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Hello there, time to unravel the enthralling saga that is me. lol, not really. I'm just an twenty-year-old lover of writing, political enthusiast, and music nut. I appreciate music from many genres, such as: rock, jazz, blues, alternative, soul, r&b, newgrass (revamped bluegrass), and contemporary folk. I seek out well-crafted instrumentation and lyrics - I don't just appreciate the voice or the beat, but the nuances of music, like the instrumental arrangements and the message or theme of the lyrics. I love to write, play piano, read, and discover new things.
I used to stress a great deal over school, but I've finally gained perspective: in the fall of 2003 my parents divorced, and if I came away with any constructive inspiration, it was that the pressuring adage that "I'm not good enough if I don't get straight A's" is terribly wrong. I used to be fixated on doing just that, but the turmoil in my life has made me rethink my priorities. No longer do I measure my self-worth by my grade point average. Although I've been through some difficult times, my experiences since leaving Drum Rock Elementary School have made me who I am today, and I wouldn't change any of them. For instance, I wore a back brace for scoliosis in junior high, making me the object of adolescent taunting and crushing my self-esteem. I cannot fathom how anyone can take twisted pleasure in humiliating and degrading others - it's frightening how devoid of conscience some people can be.
This is a quote that I live by: "Ignorant people talk about PEOPLE, average people talk about THINGS, but wise people talk about IDEAS." I try to ignore any rumors and gossip that I hear, and I do my best to give people the benefit of the doubt, because I know what it feels like to be berated and judged by ignorant people. What I mean is, often the people who have judged me did not have any idea as to what was going on in my life. No one has the right to judge people, and passing judgment is particularly damaging when you do not have all the facts - when you make assumptions about people based on their appearances or their actions, without having the slightest comprehension of what their lives are like. This is what so bewildered me in junior high - I never bothered anyone, and I certainly did not ask to wear a plastic back brace and pull a rolling backpack down the hall while everyone else had to carry their books - yet people felt the need to be inexplicably cruel to me. I'm not saying this as a sob story to attain sympathy, because I'm over that period in my life and I've moved on, but just as an example of how people make judgments and berate people whom they don't even really know. I would think to myself, "They don't even know me! Don't they stop to think, 'Gee, there might be a reason why she's taking the elevator and pulling that backpack that I don't know about'?!" But these people either lacked the reasoning skills to consider the possibility that I might be dealing with problems of which they were unaware, or they lacked the compassion to care.
Later on, in high school, one of the kids who had harassed me in junior high crossed my path again, and I had come to terms with my situation enough to say something to him. I still pulled a rolling backpack because I had undergone back surgery, and every day when I came into math class, he taunted me about that backpack. I know, really clever, right? His friends would chuckle at his oh-so-ingenious taunts, and I felt that old humiliation and degradation returning, but I kept my mouth shut at first and did not acknowledge his existence. But one day, he was particularly relentless, and I couldn't take it anymore. I turned around, looked him right in the face and said, "I had back surgery; that's why I need to use this backpack. I'm SO sorry my backpack is bothering you." I spoke loudly because I did not care if anyone heard - I WANTED them all to hear. I could feel my eyes welling up and the color rushing to my face, but I turned away from him before anyone could notice. Now you'd think that any normal, feeling human being - even an arrogant moron who liked to hurt people to make himself look good - would recoil a bit and shut up. But this person did not. He just offered some asinine comeback like "You should be," and I was floored. And the comments did not stop. They continued every day as before, and I was now struck by the extent of this person's amorality; I could no longer ascribe his behavior to ignorance, because he now knew what my situation was. Soon after, I asked my teacher to move my seat across the room so that I could get away from him. That same year, when I stopped using a rolling backpack, this person stopped making comments to me. To this day, he has never said anything to me since I stopped using a rolling backpack. How pathetic is that? That backpack provided the only material that his witless self could come up with to make derogatory jokes about me. Anyway, I have gone into more detail than I had planned, but the point is that some people are cruel out of ignorance, but others are cruel because they just have no conscience, and I think the latter is the more frightening type of cruelty. Ignorant people can be educated, but amoral people are out of reach - they're too far gone. Just like Kurtz in Heart of Darkness, amoral people cannot be appealed to and shown the error of their ways, because they have no conscience. I'm glad to say that I am the antithesis of this type of person - I've got too much conscience sometimes, it seems. I worry too much about doing the right thing. But I'd rather have an overactive conscience than none at all.
You Should Get a PhD in Liberal Arts (like political science, literature, or philosophy)
You're a great thinker and a true philosopher. You'd make a talented professor or writer. What Advanced Degree Should You Get?
Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence
You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator. What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?
You Are A Lily
You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize. What Flower Are You?
Your Life Path Number is 7
Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning
You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life.
You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights.
A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way.
In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit.
While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme.
You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends.
Express yourself a little bit more, and you'll be surprised where it takes you! What Is Your Life Path Number?
Your Personality Is
Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. The Three Question Personality Test
I took the " The Nine Muses " quiz on gURL.com
My muse is...
Calliope
Calliope is the patron goddess of epic poetry. She is often depicted holding a writing tablet and wearing a golden crown, for she is the oldest of the muses and their leader. Her name means "The Fair Voiced," but Calliope inspires eloquence in writing. Read more ...
Who is your muse?
What's your favorite....
Beverage (non-alc) ? water, apple cider, juice
Beverage (alc) ? none
Color ? purple
Food ? pizza or pasta
Item of clothing ? gathered shirts
Meal of the day ? supper
Feature on yourself ? Idk
Quality in a guy/girl ? compassion, humility, humor
Phrase ?
Song ? Too hard! I'm a music nut. I love "Why Georgia" and "New Deep" by John Mayer, "Vultures" by JM3, "Lonely Nation," "Sooner Or Later," and "The Shadow Proves The Sunshine" by Switchfoot, and "How To Save A Life" and "All At Once" by The Fray.
Musical Artist/Band ? Too hard again! John Mayer, JM3, The Fray, Switchfoot, Guster, Nickel Creek, Goo Goo Dolls, Matchbox 20, Jamie Cullum, Anna Nalick, and Charlotte Martin.
Sport ? I don't like sports, but baseball is the most tolerable for me.
Movie ? Jane Eyre, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, The Santa Clause, Home Alone, and Liar Liar
TV Show ? Friends, Frasier, Cheers, Who's The Boss, Whose Line Is It Anyway, Rocko's Modern Life, Spongebob, Fairly Oddparents
Radio Station ? 92.9 WBOS
Type of Chocolate ? milk chocolate
Eye Color ? brown <3
Do you/Have you ever....
Have any pets ? 5 dogs and a parrot. :)
Smoke ? no. never would.
Drink ? no.
Have any piercings ? no.
Have any tatoos ? no.
Cheat on a boyfriend/girlfriend I would never.
Gone streaking ? XD yeah, sure. That's me.
Gone skinny dipping ? no.
Been to Europe ? no.
Been to an island ? Block Island.
Had stitches ? yes, in my ear when I was 3 or 4.
Broken any bones ? no.
Been stabbed/shot ? Nope. There goes that rap career I wanted so bad.
Slept until after 12:00 ? Yeah. But I regretted it - the day goes by too fast.
Stayed up all night ? Yes. A few times it was due to homework.
Danced like a whore ? no.
Hooked up with 2 people in one weekend ? ew, no.
Turned down a dare ? Come on, you're talking to the biggest chicken on Earth - what do you think?
Would you ever....
Eat pizza with chocolate chips ? no.
Kiss someone of the same sex ? no.
Cheat on someone you love ? no.
Run away from home ? no. Again, too chicken!
Lie to your parents ? about minor things, yes. Not my whereabouts, but "Are you doing your homework?" That sort of thing.
Lie to your boyfriend/girlfriend ? Yes, but only white lies. That's okay if you want to spare someone's feelings.
Lie to your best friend ? see above
Give a homeless person money ? yes.
Run from the police ? depends. it does tend to make things worse though - you get in less trouble if you turn yourself in.
Bungee jump ? no.
Sky dive ? Sounds awesome, but I'm not the daredevil type.
Cross dress ? nah.
Be an exotic dancer ? no. Women are not objects to be put on display for male oglers.
Walk out of a restaurant without paying ? no.
Scuba dive ? sure.
Go rock climbing ? no.
Go spulunking (caving) ? Maybe with a big group - otherwise it'd be too creepy.
What do you think of when you hear....
Eminem ? Ignorant scum.
Bologna ? Oscar Mayer.
Hott ? Too many "t's."
Orange ? Juice.
Real world ? "I just found out there's no such thing as the real world/Just a lie you've got to rise above"
Fuck ? A verbal crutch for witless people.
Jack ? Of clubs.
Cucumber ? Melon.
Hip-Hop ? Over-rated, sleazy excuse for "music."
Uniform ? Boring.
UniCORN ! ? Mythical woodland creatures. Duh.
Rainbow ? Pure beauty of nature.
