first velcro & then the world

CONDEMNED CONDEMNED CONDEMNEDNO LONGER IN USEI am in california. A small box of hours ago I could have explained the reasons for this. Now as the sunlight and the grass leap hurriedly into the past I cannot seem to uncork any explanation for this business of wine-making, it is trapped firmly inside. The shirt I'm wearing right now is orange and my underwear are green with polar bears. I never seem to be asleep. No matter what I do I am always either crawling out of a bed or else finding some good excuse not to get into one. I used to be good at alot of things but I broke them all for kindling. When it is very dark in this breadbox I sometimes think that lionel (HI LIONEL!) is my only real friend and that the rest of you are fucking meat testtubes. Other times I wonder how I could think such awful things and then... I meet yet another close-minded cynical member of my generation. I do not question why so many flock to things like original sin or find so much comfort in writing off humanities shorcomings to ignorance, uncontrolled desire nature and monkey mind.Ah yes lionel is certainly a good panda, he was ultimately responsible for me wandering in here (although there are other miscreant lurking about whom may have had something to do with it). He and I took many hikes into the rocky mountains behind my ex-home. He has helped me start playing the guitar and I have been trying to help him learn about poetry. I really do miss those mountains alot. I really like writing long strange things, especially if I can e-mail them to someone afterwards. I have blue velcro shoes. I prefer llamas to horses and buried treasure to swingsets. Swingsets to seahorses and seahorses to ham sandwiches.I believe that the world and its populous are undergoing drastic changes and that the unbearable darkness and malaise that many suffer from is a part of that. Meanwhile the potentials of our lives are growing at such an unprecedented rate that soon someone may actually realize that they can be themselves and it will not only be fashionable, but profitable and fun. Suddenly people will start being themselves without paying any mind to biggest monkey politics, jargon, dogma, trend, religious zealotry and petty things like death, poverty, being cool, clever or enslaved. Plus I think men are going to be the new chicks. We'll all just lie around naked on pleasure ranches and wait for women who want to support us, in exchange for, well whatever it is you women actually fucking want.CONDEMNED CONDEMNED CONDEMNED CONDEMNED