Lonely is the room, the bed is made, the open window lets the rain in.I apologise to all of you who are disturbed by ' Baby Georgie .'But you love it really.
I like it when people put music on their myspace profiles. I say like, I mean tolerate. I say tolerate, what I mean is every time someone else's music starts drowning out mine I think about how I'd rather be listening to Robbie Williams and Nelly have a competition to see whose vomiting can cause the most repulsive sounds, whilst at the same time boiling diarrhoea is poured into my earlobes as rusty needles are simultaneously shot into my eyes, rabid dogs tear away at my limbs, and Chris Martin rapes me, all the while singing me a medley of Coldplay songs.
I don't friend people I haven't met. I would like you to form your judgements of me based entirely on the music I listen to. You can do that here: http://www.last.fm/user/Jinkleberry. Everything is lush, lusher than lush, everything is amazing. Even when things are shit they are still amazing. Just existing is fantastic, I really like it. I'm glad I have finally realised just how amazing things can be if you just let them be so. I like how things are what you make of them, and how whether you enjoy something isn't about whether it is fun/boring or good/bad but actually about whether you want to have fun or to be bored etc. I also like talking about existence as if I know something. I don't. I'm a Capricorn. I like soft things. I like boys in make-up. I would love a footed sleeper. I have two footed sleepers! Comfiest PJs ever! I hate it when people say they hate drugs, and would never do drugs because drugs are bad, and then go out drinking alcohol and getting ridiculously drunk several times a week. I respect people who decide not to take any illegal drugs, but I hate it when they look down on those who do. First I hate it because alcohol is a bloody drug, if you get drunk you do drugs! Secondly, just because some drugs are illegal doesn't mean they're all bad; alcohol can be more devastating than some 'hardcore' drugs. If you 'don't do drugs' then good for you, but don't look down on those who do, especially if you drink alcohol. If you read all of this you will know a lot about me, but nothing that's really important. I like to go to hotornot.com and vote everybody 1 (not) for being so self-absorbed they need strangers on the internet to rate their appearances. I wish I knew why every single person on Myspace is in my bloody 'extended network.' I'm caring. I talk a lot of shit. I keep falling for gay guys. I'm obsessive. I find it hard to believe in anything. I like comfortable silences. I get very irritable when I'm tired. I don't understand people who post bulletins saying "New pic so evry1 comment plz!!" - I have better things to do than comment on your pictures just because they're new. If your picture is worth a comment it'll get one whether you ask or not. Get over yourself. There are some things I will never understand, for example, what is so exciting about limos? People often ask my friends if I have mental problems. Maybe I do. I would like to do more travelling outside of Europe. I would rather be alone than risk rejection. I love 'mud'(I don't mean the kind you find in the garden). I love talking to Tom when he starts ranting about philosophy and his ideas and things, he is often my favourite person to talk to. If I wasn't too scared to go out on my own with nothing to fall back on I would just go and live in the woods and become a crazy drug-taking hippy. I like typn when druinke. I like pretty boys. I doubt people would accept me if they knew everything about me. I prefer black and white photography to colour. I check my pulse several times an hour. I have taken Class A drugs before, and will probably take them again. I don't always succeed, but I try. I strongly believe everybody is equal. I often feel like an outsider. I don't laugh at the right parts. I am better than Pete at using the catapult, even though he has practised and I have not. I will tell you I'm scared of clowns. I have trouble sleeping. I have travelled abroad. I like listening to a CD for the first time. I want to move out (and in with him). Don't believe anything I tell you, especially the things you think must be true because there is absolutely no good reason for me to lie about them. Those are exactly the things I lie about. Just because I can. And because you will fall for my lies. Hahah, joke's on you. I fell for him, but he fell for her. I find the whole myspace thing slightly unnerving. I am not autistic, but I do a lot of 'stimming' as if I were. Eg: hand-flapping, rocking, making odd noises, random self-harm etc. The amount I do these things is increasing, but I mostly manage to keep it for when I'm alone. I wish I had something, or someone, to