Dirty Little Pretty Things™[BIC]/N.C.

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my name is...
Rochelle LaRae
The Beach is my heaven! ♥♥
I love: Music Tattoos Piercings Rocker Boys Chester Bennington Fast Cars Scary movies of course friends && family. Parties./kickbacks. living, laughing, && loveing!!
THE PROS.
I’m easily loveable. I can make you laugh easily. I love acting like a crazy ass. The beach is my heaven.I try to live life to the fullest. I have a lot of fun. I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. From here on out, I want to be happy. I convince myself daily that I am pretty. I am trying to eat healthier. I'm want to be a completely honest person. But when I am honest, I do it nicely. I am very opinionated. I know what I want, what I like, and I stand up for it. I'm loyal. I value my friends more than anything. I'm a nice person. I appreciate things. I'm considerate and compassionate. I am understanding. I go out of my way for people all the time. But as selfless as I can be I won't risk myself for anyone else. I don't cause stupid drama but if you do, don't expect me to back down or give up easily just because I'm nice. I am pretty independent and am learning to know whats best for myself and not others. I am trying not to make other people decide things for me, but its hard. I always have an open mind to other people's views. I pity almost everyone, even if there's no reason to. I look intimidating, but really, I'm quite friendly. I appreciate being given a chance. I'm random. I don't hate anyone until I have reason. I am easily won over but I am not easily convinced of things. I try to avoid needless conflict. I know how to swallow my pride. But that doesn't mean I do it all the time. If its really an issue then I won't drop it. I am true to myself. I am exciting to be around. I give second chances. I trust easily. Finally, I'm pretty happy with my life. In time, everything balances out. In time, everything heals itself. I like giving advice. I make friends quickly. I try to see situations from all angles before making any conclusions. I'm always up for an adventure. I am strong willed. I observe things. I try to find meanings in the meaningless. I'm very curious. I want to know how the world works. I learn from every mistake. I'm very intricate. I'm trying to improve. I'm trying to be completely myself; uninfluenced by influences I don't want to sway me. I'm trying to accept and fix all my flaws.
THE CONS.
I think too much. I criticize things a lot. I can't control my emotions. I get frustrated easily. I'm probably a hypochondriac. I'm very shy until I feel extremely wanted. I am stubborn. I overreact. I am impatient. I view myself how I want to be rather than how I am. I'm more talkative online than in real life. It's hard for me to change the things I want to. I don't try new things. I am stupid and naive. I always make jokes too soon. I procrastinate really badly. People never listen to me. I like to be right but I hardly ever am. I try to tell people how I feel but they shut me down, which makes me less open with my problems. I don't admit it when something's wrong unless I'm with just one person or its something major. I always confront people about things I most likely shouldn't. When people tell me I'm gorgeous or hold me up to a pedestal I internalize it. Then I get mad when I don't look great. I worry about friends growing away from me. I worry about almost everything. I forget a lot of things and get stressed easily. I'm extremely paranoid. I'm too hard on myself. I am horrible at decision making. I am horrible at knowing what to say. And how to say it. I make situations harder than they are. I take things the wrong way. I can be selfish. Especially with food. But that's different than greedy. I have a problem keeping friends, but the ones I loose, eventually find their way back to me. I hurt people unintentionally. I am the most jealous girl you will ever meet, even though I know I shouldn’t be jealous of anyone, because jealousy is pointless. I make plans with people, and then don’t go through with them, and I hate that. I still don’t have my license, and its holding me back on a social life.
I want a love like this ^