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Here are some of my photographs.Here is my station at Last.fm and a sucky Pandora link.Here is a map of the Wabash Trace nature and bike trail in Iowa . Taco rides are thursday nights (google it).
DISCLAIMER: This is a personal page about me, expressing my opinions. My opinions are very opinionated. This does not mean I am intolerant of other ideas, opinions or people. Differences are exciting. I hope no other person agrees with all of my opinions and I wish to provoke thought or honest dialog in the face of its obvious dearth in the USA. Respectfully slam me if you like. I will respect you.
From the archives. NSK/Laibach in Seattle, Feb. 2005
key aspirations:
logic, lust, aesthetic nihilism, ritual, seduction, athleticism, vision, substance, creation
fitting epitaph:
"I will force my body to be my weapon and my statement" -Mona Mur
Here are some movie reviews on IMDB, going back to 1999. Also here and here .
(I layed out this page for Firefox in Windows. it looks like junk in internet exploder. let me know if it's really screwed in your Mac or *nix box)
. love is dead . a thin dry age, never more than foolish ten years of misery.
a dead hope. a final nail naïve. a fitting epitaph the failings numerous and predictable to kill the very heart of it,
dispel every mystery a clinical specimen without allure love never found,
a decimated, forgotten hope collapsed and rotted without love, a non-existent capacity joy is a simulated act life is a ghost roaming the earth a dead man walking,
distressing all who see a maul of death, a skull half shot off provoking pity at best
and all the more bizarre let hope perish on this earth become the myth of an ancient city she waits with anger and lamentation she was the only one behind mortal attempts
there was only her not sharing my lust
is to now know her ideal anyone else was a distraction our deal was doomed only constant dreams
and fleeting glimpses for the capacity to share it,
the risk was worth the chance in a mortal world being of the same cloth,
she has many names, ancient and new pail. dark. a noir priestess deep eyed blue and
lush detail obscure her tears sharp and modernist fiery. explosive. measured respectful. wry. nihilistic, with humor titanic passion dancing the rites of the netherworld lean like a weapon thin like a whip supremely compact a thin frame wrapped tightly in flesh muscular emaciated so to reach through her untouched silently erotic her hunger betrayed only
by her expectant stare the intellectual and sexual are equal as ritual is to aspiration as the mysterious is to the pragmatic gazing into infinity through
each others tear streaked eyes an endless abyss of passion
is no contradiction the greatest prize. the greatest force is only for me, as I for her eternally for no other a chance to find her on earth worth a merciful burial in a long overdue grave my lingering life a dreary interval . without her .
Like to Meet:
well I have met about everyone I could ever hope to meet, except my next hot flirt, and a rich philanthropist to fund further insanities. i don't need to meet anyone anymore. i need to give something back, and i'm tired of seeing sane women. how totally dull and boring. i want to meet a healthy, beautiful woman whose insanity is compatible with mine.
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Stability |||||||||||||| 53%
Orderliness |||||||||||||| 56%
Accommodation |||||||||||||| 56%
Interdependence |||| 16%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Mystical |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Artistic |||||||||||||||| 70%
Religious |||||| 23%
Hedonism |||| 16%
Materialism |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Narcissism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Work ethic |||||||||| 36%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||||| 63%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||| 63%
Need to dominate |||||||||||| 43%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Avoidant |||||||||| 36%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Wealth |||||| 30%
Dependency |||||| 30%
Change averse |||||||||||| 43%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Individuality |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 50%
Physical security |||||| 23%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Histrionic |||| 16%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 63%
Vanity |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Hypersensitivity |||||| 30%
Indie |||||||||||| 45%
...and a few more traits I can guess at...