believe in. I like colouring with crayons. I don't like hunger, and yet I find it strangely comforting. I bought 'shrooms from Camden back in the day, aka when they were legal. Pills are lush. I was happy when I found out the theme tune to Peep Show is not by Greenday as I first thought, but Harvey Danger. I like reorganising my CD collection. I like dark comedy. I like prank calls. Most of my political views come from listening to Immortal Technique. I think I would like to try cocaine, but I don't know if I actually will if I get the chance. I took cocaine at Blue Rock. I am meant to take medication for a heart problem, but I don't in case it will cause my heart more damage than good when I take drugs. I like leaving things to the last minute. I am bored of getting stoned. I don't like cockroaches. I've had anal-sex, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I like looking at a word for so long that the spelling starts to look wrong. I think sending people into space is a waste of time and money. I feel jealous more than I would like. I empathise with people I'm not supposed to. I hate feeling too scared to move. Ventriloquist dummies creep me out. I care more than you would think. I like colouring in. I love Thom Yorke's solo work. I know it's wrong, but I find gay guys infinitely amusing, simply because they’re gay. If an album has less than 10 songs I feel cheated - ideally an album should have 12+ songs. I like my bed in the mornings. I like irony. I don't think I believe in God. I tell myself that I don’t mind if people think what I do is strange; I'm not sure if that's true. It annoys me when people put music on their Myspace profiles. I have poor self control. I desire security and support. I like making lists. I hate it when I go to a website and music automatically starts playing and drowning out itunes. I had my first pizza (with no cheese) in August 2005. I had my first pizza with cheese a year later. My favourite board games are Cranium, Pictionary and Cluedo. I don't always like the way my mind works. I like the countryside. I don't believe in evil. I'm a hypochondriac, but I'm scared of doctors. I have a somewhat sick sense of humour. Sometimes I like to cry myself to sleep. I don't believe in doing something purely for money. I don't agree with the death penalty. I could never have an abortion, but I am pro-choice. I tend to like alternative things. I want to find true love. I often feel I'm unwanted or unworthy of love in some way. I don’t understand why people like me, but I don’t understand it when they don’t either. I drink whole milk. I don't like feeling inferior, but I so often do. I find it hard to make decisions that will effect other people. I want to be remembered for doing something good. You don't mean it, but it hurts like hell. I want magic mushrooms to be legalised again. The longest time I’ve gone without sleep is about 44 hours. I repeat myself. Be careful with me; I'm very fragile. I want to feel justified. I find it hard to maintain a good body temperature, and thus am often too hot or too cold. I'd love to go to Romania again. I do it to myself. I want someone to look after me. I'll cheat at board games, and I won't feel bad about it. I don’t agree with the way this country is run. Nathan's treatment of Pingu makes me want to cry. I hate Coldplay, but I like hating them. I am going to India in February. I am back from India – it was awesome!! I hate it when posters fall off the wall no matter how much blu-tack you put on them, or when they fall randomly for no reason after staying up for months. I don't like it when people only seem capable of talking about one subject. I lost. I don't like losing control of myself. I'll be surprised if anybody reads all of this, but pleased. Leave me a comment! I don’t like cigarette smoke. I don't think I will ever pass my driving test. I'm easily talked into doing things. I don't like bitchiness. I would like to know whether that Crack is really moreish. I think I'm allergic to baked beans, but I eat them anyway. I don't like narrow minds. I think if people knew all of my secrets they would view me very differently. I don’t like gold jewellery. Or jewellery in general. I dramatize things. I'm quite paranoid. I'm quite loud. I don't like intolerance. I never wear make-up. I don’t like phoneys. I don't like Morrissey, but I love the music of both him and The Smiths. I don't like feeling stressed, but I get stressed really easily. I'm probably broken. Sometimes I feel my life is lacking in direction. I feel guilty when I disagree with someone. I think I'm genuine as much as I can be. I don't like the term 'geoshities,' not because I disagree that geocities is shit, but do you have to be so obvious about it? I don't like phoning people without a good reason, although