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...just to be different

Your life is defined by its opportunities... even the ones you miss

About Me


I really hate writting about myself cause i dont know how to view myself...
but yea im oscar aka esco..
if i had to describe myself i would def. say im somebody different from everyone else. anyone that has spent more than 10 minutes will honestly tell u that.
from music to food to movies to sense of style. i always found myself just doing what i want because thats the only thing that makes me happy.
as far as hobbies go.. i love music to death.. i can say that i inspire people around me to listen to different types of music.. underground or music thats about to become popular (lol people get mad when im right) one person that comes to mind when i listen to music is joe budden. just because i use music as therapy to calm myself and evaluate where i am in a certain situation. and joe budden seems like that person that knows how to speak his mind 100%
another artist i look up to is kanye west just because i would like to think he has that same sense of mentallity that i have towards life.
that would be me acting like a big kid. but i have a outlook of life the same as a wise man. for some reason i find it easy to step out of my own opinons and see in different perceptives of different situations. i guess thats why people ask for my advice all the time.
if ur really interested in my inner thoughts and theories go see my blog.. "Thoughts of Growth".. its a small blog where i really just collect random thoughts and record my progress in life. and even though im not that good of a writer i find myself enjoyin writing how i am at a certain moment. just because it will remind me how far i came to be where im at. and i could apperciate bein in better places in life.
but yea def. leave a message if anyone thinks im not crazy lol

My Interests

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Let me teach you a little something 'bout depression
Ain't shit you could do to me I ain't already thought about doing to myself
I'm the voice for the youth that's living with no reason
Fuck record sales, I give 'em something to believe in

Indeed these things seem to be easy to see
But they easily flee your mind as you find repeated deceit
Now, there’s reasons the weak of will never dream or believe
Before they leap, they concede to defeat and agree to retreat
Now, when fatigue has really got you by the balls
Remember that if you really didn’t believe you’d succeed, then you wouldn’t have tried at all
So, jump regardless of the consequence
Cause even on the night of the apocalypse, everybody’s an optimist.

Then there is me, using music as my therapy.
so i hope you niggas hearing me,
stare at me, glare at me, apparently your scared of me.
because the air i breathe is everywhere that you ain't prepared to be.
I'm never scared of the images that you aint cared to see.
If you looked at you what it appear to be, me.
yup, its me for certain.
Atleast in my dreams I'm more than a person.

My Blog

Thoughts of Growth XVII - The Day I Lost My Way

Song of the MomentMr. SOS - Die for You .. Highlight of the song:Yo, I spent too many nights drown in seclusion Over against my own will, surrounded by ill...
Posted by on Sun, 10 May 2009 13:11:00 GMT

Thoughts of Growth XVI.5 - Thoughts that might stop growth..

Song of the Moment:Incubus - I Miss You The Reason for This Song:I dont miss anybody in particular.. i just miss the part in my life where these feelings werent as strong.. and i was exc...
Posted by on Sat, 04 Apr 2009 11:06:00 GMT

Thoughts of Growth XVI - If I wasnt so different...

Song of the Moment :Kid Cudi - Man on the Moon Highlight of the Song:They can't comprenhendThey even come close to understanding himI guess if I was borin they would love me moreGuess i...
Posted by on Wed, 25 Mar 2009 20:31:00 GMT

Thoughts of Growth XV.5 - I Want My Amy Rose...

video of the moment: looking at this cartoon.. wow i notice these little things.. lookin at the way sonic and amy are.. i wish i can have those same emotions with someone and someone fe...
Posted by on Tue, 10 Feb 2009 19:16:00 GMT

Thoughts of Growth XV - Forever Yours, Esco...

Song of the moment:Charles Hamilton - Air Conditioner the reason behind the song:this song just reminds me how much im missing that perfect woman in my life... even though i never met he...
Posted by on Sat, 07 Feb 2009 09:28:00 GMT

Thoughts of Growth XIV.5 - Where’s the REAL Single Ladies at? lol

video of the moment: its about 4 in the morning on a saturday night i cant close my eyes without my mind racing with thoughts and memories... i cant even remember the last time i had a peacef...
Posted by on Sun, 04 Jan 2009 07:07:00 GMT

Thoughts of Growth XIV - My Problems are good...

Song of the moment:Joe Budden - Whatever it Takes... Highlight of the Song:See I'm depressed lately, but nobody understands That I'm depressed lately, I'm sorta feelin' repressed lately. But ...
Posted by on Tue, 16 Dec 2008 06:35:00 GMT

Thoughts of Growth - [musical break]

I just wanted to share this song with everyoneSubstantial - Eclipse (produced by Nujabes) Background Story:When i first heard this song over a year ago i loved the lyrics to this song. I can ...
Posted by on Tue, 18 Nov 2008 22:17:00 GMT

Thoughts of Growth XIII.5 - The Worst Feeling in the World

Watch the video to understand what I mean As many people know for some reason people ask me advice about relationships (i have no clue why... i cant even hold a relationship myself) but when ...
Posted by on Sun, 09 Nov 2008 20:50:00 GMT

Thoughts of Growth XIII - The Things I Do..

Song of the Moment: Joe Budden - Just to be DifferentHighlight of the Song:I understand something's off bout me, but nothing's forced bout meI never gave a fuck of what a nigga thought about ...
Posted by on Thu, 06 Nov 2008 01:29:00 GMT