Porn |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Temptation to contribute to someone else’s project I might not have the skills or energy to complete on time ||||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Brash ||||||||||||||||||| 74%
! TACTLESS ! umm.. yummy! ||||||||||||| 52%
Cruelty, Abuse, Vindictiveness or intentionally causing suffering to anyone other than war criminals, rapists, murderers, assailants, bullys and thieves against working class NO NEVER
Offending unintendedly or through insensitivity |||||||||||||||| 69%
Opinionated |||||||||||||||| 78%
Obsessive |||||||||||||||| 77.429%
Very open to debate yet disinclined to agree and rejective of non-academic arguments |||||||||||||| 66%
Compatibility with over sensitive or defensive people ||| 14%
Incompatibility with some former Paxil users, and suspicious that they are permanently changed, dangerously insecure but forever over compensating with a renewed frankensteinian energy and an aggressive intolerance, especially against anyone unusual or who reminds them of theirselves, interacting with a blatant double standard based on their perceived right to be pitied for their depression |||||||||||||||| 80%
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Minor Gripes:
- People LOVING animals. Look- if you have a pet, you are still my friend, OK? I am toning this rant down because almost all my friends and family have pets. I don't need to be abrasive about this, but letting animals have run of your house is a little wierd, isn't it? White people have managed to kill off most of what they come in contact with. The best thing I think you can do for animals is to respect them, leave them alone and keep them far, far away from people. I'm not sure how you can have much of a relationship with an animal who is not an equal, cannot love you back the same way and is not capable of any choice in the matter because they can never ever leave. I see the value of pets as being mostly sentimental on the part of their owners. Before owning a pet I would have to ask myself if it was mildly abusive or a substitute for equal friends or lovers. I respect animals. Emotional LOVE for them is hard for me to understand. I don't really condone the idea of domesticated animal ownership. I support free wildlife. Household pets are even taboo in most non-European cultures, and for good reason. Without the type of healthcare we supposedly have access to, most non-western people have to be very careful about their health, and thousands of years of tradition has offered the lesson that mammals exchange significant diseases and parasites. Pets (and humans too) carry species specific diseases and parasites. For instance, dogs and cats carry toxicara. It's just one of many conditions the species has evolved with. They cannot really be cured of it, but it can definitely effect humans, especially children. The fact toxicara is not deadly just makes it easier to ignore. So as a pet owner, you are faced with either constantly cleaning and laundering, with all the resources required for that, or living pretty unclean with your animals and accepting the health effects, possibly effecting your neighbors as well. More than this, once a pet is beloved, as expected it would be, and has genuine sentimental value, and offers real benefits of companionship, it's natural for owners to feel empathy for other animals of the same species. So now, because a pet is valued, all animals of that species could be considered of equal value, which unfortunately promotes the false idea that one species is now more valuable than another, based purely on relationships with individual pets. Recently some of the huge numbers of abandoned pets not uniquely or sentimentally valued, which were cruelly abused, were saved from their injuries using thousands of dollars of vet services which could have been used to save much larger animals like whales, or even people. This was based purely on the popularity of their species as pets and not any innate value over other species. Many pet owners and advocates actually went as far as calling for the blood of the young abusers or otherwise destroying their lives, which, despite their cruelty, is simply not a fair punishment considering all the other animal cruelties which are perfectly legal non-issues. Some people value these animals so much, but think nothing of possums or deer getting run over in the road, or neglected pets, or chickens and huge cows being tormented and cruelly killed by the million every day. Species Equality.!.
Smoking. Chain smoking in front of an open window which supplies the only fresh air to a closed area, so you totally fail to consider anything but your compulsion (I hate to see my gorgeous friends over do it and hurt themselves in such an unkinky way, but it's their choice). I'm not saying don't smoke by any means, and cloves seem better to me, but please have some consideration how nasty those corporate cigarettes are in closed spaces.
Major Gripes:
- Republicans. Not that democrats are any better, but republicans are who the democrats are really working for. Jeez. republican = fascist = self serving moron, plain and simple. Stop being such a sucker for such an idiot.
War. If you think your little wars will make you or you kids safer you are in for very rude awakening. These little wars will absolutely be the downfall of the USA, and Bush is laughing all the way to the bank. If you support war in other countries you can do us all a favor: fuck right off and kill yourself.
Nazis. Sorry, there was nothing cool or occultic or mythological about nazism, and the holocaust really did happen. The swastika is not some cool ancient rune. If you are thinking it's cool or even turning a blind eye to nazi morons around you, just fuck off. That is beyond lame.
People who think being against nazis means support for Israeli fascism. They both suck. They are similar forms of paranoia.
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