I love it when people ring me regardless of reason. I don't know why most of the things I am telling you here are relevant. Perhaps they're not. I respond to new things like a child. I don't like vandalism. Fluxx is one of the best games invented. I can be very attention-seeking. Radiohead are my favourite band. I collect dummies/pacifiers. Crime is interesting. I love ball pools. I don't like Nelly and his stupid plaster. I fear having no guidance or support. Sometimes I lie just because I can. I rarely shave my legs. I have secrets I wont tell you when you ask. I love to read. I like quoting Peep Show. I wish I could think of a Peep Show quote to put in here that works, but I can't. I get very attached to people. I'm open-minded and easily swayed. I cNt uNdAsTnD y PpL tLk LyKe DiS. LoLzZz!!!!111oneone! I had an eating disorder for about a year, and then I got better pretty much overnight. I procrastinate too much. I'm quite confused about...everything? I act silly. Sometimes I stick with something I don't like just because it's too hard to work out what to do instead. I want to go to more gigs. I am probably one of the weirdest people you will ever meet. My favourite film is Grave Of The Fireflies. Music helps me fall asleep, although I don't usually listen to it in bed. When offered two choices I'll say I don’t mind even when I do. I like it when you can tell a lot of effort has been put into CD album art. I find it hard to let go of the past. I need someone to hold my hand all the way. Since I first took MDMA my life has just been getting better and better. Can't imagine ever saying no to a nice bit of mud. Maybe it is just coincidence, but maybe it isn't. I'm too young to fall asleep, too cynical to sleep; I am losing it, can't you tell? I don't like other people seeing my scars, but I am finally comfortable enough to go out without covering them up. I don't like conservatism. I am just a big kid at heart. I don’t like 'the machine. I don't like chocolate ice-cream. I want to see Radiohead live. The future scares me, a lot. But it excites me also. I have lower self esteem than you might think. I hate catching myself being mean about someone. I'm hard to get to know properly. I repeat myself. I'm submissive. I try to be selfless, but that doesn’t mean I'm not selfish. I like having several different versions of the same song to listen to. Shithead is my favourite card game. I'm quite indecisive. I'm very impressionable. I would like to lose weight. I worry too much. I'm easily bored. I become obsessed with things very quickly, and then bored with them equally quickly. I find it hard to work out what to do next without a lot of guidance. I'm easily swayed by emotion. I love writing people letters, but I've been finding it hard lately. I wish I were cool like you. If you read this twice you will still be surprised. I don’t like it when people are annoyed/angry with me. I'm immature. I find it hard to switch off. I constantly daydream about people to maintain a sense of closeness. I'm a deep thinker. I contradict myself. I hate it when mature adults stop talking to each other. I voted for the Liberal Democrats in the last election. I hate hate hate cheese. I recently realised that cheese is one of the best foods ever, and not the hideous, sweaty, disgusting, repulsive food I once thought. I don't buy enough CDs based purely on the cover art. I like sweets more than chocolate. I'll pretend something effects me more than it has if it will get me attention. I'm very easily pleased, but easily upset also. I don't always think before I speak, although I try to. I don't eat meat. I still have a dummy, actually I have close to 100. I like live music. I don't always get round to things I mean to. I don't know the words to all of my favourite songs. I want to both foster and adopt when I grow big. I find washing up very cathartic. I don't like finding gelatine in things when I don't expect it. I find it hard to be open with people. I enjoy crying at sad films. I don't like feeling dirty. I’d like to own a lot of land and live near woodland and a stream and have a donkey when I grow up. I like holding hands. My worrying keeps me awake at night. I listen to music most of the time. I talk more when I’m nervous. I find it hard to relax. I believe in altruism. I liked the way college made toast. I have met half of Coheed And Cambria. I get very easily paranoid about things for pretty much no reason. I hate region encoding on DVDs. Apparently I’m orally fixated. I thrive off affection. Sex leaves me feeling dirty. I would give almost anything for the chance to somehow see Jeff Buckley perform live. I have secrets nobody knows. I like playing with children (not in a sick way!). I believe in happy endings. I like popping bubble wrap. I always liked one