♥jessica♥

wassup everyone! tha names jessica and im so damn awsome, ..im not gana lie. im 19. i have a daughter on the way, i cant wait for her to be here, due june 19, DANIELLE ALEXIS NELSON♥ the father aint in the picture, he will be left as "unknown" cuz that nigga aint shit. im single, and no im not looking. i dont get married, i dont do boyfriends, and i dont do love. so, dont try to holla. im also not a hoe so dont try to holla if u think u can get me for a quick fuck, it aint happenin. i dont deal wit players n haters. i like to party n go out, i like to shop, go to the river, n jus chill. im a HUGE believer in KARMA, what goes around comes around. i grad class of 07 n gana go to college sometime soon. im kinda on tha slow side, lol. im not so smartest person n tha world, and i dont catch on to most things, but its all good, i dont mind ppl making fun of me ill laugh too! i like to smile n make people laugh. im not gana lie, i can be a bitch if i dont like you or if you make me mad.. but most of the time im jus chill and like to laugh n play round. if u wana kno anything else jus ask!
Love me without fear...
Trust me without questioning...
Need me without demanding...
Want me without restrictions...
Accept me without change...
Desire me without inhibitions...
as we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down probably will. you'll have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time. you'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when someone broke yours. you'll fight with your best friend and mabey even fall in love with them. you'll blame a new love for things an old one did. you'll cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone close to you. so take too many pictures , laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt. because every 60 seconds you spend angry or upset is a miniute of happiness you'll never get back.

R.I.P. DAD
danny ray nelson
9-26-59 ♥ 1-25-08
Dad, i love You so much and i miss You, i think about You all the time and there isnt one second that passes that Your not in my mind. You were by far the best dad anyone could have asked for. Your the most caring, giving, loving, understanding guy i knew, always here for me and your kids no matter what. just know Dad that You are ALWAYS in my heart, and no one will EVER be able to replace you or take your spot. i wish You were able to meet Your first granchild, i know You wanted one so bad and were excited when You found out You were about to be a grandpa. but i know he or she will make you happy. and i know we will all be together again one day. i cant wait to see You again in the future, but i know Your up there looking and watching over us. i wish i could have told You bye or that i loved you just one more time, but i know You knew that i love You with ALL my heart and always will, You will never be forgotten. i keep feeling like theres something i can do to bring You back, but theres not, Your already in a better place. i cherish all the memories we made together all the fun and happy times we had threw out the last 18 years together, those wont be forgotten. i keep you in my prayers Daddy, and just know i will do my best to make You proud of me, and i will be with You again one day, i promise. i love You so much Dad.

