This is a point in my life when I..m realizing
who matters, who never did, who won..t anymore,
and who always will. That..s why I..ve stopped worrying
about people from my past, there..s a reason why
they won..t make it to my future.
My Story
Since I was 6 yrs old I have prepared myself for greatness, we..re talking pretending to accept awards in mirrors for hours early on. I still think I..m going to the top, the top of what, I..m not sure of. Perhaps the world :]
I'm a work in progress therefor I embrace change.
I am who I am and I..ll never fake it just to fit in a group or category so don..t try to label me, you..d be weasting time.
I write alot because that's the only way I can show my emotions and not be scared of the consequences. Also, if you pay attention to my favourite songs or the ones on my profile, you can get to hear the words I..ll never speak..
I like my music best when it's screaming in my face.
If you don't like music...I suggest you leave now. I'm serious!
You..ll probably break my heart if I care for you enough. I..ll love you anyways but never trust you again.
...I feel quite lonely in crowds [I hate how cliche that is to say]. I suppose it..s because I..m able to let people appear close while keeping them at an enormous distance.
I connect with such a diverse group of people that you might not even get it. Most of my friends are not the people you'd expect.
I like individual attention, rather than a huge group. But groups are fun.
When I was younger I would cut off contact with people quickly, rather than working things out, Id been known to simply say "Never speak to me again" then forget they exist. For some reason, I dont think Im like that now. Perhaps it comes with age and realizing how flawed we all really are...
I hate asking for help because I'm stubborn.
I hate talking on the phone... so if you're able to keep me interested for more than 10 mins...you're ace in my book. Also, if I didn..t answer and I return your phone call feel blessed because I rarely do it.
I over-analyze just about everything.
I wish I could take my own advice.
I hate drama and I want to poke people that act all dramatic!!
I tend to zone out from time to time.
I was diagnosed with OCD as a kid, I think I'm finally "growing out of it." Its not that I..d wash my hands raw or anything, but Id tell myself that if heard certain songs, or changed the channels a certain way - something awful would happen. I was very, very good at hiding it. At least I hope I was.
In elementary school I started making my own magazine. My bestfriends grandmother would sew the pages into a piece of cardboard, and I..d use plain wrapping paper that I drew on for the cover. We even had contest and prizes to win. One day I..ll have my own magazine!
I don..t own a car and I dont want to.
still reading?? good golly miss molly!!!
Anyways.. I hide my real personality from people most of the time. It..s like I have public stories, public information, and public attitudes - then private ones. It apparently (so I..ve been told) takes a lot of work to get past the public stories, like the ones on this page, and hear the private ones. Usually the private ones are the tragic edge to the public comedy. I just sort of omit the parts that would disturb anyone.
I keep getting told that I give people dirty looks, so Id just like to put this out there, if Ive ever made a mean face at you - odds are I was just lost in thought and the thought was about something I didn't like. I honestly cant think of anyone important enough to give mean looks to
I love/hate Stephane Miroux and Gael really makes it in my world.
"I am your neighbor and a liar. By the way, do you have Zoe's number?" :]
Life is just a plot... I..ll make mine into a story.
