I HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN ALL YOU BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE I'm back in school! FULL TIME. OUCH!!!!

It's been deep, a learning experience about self, no doubt. I jumped into the abyss not knowing what to expect two weeks before school started. Did I know these were advanced classes before I jumped? Of course not. After 15 years of being out and 15 minutes of being back in I began to uncover things about myself that made me laugh, cry, emote, get sick from the stress, heal by recognizing why I'm stressing and change it so that I could move forward, these kinds of things.
The only distractions I've experienced come from me. Oops! I've discovered in this time of simply having a relationship with me, I'm the only one that gets in my way. I'm learning to step outta my way into progressive thinking, opening up brain cells and creating new paths. Literary critical analysis and thinking, even though I've written and published my book "On The Path", makes me look at everything with a more acute awareness. I am seeing with newer eyes. And they actually feel larger! Ain't that a bitch?
Also doing social research and analysis is by no means 'light'. "They" are looking for scholars and students of scholarship. Oh, my gosh, what did I jump into? Yes, my eyes are a bit more open. The brain hurts as it is made to focus in new directions. Homework is a double bitch! Yet the balance in my interview-based theatre workshop caters more to the familiar side of my life experiences. And for that breath of fresh air I am grateful.
But man oh man, I'm telling you, just being in school this Spring '09, going through the stress of keeping up, finding the formulas, working those essays and learning the language create rewards that are awesome. I've had to readjust, clear out, clean up, let go of negative bullshit that tends to come in waves, and be alone, just to allow room for academia, for growth and a better and more efficient way to communicate. I am creating my own stepping stones and stepping up, and I would imagine if I am using anyone to elevate myself, it is 'me' and no one else. And that feels good.
So I am blessed for the path that is before me and that I am on.
Just letting beautiful folks into my life to say, thank you for your beautiful, kind and inspirational words and conversations. If I have not written to you, as you read these words, may you know that love always surrounds us, the light is ever present between us and communication shall always be the key, to living in a world that is on the mend.
That includes the world between you and me.
Always,
Christa Victoria