Im Ashley
I was born in Portsmouth, England and moved to Richmond Virginia when i was 1 years old.i want what i cant have, and because of that im usually bitter. i contradict myself,and i have dreams the size of mountains. but i always find a reason to procrastinate those dreams.i contemplate everything and im not afraid to think. im not interesting so theres no need to scruntize my indivduality. i suck at life, i cant tell you how many times ive run away from my problems. i hate saying goodbye. i miss way too many things. im mean, hate me. thats whats expected of you, right? id give you everything, if there was something left. im so sick of immaturity,of name calling,of labels, of gossip, of school. it doesnt make sense anymore, and i find myself being nice to people that i want to strangle. ive seen too much, i havent seen enough, you havent seen enough. emptiness is loneliness and loneliness is cleanliness and cleanliness is godliness and god is empty, just like me.i tend to not care if you let me it's easier that way.i'm a damn good friend but it takes a lot to earn my trust. if i smile at you it means you make me happy.I've been through a lot and i know a lot about a lot of things so if you need someone to talk to im here even if you don't know me to well i'm a good listener. if you love me i'll love you back. I take advantage of every second of my life as if it was my last- there is no excuse to be bored; if you’re bored, you’re boring. i trust everyone implicitly, until they betray me, and then they are dead to me forever.trust is too valuable to give away.
Let me say this in a language you all will understand: I'm not here to impress you, or for your benefit. I'm not the most attractive person in the world, or the nicest, or the smartest. I do not make the least grammatical errors, I do not say the most appropriate things, and I do not have the least amount of regrets. However, I spend every day trying to be a better person, remembering where I came from, and helping other people. I'm not here to be the biggest bitch I can be, or to shit on people without cause. I like to talk, and if we share meaningful/intellectual/entertaining conversation, I will like you a lot. I don't do the whole "internet politics" scene. If you don't like me, fuck you. If you do like me, then I'm glad. Don't act like a piece of shit, and I won't treat you like one.
I AM NOT CONSTANTLY ON MYSPACE. I MAY NOT RESPOND IMMEDIATELY.
If we don't share more than the occasional "hi, how have you been?" comment, I'm sorry. I don't get involved with people unless there is a lot of substance between myself and that person. Life is short, and I'm not here to be popular or have as many friends as possible (despite my mediocre friend count). I live for the friendships that will change my life, the people who will affect and impact me immensely, people who are worthy of my trust, loyalty, admiration, and love, and people who are here for the long haul. Are you one of those people?
Im pretty open-minded when it comes to music, ill listen to pretty much anything and everything. So don’t fucking judge me because of the music I listen to.If I don't talk to you, it's probably either because you didn't say something interesting, or your typing/spelling/grammar was so appalling that I punched my monitor in frustration. So save me a couple hundred bucks and don't TyPe lYkE a ChUmP ok!? Don't hit on me. Flattering me will not get responses unless it is genuine and not the same thing that everyone else says. I have OCD about spelling and grammar, obviously.. You can be the most attractive person in the world, but if you've got the personality of oatmeal, I'm not interested. I'm calm, collected, and level-headed. Don't push me. If we throw fists, we'll both be going to the hospital: you for resuscitation, and me for broken hands from punching the ground through your face.
When you go I'll let you be, but you're killing everything in me.
Look, I know we all like to think that we're unique and special and that God made each and every one of us out of infinite love and happiness, but seriously, come on. Don't group me into your retarded categories. Don't talk to me if you're an elitist indie kid that's stuck in any decade prior to this one. All of your wonderful vintage bands were great, but don't insult my music because you're so "classic" and I'm not. The fact of the matter is that I have not met more than a few (few = 3) of you who are any different than anyone else. I am not like any of you, or anyone else. If you think I am, don't talk to me, because you're not receptive to anything I am or stand for (even on as small of a scale as myspace). If you think otherwise, by all means, communicate with me, or also if you would like to get to know me. But if you think you have me all figured out, just remember that you don't, and then forget everything you think you know about me.
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Life is good, somethings go your way and somethings dont but life goes on. life is simply what you make it, you cant decide what cards are dealt to you. but you can play the heck out of the ones you have. the most important thing in life is to find yourself and understand who you truely are.
"when people who don't even know you hate you, you know you're the best" - Paris Hilton
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