I 'm sorry for not opening up my heart to some of you that really deserved it. I was a dick back then but if you see me out and about, come say hi because I've changed a lot as a person. I've learned to open my heart to new faces.
I'm Moving On...
I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.
I 'm Matt, 21yrs old. Live in Castaic/Santa Clarita Valley and as well as San Diego. I'm in the United States Navy as a SG-AD (Aviation Machineist Mate). I'm half azian and white. I'm known as "2's." Last name is German, get it right! Don't have a logo and I don't need to impress anyone except myself. I'm a down to earth guy. I stand back and observe people when I don't know them and I rarely come up to people and introduce myself. I do pre-judge people but I always give them a chance to prove me wrong. I choose to hang out with the same types of people as myself when it comes to personality. If you immature or live off drama, go away! I love helping people out when their in need. I'm very blunt and the truth does hurt sometimes, but at least it's the truth. I never try and sugar coat anything. That's straight up bullshit. And for all the "fakes, liars, cheaters, ect" out there... man up to your mistakes! If you wanna get to know me... ask.
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To the people that I forgot, you weren't on my mind for some reason and you probably don't deserve it... Thanks anyways.
I don't care what other people are going to say or think about me. I choose my way of life and besides, half the time the people talking shit don't even have the story straight. I live to stand out, not live in and amongst the crowd. I try not to follow and set trends. I have no one but myself to impress and there is no point in ever having to justify myself or my actions. People like this are excess baggage in my life and slowly but surely get weeded out of my "friends space." In the end, I will only have myself, so why please everyone else when I'm the one that counts?
S o... many people are all caught up in their material possessions. It is not the physical aspects of life that make it what it is. Sure, they are nice to have, but they aren't the most important. We forget to see people for who they are under all of the fancy crap. I am MATT and there is no reason for me to act otherwise. God made everyone the way they are and there is nothing that should prevent us from acting the part. Looks and money can only go so far in life and I don't and won't rely on those things to make me happy. I am crazy. I'm not trying to be "Brad Pitt" or anyone other than myself. There are so many people out there constantly trying to be something they aren't and I don't know why. Just be yourself. I had a mixed up crazy twisted life so far and I'm positive there is more awaiting me in the future but I'm going to tackle it head on. Struggles and downfalls make you appreciate the good times that much more and sometimes its a good reality check when I start to take things for granted. Drama: something I don't really care for, but seems to always make its sneaky way into my life. When its there, I embrace it and deal with it. It makes me stronger and teaches me more about life and people. You are the only one in charge of the path you take in life. Don't let other people stomp on that. Your future is yours and no one else can fuck that up besides you. My whole deal on this is to make you think and maybe affect you somehow. Life is too short for bullshit. Go commando and balls out... every time.
W e are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that in the end we become disguised to ourselves. Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself. Learn to... be what you are, and learn to resign with a good grace all that you are not. IT IS BETTER TO BE HATED FOR WHAT YOU ARE THEN TO BE LOVED FOR WHAT YOUR NOT. Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will find them gradually, without noticing it, and live along some distant day into the answer. How can something be so beautiful and yet at the same time be so destructive...Beauty is deceiving.
" B E MORE CONCERNED ABOUT YOUR CHARACTER THAN YOUR REPUTATION. BECAUSE YOUR CHARACTER IS WHO YOU ARE AND YOUR REPUTATION IS WHAT OTHERS THINK OF YOU.. AND WHO REALLY CARES WHAT OTHERS THINK OF YOU?"