deep cut more than lots of shallow ones. Free parties are the best. There are things about me you would never guess. I lost my virginity in a toilet stall. It was horrible. Nobody knows as much as they think they do. I like liking things no-one else knows about. I love kittens. I get a lot of random aches and pains. I take illegal drugs, and I don’t think its wrong. I reflect on my past a lot. I do lots of stupid things. I do have more inhibitions than you think. I like listening to songs I liked when I was younger. I like maple and pecan danishes. I don’t get angry much, but when I do watch out. Most of my friends have seen me naked. I like satire. I wish I’d realised how good things were back then. I get carried away. I like hot cross buns. I like soft kisses. Everything always works out in the end. I’m a fussy eater. I don’t like blocks of text with no paragraphs (even though that’s exactly what this is.) I like seeing my bones poke out, but they don’t anymore. I like getting home after being away for a long time. Vince diagnosed me with borderline personality disorder. I am obsessed with 'What Would Dan Do?' I’m female. I wish I could achieve astral projection, but I do not have either the motivation or the belief in my ability to achieve to keep practising. I like car sweets. I love falling asleep in someone else's arms. I like the comfort in crying. I’d rather all of my food were too sweet than too salty. I’m interested in autism, I find is fascinating. I like Brighton. I think it will be easier when I grow up, but I don’t want to. I don’t think I’ll ever want a pet dog. I would like to be more interesting. I tend not to understand innuendo. I don’t know whether to follow my thoughts or my feelings. I daydream about a rescuer. I’m really quite lazy. I get topless in public a lot. I like the colour of blood. I don't like sex. I cannot stand being cold. I go from one extreme to the other. Most people think I’m strange. I like working with children. I really cant express my emotions very easily. I let people, especially boys, use me. I wish I knew the words to all of the songs I like. Occasionally I lapse and eat meat. I want some more comments! I once pooed in a bin. I think rabbits are the best pets, even if when I had one it was scared of me and then ran away. I wish I procrastinated less. I hide my shyness by being loud. I like parenthesis (especially inside more parenthesises (rather like this (although I call them brackets.))). I’m not that confident in my abilities. I wish I found it easier to talk to people. I exaggerate. It's not hard to annoy me, so tread carefully. I ask questions during films. I collect pacifiers. I sleep with them to and find it hard to sleep without a dummy in my mouth. I really like it when it rains whilst you’re in a supermarket, and you go into the car park and it smells of rain on tarmac. . I like reading song lyrics. I find it easier to think about the past to the future. I want my secrets to be acceptable, but I know they’re not. I’m repetitive. I’m rather temperamental. I think life would be easier if we all knew where we stood with people. Sometimes showing my scars make me nervous. I am a compulsive liar. I’m quite naive. My CD collection is organised alphabetically by band, and then chronologically by album. I like playing with toys. I can get quite broody. Sometimes I’m very histrionic. I’m a perfectionist. I find it hard to finish anything, not because I get bored but because I have trouble finding an appropriate place/way to finish. My jealousy is the ugliest part of me. I really cannot stand bad spelling and grammar, it drives me crazy when intelligent people seem incapable of distinguishing the difference between your and you’re and insist on using Zs instead of Ss and shortening all of their words like devolved idiots. You can control me. My friends all think I should see a psychologist; they all sat me down one morning and told me so. I hate it when the edges of the paper curl up. I like phone calls that last for hours. I wish I had lost my virginity to someone, anyone, different. I look more like a boy than other girls I know. This I don't mind because boys are better than girls. Which is why I could never be a lesbian. Sorry ladies. I prefer cooking food from the basic ingredients to buying ready made meals. I keep failing at becoming vegan. I tell stories, even very boring ones, more than once. I think that by making this a huge block of text you won't read this. I will never get bored of listening to Jeff Buckley. I’m excitable. I can be extroverted or introverted depending on my mood. I like comedy to be subtle. I worry my choices will be the wrong ones. I like ice-cold milkshakes. Most of the Indian men I met in India just wanted to get in my pants. My current (but ever changing) top 5 are