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About Me

I renounce metaphor, and you can stuff simile also: unpeeled, I am not Like A Man. I am the captain of this ship. My sins are washed enough. It will be you until the end with me, always. I am bound by symmetry. I really don't know clouds at all. I was a free man in Paris, I felt unfettered and alive, stoking the star-maker machinery behind the popular song. I don't want your pity, just the promise that I will be alright. I still can't remember when or how I lost my way. I have seen love from both sides now. Only a dark cocoon before I get my gorgeous wings and fly away, only a phase - these dark cafe days. I am everything and nothing and I hope you're looking for something wonderful, because I am... wonderful.
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I want to surround myself with lovers and fools and bosom buddies. I want to know good men, strong women, happy and delightful children. I wish to meet my will to survive. I want to meet whoever it is I'm going to love forever. I want to meet whoever it is who will love me forever.

My Blog

Selfish. Shellfish.

I am lost in a darkness that is seemingly impenetrable. This darkness is viscous, I can touch it, it feels greasy like an unwashed frying pan. I can taste it, though I keep my mouth closed. It seeps. ...
Posted by on Sat, 06 Jun 2009 11:28:00 GMT

Sunk.

I find myself now at the point of a pin poised over a bloodless, heartless location on the chart of existance. Surely the skewering of my passion and faith and humanity will lead to a less-than-satisf...
Posted by on Wed, 18 Feb 2009 17:37:00 GMT

How strange, the change...

I'm lonely.I'm so lonely, all the time... even with the people I love most. But I don't care.Ha.
Posted by on Mon, 16 Feb 2009 13:24:00 GMT

That I deigned to hope...

Upon making repairs to broken relationships I have found that it simply cannot be done. I supposed, I hoped, I prayed that it would follow with relief, but it did not. Instead I am left with a sense o...
Posted by on Tue, 03 Feb 2009 22:10:00 GMT

And the wall came tumbling down.

I am experiencing a profound sense of loss.As Dylan said, I have lost something. Not only have I lost my dignity but I have lost the opportunity to go after something that I really, really wanted. I g...
Posted by on Sun, 01 Feb 2009 12:16:00 GMT

A lark.

Take a long drive with me on California One... ...I have a wanderlust that is insatiable.
Posted by on Sun, 25 Jan 2009 16:12:00 GMT

Dead... and alive.

The ind brings out a savagery in me that I find myself enjoying, even luxuriating in. It makes me feel like I have a shot at things I wouldn't normally have a target for. Life anything is possible... ...
Posted by on Fri, 23 Jan 2009 11:17:00 GMT

Caesura.

An audible pause. I am not quite sleeping, but I am fast in bed. I don't understand why this place, this world, this lovely, lonely, empty, full, wonderful, distracted, distracting, horrifying, open,...
Posted by on Fri, 16 Jan 2009 19:03:00 GMT

And it's one, two, three strikes, you're out!

Steven the bartender: "Lauren, you can't catch a fish if your pole's not in the water. Put your pole in the water."Lauren the alcoholic: "Steven. Steven. My pole is in the water. It's fucking drowning...
Posted by on Tue, 13 Jan 2009 10:02:00 GMT

Tightening the screws...

Quite the predicament. Skipping beats, blushing cheeks... oh goodness. Pink and yellow. All the time pink and yellow. I would that I were two feet tall and made of thick, unbreakable glass - made not...
Posted by on Sun, 04 Jan 2009 00:59:00 GMT