everyone please keep my Dad and our family in your prayers, he passed away friday, janurary 25, 2008. this is by far the hardest thing ive ever gone threw. i know how you always hear about people dying or see it on the news, but dont really think much of it. but when it happens to someone you love, or someone that you have been with your hole life, its just crazy, and dont really know what to do, but you just have to deal and accept the fact that threre gone and pray that there in a better place. i never would have expected to be without a father. hes been around my hole life, ive never even thought of how it would be without one of your parents, its the worst feeling i cant even begin to describe how bad it is. but all i can do is accept that he is gone, and know that hes in a better place watching over me. make sure that whatever you do, always tell the ones you love how much they mean to you, tell them you love them. beacuse you never know what could happen. people always told me that, and i never listened because i never thought it would happen to me, and no one ever thinks it would happen to them. i wish i would have listened though, and told him i loved him before he passed. the last thing i did was yell at him on the phone and hang up on him the nite before. that was the last time ever hearing his voice, so now i have to live with knowing i didnt even get to tell him i love him once more. so whatever you do, just know people arent always going to be around.
A nigga has 4 different types of girls..
1.Wifey
2.Boo
3.Bitches
4.Ho's
1)Wifey is irreplaceable.. she is the only one that is irreplaceable.. She is the girl that the guy loves and will always love, and he never wants to see her with another man.. But.. He will cheat on her with Boo, Bitches, and Ho's until he is mature enough to realize that if he loses Wifey he would be screwed, and NEVER be happy again..
2) Boo is replaceable, she thinks she's Wifey, but will NEVER be Wifey because Wifey was made Wifey is irreplaceable.. she can NEVER replace her.. Boo tries to take Wifeys spot, but once she attempts, the guy allows her to get a TASTE of Wifey's spot... but will NEVER achieve her spot for any longer than a few months, then the man goes back to Wifey.. And Boo either gets replaced with another Boo, or, the man matures and decides that Wifey is the one for him.. (Ladies.. you don't want to be BOO)
3) Bitches.. A female that a male uses only for sex or other sexually related events..Dat call when Wifey acting up and you need a quick nut. The bitch is the first one running there.
4) Ho's.. enough said! Trying to move up in life, Wants to be a Bitch or a Boo. Hoes are just the girls you bag for no reason and have them in your phone. Backups incase a bitch or a boo slips up.Then you replace with a hoe.
things i have learned..
ive learned that you cannot make someone love you
all you can do is be someone who can be loved
the rest is up to them
ive learned that no matter how much i care, some people just dont care back
ive learned that it takes months to build up trust, and only one second to destroy it
ive learned to always tell the ones you love how you feel, cuz no telling when they will be gone
ive learned that its not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts
ive learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life
ive learned that its taking me a long time to become the person i want to be
ive learned that you can keep going long after you think you cant
ive learned that learning to forgive takes practice
ive learned to trust no one in life
ive learned that just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to doesnt mean they dont love you with all they have
ive learned that maturity has more to do with what types of expericnces youve had and what youve learned from them than how many birthdays youve had
ive learned that family is the only ones that will be here for me
ive learned that our backround and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become
ive learned that you shouldnt be so eager to find out a secret, it could change ur life forever
ive learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something tottally different
ive learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honeset with themselfs get farther in life
ive learned to depend on no one but myself
ive learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help
ive learned that talking can ease emotional pain
ive learned that the people you care most about in love are taken from you too soon
i'm selfish, impatient & a little insecure, im out of control & at times i'm hard to handle but if you can't handle me at my worst then you sure as hell dont deserve me at my best
judge me and ill prove you wrong. tell me what to do and ill tell you off. say im not worth it and watch where i end up. call me a bitch and ill show you one. screw me over and ill do it to you twice as bad. call me crazy but you really have no idea.
i believe that everything happens for a reason, people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when there right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
God determines who walks into your life.. its up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.
she will chase you around for awhile, but theres going to be a day when shes going to stop running in circles around you. shes going to get over you, and at that very moment youre going to wish you had let her catch you.
tell her how you admire her . always tell her you love her at all times. when shes upset hold her tight . pick her over all the other girls you hang out with. make her a cd that reminds her of you. buy her things. dont lie to her. dont cheat on her. text message her just to say " i love you , or good night , good morning , or have a good day ". play with her hair . pick her up tickle her and wrestle with her. just talk to her. tell her jokes . bring her flowers just because. share secrets . give her your jacket . let her be with you when your with your friends . invite her places. take pics with her. laugh with her. hold her hand and run. just hold her hand . throw pebbles at her window at night. let her fall asleep in your arms. sing to her no matter how awful you sound. get her mad at you. then kiss her. give her piggy back rides. push her on swings . tell her she looks beautiful . when shes sad , stay on the phone with her, even if shes not saying anything. look into her eyes and smile . kiss her on her forehead . slow dance with her even if theres no music. kiss her in the rain . and when you fall in love with her.. tell her.i want a guy.. who would move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me. hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous . someone who would sing to me at random moments. who would let me sleep on their chest . a boy who would get mad at someone if they called me ugly or was mean to me. i want someone who would call me 3 times a day if he went away . someone who would let me gossip to him and would just smile and agree with everything i said. he would throw stuffed animals at me when i acted dumb and then kiss me a million times. someone who would make fun of me just to make me laugh . he would take me to the park and put his hands around my waist and give me big bear hugs all the time . he would tell all his friends about me and smile when he did it. and we'd makeout in the pouring rain . he would never be afraid to say "I love you", in front of his friends , and we'd argue about silly things then make up. i want a boy that would kiss me at midnight on new years and count stars with me. who would stay home with me on a friday night just to help me make dinner & watch movies together under the same blanket . someone who would tell me im beautiful but not too often. who would me me laugh like no one else could, someone that could prove to me that not all guys are the same. but mostly i want someone who would be my best friend and would never break my heart .♥
If you dress nicely, he says you're a snob.
If you dress sexy, he says you're a slut.
If you argue with him, he says you're stubborn.
If you're quiet, he says you're stupid.
If you call him, he says you're needy & clingy.
If he calls you, he says you should be grateful.
If you don't love him, he'll try to win you.
If you love him, he'll leave you.
If you tell him your problems, he'll say you're irritating.
If you dont, he'll say you dont trust him.
If you lecture him, he'll say you're bitchy.
If he lectures you, it's because he "cares".
If you break a promise, you can't be trusted.
If he breaks it, he had to.
If you cheat, he'll expect it to be over.
If he cheats, he expects to be given another chance.
women think they are cleaver because they can fake orgasms for a relationship, big deal men can fake a whole relationship for an orgasm
theres only 3 things people need in their life - love to make you weak - alcohol to make you strong - and friends to pick you up when both of em make you fall
if i wasnt married to the streets it'd be you