About Me
hi my name is samantha Iam 34 years old I have been a Christian since Oct 27 2003... The LORD is my life... He has been there for me through the good and bad times... He never gave up on me... Thank you JESUS for being my best friend... Here is a little more about me ... I have 2 sisters and a brother... I just got married Sept 23 2007 we have been together since July 31 2005... Before i became a Christian my life was a bunch of lies I did not let people see the real me .The real me was the oppisite of what people seen. what people saw was me being this happy person out going , but whay they did not see was me on the inside , my inside was dead , I was in depression , to hide the depression I used enegry drinks "180s" and stacker 2 that was my happiness, people meaning family and friends thought i was this happy person . but they where wrong ,i was working at a bar for almost 8 years making real good $$$$$$ but you know what thayt did not even make me happy,the depression was so bad that i wanted to kill myself i had panic attacks, it was not a good life i lived . i was not who people thought i was . btu it all got bettter for me on October 27 2003, that was the last of my old life and into the new with our LORD JESUS, JESUS SAVED ME FROM MYSELF , on this day i woke up with a panic attack i thought this was the day i wanted to kill myself ,but the LORD had better plans 4 me. so as i was saying i woke up having a panic attack so i went in the shower to try to calm my self down but it got worse, i was having a battle between satin and God . my thoughts where not my own. satin wanted me dead , he was telling me to just kill myself i wont have 2 go through this any more, and GOD was saying to turn to Him and things would get better. i was scratching my chest till it was red and raw this battle it was bad , i really thought i was going to die that day but the LORD HIS voice over powered satin so the LORD told me to call a friend and get help. thats whta i did . she took me to her doctor and that is whereit got worse 4 me. they had to call the ambulance and have then take me to the hospital, thats where the LORD wanted me , when i got there i cant explain it ,it was so crazy , when i went to the hospital i had my eyes closed and i heard the LORD say you think your life is bad , look at the people around you.i saw a guy with blood comming out of his chest , another person strung up on drugs so bad that they had to strap him down on the strecher and put a mask over his head so he would not keep spitting at the doctors, i knew it was the LORD because my sister is a Christian and she used to try to tell me about GOD and JESUS but i did not want to hear about it at the time ,she palnted a seed in me all along and with her prayers GOD did answer them for her, i called her when i was in the hospital and when i left the hospital she met me at my moms house ,we prayed and talked with the LORD , from that day on till know i have not been depressed ,no panic attacks no thoughts of killing myself, and i did it with OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST, JESUS SAVED ME FROM MYSELF, I dont neeed pills to make me happy all i need is the LORD JESUS . THANK U JESUS THANK YOU LORD,
