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†Mï¢helle†

It is always darkest just before the dawn

About Me

I'd like to think i'm a simple gal. That lays around in bed all day with the cat. But the truth is I work my ass off. I'm the -mgr- & bartender of a trendy little bar in our lame little town. I fukin live for music so I spend most my time trying to find new bands & new ideas, hopeing somday this place can keep up with the world. I try to use most of my spare time writing (working on another publishing) or drawing, painting. If it's fantazy art i'm all for it. On ocassion I get to party other than my bar. But the lack of goth scenes makes it seem pointless. P.S.)If your just one of those myspace chic/people collectors don't fukin friend request me...I HATE that shitt! _DELETED_ cause i'm not impressed with how many friends or beautiful girls u might have on your list! And if you don't send me a message with your friend request...i won't even look at your profile..i'll asume you to be on a request train and delete you!

My Interests

Music:

The Cure, Wolfsheim,Assemblage 23, Wumpscut,Ministry,Type O Negative,Leaether Strip,NIN,Velvet Acid Christ,Skinny Puppy,Hocico,VNV Nation,Combichrist,Terminal Choice,Rozz Williams,Mesh,Switchblade Symphony,Lycia,The Sisters of Mercy,Depeche Mode,London After Midnight,Die Form,Android Lust,Love Spirals Downwards,Cradle of Filth, Slipknot,Deftones,Korn,A Perfect Circle,Danzig,Fear Factory,Taproot,Static X, Element 80,Radiohead,Interpol,Garbage/Angelfish,Ani Difranco,Portishead,Drill,Hooverphonic,Kidney Thieves,Kittie,Slunt,LaCuna Coil,Snake River Conspiracy,The Cardigans,Supreme Beings Of Leisure,The Cranes,Mazzy Star,Dido,The Doors, Floyd,Al Green,Atmosphere/Murs,MC Solaar, etc...A little bit of everything...U get da point:)

Television:

Six Feet Under,Sex and the city,Curb Your Enthusiasm,Entourage,Queer as folk,South Park,The family guy, oh...old Daria re-runs lol etc...But I F**king hate reality shows!!! I thought the whole point of the boob tube was 2 escape reality?

Books:

Any thing from Dean Koonz, Marion Zimmer Bradely, Poppy Z. Brite, Ann Rice. Loved The witch in every women and Women who run with the wolves. Ya know all the chick leb stuff. And of course anything dark or vamppy.

My Blog

Drowning in this ANGER!

Sinking deeply into the darkest water i have ever known Endeavoring through the loudest silence As the water sets the pressure in my ears Hoping the phone will ring and pull me from what seems a bad ...
Posted by Mï¢helle on Mon, 18 Dec 2006 05:08:00 PST

_Autumns Solace_

 Let the passion fall back down on me. As the moon reaches the sky in along kiss good night. Like the rain that embraces the earth once again. Let the cool breeze brush my cheek, like a lost...
Posted by Mï¢helle on Wed, 13 Sep 2006 05:20:00 PST

More paintings...

2nd "Little Hopper" (Sold)     The 1st  "R.I.P Little Hopper" (sold) "Perplexed" (sold) The Orient 3 peice set-Mystical Garden The Leaf (sold) The Brea...
Posted by Mï¢helle on Thu, 31 Aug 2006 06:02:00 PST

Looking through my own eyes...

Fast forward me through my reflections, through my eyes filled with dreams that will never come through days that will never be through the pain that is just the joy that i hope will someday fi...
Posted by Mï¢helle on Tue, 27 Jun 2006 07:25:00 PST

B4 U FRIEND REQUEST ME! READ THIS!

Ok I'm sorry but this friend request thing is getting out of hand...so now i will not accept any friend requests without a mail message 2 go with it...if u truely found some reason that we should be f...
Posted by Mï¢helle on Sun, 28 May 2006 04:40:00 PST

New Friends plz read!

Raven Doll posted this 2day and i was so happy 2 see im not the only one that feels this way... PLEASE READ! I got a shit load of requests today I dont know how or why but I do know I cant be one of ...
Posted by Mï¢helle on Wed, 17 May 2006 03:22:00 PST

*Childish Fantasies*

  Look into my eyes and wait for me, there's an ocean of eternity on the other side. Crawl with me like a feline into the night. We'll leap from the mountains dream and fill our wings with the ...
Posted by Mï¢helle on Thu, 20 Apr 2006 05:34:00 PST

More old stuff

_Dual shade of gray_ In luminous shadows i hide, Restlessness taking over. They tell me i shine brightly, In my darkness. But my uncertainty speaks so frequently and i fear that i cant hold this dept...
Posted by Mï¢helle on Fri, 07 Apr 2006 05:02:00 PST

Old poetry...u missed

_Slow Deatth_ Please! Take me away from this clutter, this dirt that clouds me, this filth that surrounds me, this sadness you have cast upon me, that has swallowed me whole. It seduces me in the n...
Posted by Mï¢helle on Thu, 06 Apr 2006 05:28:00 PST

I Just...

  I'm so consumed by this weight that lies so heavily on my chest. what do you want me to do? what will finally move you? I'm overwhelmed in this burning love and you just seem comfortable in kn...
Posted by Mï¢helle on Wed, 15 Mar 2006 03:23:00 PST