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♥♥the used♥♥
♥♥Johnny Depp♥♥
♥♥AFI♥♥
♥♥the entire cast of firefly and serenity♥♥
"...and you never would have thought in the end, how amazing it feels just live again..."
the used, 'blue and yellow'
the used
afi
marilyn manson
my chemical romance
green day
smashing pumpkins
nirvana
armor for sleep
the ramones
taking back sunday
rancid
strawberry blondes
janis joplin
patty loveless
keith urban
gary allan
willie nelson
the white stripes
death cab for cutie
red hot chili peppers
system of a down
melissa etheridge
johnny cash
big and rich
coheed and cambria
all-american rejects
jimmy eat world
rise against
hazel dickens
foo fighters
HIM
weezer
flyleaf
the fully down
cyndi lauper
cher
dolly parton
leann rimes
the doors
30 seconds to mars
U2
brad paisley
dwight yoakam
faith hill
good charlotte
You're I Wanna Get A Mohawk!
FAVORITE LYRICS
"11th hour" by Rancid:
Hey little sister
do you know what time it was
when you finally seen all your broken dreams
come crashing down your door
they demand an answer
and they demand it quick
or the questions fade and the wasted days
come crawling back for more
do you know where the power lies?
and who pulls the strings
do you know where the power lies
I said, it starts and ends with you
the face of isolation
well that's one you recognize
when you can't get straight
it's a lonely place and it's one you do despise
boredom is for sale now
and helplessness you feel
it's a wounded dove and the hawks above
are blood splattered on a reel to reel
I was almost over
my world was almost gone
in a sudden rush
I could almost touch
the things that I'd done wrong
my jungle's made of concrete
through the silence I could feel
my aim is true
and I will walk on through
these mountains made of steel...
A special section for the used
"I'm a fake:"
Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife...
...I'm the biggest fan I've got right now
I made sure, that I look how I wanted to look
The people around me, the people surround me....
"the taste of ink:"
So here I am
It's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am
alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
"take it away:"
Brothers and sisters
I'm right here with you
Cause everyone's got one
A story to kill me
I'm so apathetic in my resentment
Living, loving, knowing not...
"Dogma" by Marilyn Manson:
...you cannot sedate all the things you hate...
A special section for A Fire Inside
"This time imperfect:"
I cannot leave here, I cannot stay,
forever haunted, more than afraid.
Asphyxiate on words I would say,
I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue.
There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but i'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me...
"The leaving song, pt 2:"
Don't waste your touch,
you won't feel anything
Or were you sent to save me?
I've thought too much,
you won't find anything
Worthy of redeeming....
...I saw its birth, I watched it grow
I felt it change me
I took the life, I ate it slow
Now it consumes me.......
"Remember to feel real" by Armor for Sleep:
I'm like a leaf in the wind
I try to find who i am, but wind up lost in the end.
Sometimes it's hard to know what's real when you're not.
I'm sick of trying so hard
Waste all your time with me
I know i'm a mess right now
Don't give up
Believe
I'd wait it out for you...
...Everyday i'm just making my rounds
Just digging a home 6 feet underground...
"Jesus of suburbia" by Green Day:
The motto was just a lie
It says home is where your heart is
But what a shame
Cause everyone's heart
Doesn't beat the same
It's beating out of time...
...Dearly beloved are you listening?
I can't remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure
Oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
Am I retarded or am I just overjoyed?
Nobody's perfect and I stand accused
For lack of a better word, and that's my best excuse...
mirrormask
dreamkeeper
practical magic
the princess bride
labyrinth
willow
serenity
heathers
american history x
dogma
reservoir dogs
four rooms
the worst witch
dazed and confused
the goonies
donnie darko
the lost boys
clue
dead man
benny and joon
edward scissorhands
what’s eating gilbert grape
crybaby
charlie and the chocolate factory
willy wonka and the chocolate factory
blazing saddles
young frankenstein
robin hood: men in tights
spaceballs
dodgeball: a true underdog story
the forty-year old virgin
little nicky
midsomer murders
wire in the blood
waking the dead
murder in suburbia
jonathon creek
my family
medium
heroes
gilmore girls
firefly
the sopranos
roseanne
dead like me
I love to read.
Some nonfiction topics I enjoy:
nature
gardening
plants
yoga
animals
religion/spirituality
true crime
Fiction authors I enjoy:
Oscar Wilde
Sharyn McCrumb
Alice Walker
Elizabeth George
Caroline Graham
Davis Grubb
Arthur Conan Doyle
Dr. Barbara Mertz (Barbara Michaels/Elizabeth Peters)
Terry Pratchett
Neil Gaiman
Gregory Maguire
Ruth Chew
Laurell K. Hamilton
J.K. Rowling
J. R.R. Tolkien
W. Michael and Kathleen O'Neal Gear
Jean Auel
Richard Laymon
Christina Rossetti (poetry counts, right?)
Morgan Llewellyn
Lucy Maud Montgomery
Christine de Pisan
Poppy Z. Brite
Artists:
Amy Brown
Brian Froud
Cicely Mary Barker
Paul Kidby
Jessica Galbreth
Carrie Hawks
Myrea Pettit
FAVORITE QUOTATIONS
Lucy Maud Montgomery:
Here with hosts of friends
I revel who can never change or chill;
Through the fleeting years and seasons
they are fair and faithful still!
Kings and courtiers, knights and jesters,
belles and beaus of far away,
Meet and mingle with the beauties
and the heroes of to-day.
All the lore of ancient sages,
all the light of souls divine,
All the music, wit and wisdom
of the gray old world is mine,
Garnered here where fall the shadows
of the mystic pineland's gloom!
And I sway an airy kingdom
from my little book-lined room.
Oscar Wilde:
Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months.
I have very simple tastes, I am always satisfied with the very best.
We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.
Terry Pratchett:
I'm going out of my mind
(mind speaks) Good idea, it's getting pretty crowded in here
Drinking that glass of water would mean genocide for thousands of innocent germs.
Inside every sane person, there's a madman struggling to get out.
"I meant," said Ipslore bitterly, "what is there in this world that truly makes living worth while?" Death thought about it. "Cats," he said eventually, "Cats are Nice."
Whatever happens, they say afterwards, it must have been Fate. People are always a little confused about this, as they are in the case of miracles. When someone is saved from certain death by a strange concatenation of circumstances, they say that's a miracle. But of course if someone is killed by a freak chain of events: the oil just spilled there, the safety fence just broke there: that must also be a miracle. Just because its not nice doesn't mean its not miraculous.
Henry David Thoreau:
Aim above morality. Be not simply good; be good for something.
Christina Rossetti:
...That I might bloom mine hour, a rose in spite of thorns.
Saint Francis of Assisi:
I have been all things unholy. If God can work through me, he can work through anyone.
Preach the gospel at all times. . .and if necessary, use words.
Dr. Ken Sinervo, who works with the Center for Endometriosis Care in Atlanta, Ga. He is the one who operated on me and gave me my life back. I'd take a bullet for this man!
To Sinervo and my hubby, Mike (I never would have made it without you!), I dedicate AFI's The Lost Souls: "...I'll gladly accept the gift that I've been granted...Look what you've done to me now, you've made me perfect..."