Every so often you come across people, and you say to them "Hey, haven't I seen you somewhere before?" I've never been that person, and I never will. I think most people that meet me remember who I am. I believe each person you meet in life you meet for a reason, no matter how big or small, and I never want to be the person who just blends in. If there is a reason someone comes into my life, I have a responsibility to be as real and honest with them as I can be. As Nick Hexum put it best, "Nothin' in life is above being honest," and if there's one lesson I've learned in my life it is that. There are only two reason people lie. Either they are ashamed of what they did, or they are afraid of the consequences. And in both of those cases, you shouldn't have done it in the first place.Too often I'm the person who puts others first. It's a gift and a curse. Usually as people grow older and mature they are able to better take care of others, but as I grow older I'm learning how to better respect and take care of myself. I've spent years of my life being bitter because I didn't stand up for myself, but fortunately I've gotten through those times with the help of my family and friends, and I now know that I had the right intentions all along - living life for yourself will never give you true happiness, it is about what you can do for others. But there is a fine line between helping people and hurting yourself, and I'm still young enough to where I'll make those mistakes - but I will never give up trying.
My only regrets in life are the people that I've mistreated. I get along with almost everyone I meet, but there are those people (particularly ex-girlfriends) who will think of me as "that asshole" for the rest of their lives. It makes me sad, but its only reason for me to try harder to be a better person.
I believe in God and if I didn't I would not be alive today - and that's the absolute truth. Deep down inside I am very dogmatic about my beliefs and worldview. It's a hard thing for me to talk about because it's also where the central conflicts in my life are. I'm not very tactful when it comes to debating those kinds of issues, but I am good at always putting myself in someone else's shoes.
I am a loyal person, and I take my responsibilities and commitments very seriously. But I do have a great sense of humor. I don't use words lightly, but if I'm joking around you can't take me seriously for a second. I guess this shows two very distinctive sides to my personality.
I've been through a lot of shit in my life and most people would never guess by talking to me the things I've done. But I have learned from it, and it has made me more confident. There is nothing in life that I am afraid of anymore.
