec 2008 23:46:00 GMT

The Gates

Shadows of the past fade before my eyes. There are evil voices in the air. I sense a presence in the darkness around. Pervading every sound and every shadow. The moon is full, the horned messenger tha...
Posted by on Fri, 19 Dec 2008 00:09:00 GMT

Thoughts from memories

Farewell was the word.A blank face in the streaming water.My ashes within your hands.Written in dust, tainted by memories.I confess my hope, recognize my loneliness.A sunrise that never came.Lost my p...
Posted by on Mon, 10 Nov 2008 01:23:00 GMT

A Dirge for October

Without you I cannot confide in anything. The hope is pale designed in light of dreams you bring. Summer's gone, the day is done, soon comes the night. Biding time, leaving the line and out of sight.I...
Posted by on Tue, 30 Sep 2008 23:56:00 GMT

4:20

Only the dead are smiling..
Posted by on Wed, 27 Aug 2008 15:32:00 GMT

Omerta

Whoever appeals to the law against his fellow man is either a fool or a coward. Whoever cannot take care of himself without that law is both. For a wounded man shall say to his assailant, "If I live, ...
Posted by on Thu, 14 Aug 2008 14:51:00 GMT

Lead me away to death

the light blows into the windcandles gently weepi stand alonedreaming nightmaresthe path is endlessthe moonlight is barrenpoison stains the herdhands that hold no onemaster's own objectionthe wind car...
Posted by on Mon, 30 Jun 2008 05:10:00 GMT

just a chapter in the book of life

i was cruizin w/my homies in a manual shifting car!! it was nice cruizin around and my comrades house was not to far!! we were all having a blast in this piece of a junk!! we all didnt have a license ...
Posted by on Sun, 04 May 2008 01:46:00 GMT

madrigal

our abode amongst the stars is waiting long enough for our last breath of life you stare at nothing, right through me at times resembling the devils concubine and me, i am the idol that would long to...
Posted by on Mon, 24 Dec 2007 01:06:00 GMT

Nocturnal Hours

your face it caresses  me stillbeauty it beckons my mindas i think of our nocturnal hoursdelightful elegance we confineyour name brings enlightenmentto those that thrive darknessgentle yet exquis...
Posted by on Fri, 19 Oct 2007 21:27:00 GMT