Mark Heap, Mark Lamarr, Dylan Moran, Ben Whishaw and Russell Brand. Also Jeff Buckley, naturally, is my ultimate (yet deceased) number one. I’m childish, but in a good way. I love my cushtie. I laugh at toilet humour. I don’t like it when my phone runs out of credit. I see both points of view. I like random acts of kindness. I like planning adventures, even if they rarely happen. I don’t finally understand the term second-guess. Every year I say I won't get addicted to Big Brother, yet every year I do. I like giving and receiving gifts. I still self-harm from time to time. I like watching people in the rain, but only if I'm inside. I like the feel of brand new fleece. I get distraught over little things. South Indian food is the best. I’m not that confident in my opinions; you could probably change them. I like horror films, but they really creep me out. I like obsessing over things. I try to follow my heart, but I don’t think it knows where it’s going. I’m often blind to things that should be obvious. I have no motivation. Sometimes I have that dream where I'm peeing in bed, and I wake up and I realise it was more than a dream. I'm silently breaking, shhh. I’m a joinee. I'm quite wary of new people and situations. I like nostalgia. I no longer have the self control to maintain an eating disorder. If I did I would. I adore Bump The Elephant. I should use the word adore more. I wish I could get the time I wasted back. Cheap ice-cream cones taste rubbish. I get very scared when it's dark and I'm alone, even in my own house. I’m quite talkative. I hate hypocrisy. I like sleeping at other people’s houses. I tend to draw people and creatures when I doodle. I’m very nosy, although I prefer the word curious. I like offensive internet sites. I can’t believe a song about vegetables could make me feel so happy so often. I much prefer British comedy to anything American. I repeat things several times, just in a slightly different way. I'll say the same thing more than once, but just word it differently. There are two colours in my head. I'm hypocritical. I’m one of the funniest people I know. I like scratching itches. I think I'm probably an atheist. I like learning new words, especially unusual ones. I'm quite forgetful. I hate standing still for a long time. I wish you had cut my thumb before you left. A lot of people find me frustrating. I like giving and receiving hugs. I like curling up in corners. Red pandas are probably the cutest animals ever. I like listening to music. I like sleeping at other people's houses. I like monkeys. I prefer // to -. I like being introduced to new bands. I find loneliness very hard to deal with. I hope you like Maddox. Jeff Buckley is my God. I like sticking things to my notice board and keeping things that only mean something to me. I like random/tacky/novelty items. I keep all of the letters and emails I’m sent because I love re-reading them. I like innocence, even though I lost mine. I don't like inane scrawlings on toilet doors. I kind of like all of my scars. I like really fluffy baby animals. I adore the ones who ignore me, and ignore the ones who adore me. I love balloons, especially if they’re filled with laughing gas. I believe the world will have significantly changed by 2012. I don’t like ignorance. Although I like owning things I could happily give it all away. I like it when I wake in the morning and my dummy’s still in my mouth. I like honesty. I like dreaming, I would like to analyse mine but am too lazy to write them down, which annoys me. I cook for myself about 90% of the time. I don’t like it when I walk too far and my feet hurt. I don’t like sore throats. I like it when people write a personal message inside greeting cards. I was bullied at school, a lot. I don’t respond well to authority. I think everybody should try and give some of their time or money to charity. I really like Brian’s coat in Placebos Taste In Men video. If you have ever written me a letter I probably still have it. I like text to be justified. I’m a bit odd. I like reading, but don’t make the time as often as I could. I'm sorry but I just don't like Shakespeare. It would be nice if my plans worked out more often. I like writing stories. If I have a son I will call him Leon. I'm always scared I might wet the bed at someone else's house. I hate having to get up early for work. I like acting like a small child. I like having time to myself. If people were tactful, but blunt, with each other I think it would be easier. I like sneezing. I'll never have enough CDs. I like putting good songs on repeat. I don’t want to get found out. I like foot massages. I like people playing with my hair. I like feathers. I like writing and receiving emails. I like my iPod. I got over my eating disorder, but my eating is still disordered. I kind of like