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Dear Lord, I thank You for this day. I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness. Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You. Please br oaden my mind that I can accept all things. Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. And It's the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits. I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my heart..... Continue to use me to do Your will. Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak... Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others. I pray for those that are lost and can't find their way. I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray for those who don't know You intimately. I pray for those that will delete this without sharing it with others. I pray for those that don't believe. But I thank you that I believe. I believe that God changes people and God changes things. I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each a nd every family member in their households. I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met. I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees it.
This past year was a terrible one for me (a lot of pain & heartache). 2006 was a struggle. I from Detroit but I have moved to Texas temporally to get my life back on track. I lost both my grandparents in less than two weeks of each other. I was very very close to my grandmother (as I would say my granny pooh) I miss her with all my heart, I would give anything and I mean anything to have her back and my granddaddy. I was in a relationship and even though I was in love the relationship was going down a path I was not welling to go. I believed for a long time that Love doesn't hurt but I found out that Love is complex & deep and can be many things and sometimes it can be painful. I left that relationship after I realize that the love I had for him wouldn't help him change. It's true you can't change a man to be what yo want, if they don't want to change theres nothing you can do. Sometimes I think people take love for granted. Love is precious and deserves to be loved back! Every relationship I have been in I have been hurt and I didn't understand why, I used to wonder if there was something wrong with me but I know now there is and was nothing wrong with me there was something wrong with the men I was with. I think people who love another peron deeply are blinded by it and sometimes do stupid things to keep the other person even though we know we deserve better. I guess it is true what they say Love is Blind!
Right now I'm not looking forward to getting into a relationship because of the last one I was in. I'm not trying to be mean but I believe I have lost all trust for most guys, that doesn't mean I can't learn to trust people in particular not just men. It just means it will be a struggle to trust people, once trust is lost it is very hard to get it back not matter what is done. Many people just don't understand after getting your heartbroken over & over again you kinda lose hope for someone to treat you right. Right now I just want to back health and finish school. Im majoring in Forensics Science & Criminal Justice.
For anyone who doesn't know for the past 13 years I have been struggle with Lupus. Lupus is a disease which the body's immune system attacks the body's organs (Autoimmune Disease). Last year I was in and out of this hospital most of that year. I have learned to accept my disease and I have learned to live a great life with it. Don't get me wrong it is a struggle to fight this disease but I will not let it bring me down, yes it might stop me in my tracks for time to time but that the only thing it can do. If there is anyone who can't accept the fact that I have Lupus then there is no room in my life for them. I live with this disease everyday its apart of me and will always be. I have fought many battles but I will not fight for someone to accept me because I have Lupus it's just not going to happen. My disease doesn't define me it only makes me a better person. There is more to me then the fact that I have a disease. By the way no one can get from touching me. I was born with it my father (sperm donor) gave it to.