Renee Brubaker

I am truly blessed. I thank God everyday for my family... and for my friends who have become family... and for health and happiness. I have the best family in the world. I definitely grew up in what you would call a "cookie-cutter" environment. I was innocently naive, with a conditional curiosity. I sought after adventure, and experience. I have taken many risks in life, but nothing to where I feared "losing myself". I have that "been there, done that" mentality. Yet I have never done a drug in my life, nor do I have any desire to. I am lucky enough to do what I love on a daily basis and make it work.
I make music because it's my passion. Nothing makes me feel more at peace and whole. I don't do music because I think it could make me beaucoup bucks. I feel that the business part of it takes the trueness out of it, at least for me it does. Writing words and music is therapeutic. And having very close friends who are extremely talented to collaborate with just makes it that much more amazing. Combining our "gifts" is nothing short of magical. You know who you are, and you bring out the best in me. I'll never stop singing. I'll never lose that passion. It has allowed me to have irreplaceable experiences and it brought me so far out of the box, and I am greatly appreciative. Why be square when you don't have to be? I am sure I will do big things in life... But if you don't love me now, don't bother trying to love me later.
As I get older, I feel like I have brought with me the best version of myself. I've had all the time in the world to be young, and naive... I've had plenty of time to blame all my mistakes and bad decisions on others. Not that there were very many, but I think a huge part of growing up is taking responsibility and "letting go". We've all held grudges, or made excuses for our actions, or have given others advice that we ourselves failed to apply. I'm not naive to what is out there in the world... and that is why I feel so blessed. I've spent a lot of my life with an angel on one shoulder, and a devil on the other... and I have lived the kinda life where I'm aware of the devil's presence, but I always adhere to the angel's persuasion. I have a good heart... and I have a guilty conscience, which keeps me in check.
Everything God has put in my path has had a distinct purpose.
I take responsibility for my past... And I take pride in everything present.
And I miss my grandpa everyday.