being abused. My attention span is very sh... Oh look, a bird! I like bright colours. Working with disabled children keeps me sane. Sometimes I hate things just because other people like them. If I'm listening to my ipod I hate it when the last song on an album features a long period of silence before a bonus track. I like handmade birthday cards. I’m sorry. I like inner thoughts. I find conjoined twins fascinating – I am also hugely interested in mutations and deformities of any kind. I hate hate hate getting email chain letters and [most] forwards. I'm very insecure. I think people are becoming stupider. I wish my self-esteem were higher. I don't like eating eggs, and I'm scared to crack them open; who knows what could be inside. I want to spend more time with the people I take for granted. I don’t think I will ever stop cutting myself. I don’t like my heart beating too fast; I'm always scared I'll have a heart attack. I believe eventually everything always works out. I don’t put much effort into my existence. I want world leaders to do something about the dire state of the world; I can’t understand why they don't. I like happy, lively musicals. I like sleeping under really heavy blankets. I always seem to like Irish comedians. I like the unexpected, mainly because I don’t expect it. I don’t think he could ever understand how much that one moment meant to me. I'm glad I can usually recognise my negative points, even if I find it hard to do anything about them. I am petrified of starting university. Shirley Hughes in a genius. Long live Alfie and Annie-Rose. DEPENDENCE = DEATH OF THE SOUL! My skin looks like papyrus. I like pretending to be Baby Georgie more than you can understand. I find it hard to sit through long films. I love spinning around until I’m dizzy. Vodka is my main source of alcohol. I think anarchy is a good thing. I wish I listened to instrumental bands more, but I find it hard to listen to songs with no lyrics. I don't disagree with downloading music, mainly because I do it. I'm prone to depression. I like drunken ramblings. I spent three months in India. I'm compassionate. Searching for 'Jinkleberry' on google gives you over 400 results, and only one or two are not related to me. Jeff Buckley’s song, Lover, You Should Have Come Over, makes me cry. I’m not very good at saving money. I feel invisible a lot. I like teaching. I'd rather do something I loved for very little money than something I hated for a lot of money. I wish it was me he had c hosen. I like being spontaneous. I like giggling. I like feeling safe around people. I felt the perfect moment on 29/7/2007. Thank you. I don't dislike lying to people, even when I don't have to. I wish I owned more T-shirts. I feel dejected a lot of the time. I don’t like conformity. I hate discrimination and prejudice. It annoys me when public toilets are locked. I’m memorable. I can’t stand it when people use lol. My sense of humour is liable to offend. I like camping, even when it’s stupidly cold. I don’t sleep as much as I used to. Pacifiers are the ultimate accessory when I’m high. I don’t like people who look down on others, mainly because I don’t understand it. I don’t believe an individual is ever solely responsible for his or her actions, I think the act of any individual, good or bad, is an act of society. I like being sick. I don’t like awkward silences. I don't actually care what you think. You’d be surprised. I used to write poetry, but it was rubbish so I stopped. I don't know if I'll ever get round to listening to most of the CDs I own. I have favourites. I don't exercise very much. Sometimes I think I’d be better off completely alone. I do not like to lead. I try to be fair. I like doing my own thing. I like lie-ins. I try to be understanding. I like dark mint chocolates. Outdoor raves are fun. I love the feeling of being held in strong arms. I love to travel. Whenever I think of new things to write here I will add them somewhere in the middle. I pick other peoples litter up off the street to put it in the bin. Although I don't mean to I will take things much too far. IlikeMissingOutTheSpacesWhenItWorks. I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo. Yesterday I woke up sucking a lemon. We never did make Liam famous. MAM soothers are my favourites. I didn’t realise you would tempt me with things I wanted. I like mouth ulcers, which is good as I get a lot. There is more to me than I have written here.'If I truly love one person I love all persons, I love the world, I love life. If I can say to somebody else, "I love you", I must be able to say, 'I love in you everybody, I love through you the world, I love in you also myself.' - Erich Fromm '"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music.' - Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989