Clown ? Creepy!
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I took the " The Color Personality " quiz on gURL.com
My personality is...
blue
You're a cool and collected blue... According to color psychology, you're the very picture of serenity. You're probably great at keeping calm and clear-headed when others are freaking out... Read more ...
What color is your personality?
You are a Brainy Girl!
Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books. You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more. For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests. A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!What Kind of Girl Are You? Take This Quiz :-)
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INFP - "Questor". High capacity for caring. Emotional face to the world. High sense of honor derived from internal values. 4.4% of total population. Free Jung Word Test (similar to Myers-Briggs)
personality tests by similarminds.com
How You Life Your Life
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many acquaintences. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable. How Do You Live Your Life?
..TR> INFP - the Healer
You scored 18% I to E, 21% N to S, 14% F to T, and 73% J to P!
You are more introverted than extroverted. You are more intuitive than observant, you are more feeling based than thinking based, and you prefer to go with the flow rather than having a plan. Your type can best be summarized by the word "Healer", which belongs to the larger group of idealists. You have a capacity for caring that is deeper than most. You strive for unity, are fascinated by the battles between good and evil, and can be something of an idealist. Only 1% of the population shares your type.
As a romantic partner, you are usually supprtive and nurturing, however, you have a high need for individuality. Harmony is extremely important to you as you are very affected by conflict and tension, which also makes you resist confronting your partner directly about problems. When you get angry, you usually blame yourself, rather than your partner. You can also be stubborn and unyielding when you feel you are being criticized or mistreated. You feel the most appreciated when your partner listens to you carefully. You need to be understood. You need to hear your partner express their feelings, the more often, the better. Your group summary: idealists (NF)
Your type summary: INFP
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..TR> My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: ..TR> ..TR> ..TABLE> You scored higher than 22% on I to E
..TR> ..TABLE> You scored higher than 20% on N to S
..TR> ..TABLE> You scored higher than 7% on F to T
..TR> ..TABLE> You scored higher than 81% on J to P ..TABLE> ..TABLE>
Link: The LONG Scientific Personality Test written by unpretentious2 on Ok Cupid
Your ..1 Match: INFP
The IdealistYou are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.
Your ..2 Match: INFJ
The ProtectorYou live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.
Your ..3 Match: ISFP
The ArtistYou are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.
Your ..4 Match: INTP
The ThinkerYou are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it.You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.
Your ..5 Match: ENFP
The InspirerYou love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. What's Your Personality Type?
Your Life Path Number Is 7
7 You are a peaceful and affectionate soul... and by nature rather reserved and analytical.The overwhelming strength of the number 7 is reflected in the depth of thinking that is shown.You will garner knowledge from practically every source that you find.Intellectual, scientific and studious, you don't accept a premise until you have dissected the subject and arrived at you own independent conclusion.This is a very spiritual number and it often denotes a sort of spiritual wisdom that becomes apparent at a fairly early age. You need a good deal of quiet time to be with your own inner thoughts and dreams.You dislike crowds, noise and confusion.You are very thorough and complete in your work, the perfectionist who expects everyone else to be a meet a high standard of performance, too.You evaluate situations very quickly and with amazing accuracy.You rely heavily on your experiences and your intuition, rather than accepting advice from someone.Your hunches usually prove to be very accurate, and knowing this, you are one who tends to follow the directions they seem to guide.It's easy for you to detect deception and recognize insincere people.You aren't one to have a wide circle of friends, but once you accept someone as a friend, it's for life.You really aren't a very social person, and your reserve is often taken to be aloofness.You actually like being alone, away from the hustle and bustle of modern life.In many ways, you would have fit in better in much earlier times when the pace of life was less hectic.In the most negative use of the 7 energies, you can become very pessimistic, lackadaisical, quarrelsome, and secretive.A Life Path 7 individual who is not living life fully and gaining through experiences.A negative 7 is a hard person to live with because of a serious lack of consideration.The negative 7 is very selfish and spoiled.If you have any of the negative traits they are very difficult to get rid of.At your worst, you feel that the world really does owe you something - or in some way you aren't being fairly treated.Fortunately, the negative 7 is not the typical 7, at least not without some mitigating positive traits.This number is one that seems to have some major shifts from highs to lows.Stability in feelings may be elusive for you. What Is Your Life Path Number?
You Have Fantastic Karma
You are a kind, sensitive, and giving person. And all your good deeds will pay off - if they haven't already. But you're not so concerned with what you get in return anyway. You have an innate caring nature - and nothing can change that! How's Your Karma?