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fantasy layout powered by HOT FreeLayouts.com / MyHotCommentsLife is so difficult, but it can be so simple when you accept that fact. My struggles in the last ten years have been extensive, but through them I have gained incredible strength, knowledge, and power. Once I gave my will to God everything began to fall into place. Losing my son through the DISEASE of depression was the worst thing that ever happened to me, and dealing with it has been excruciating, but it has made me stronger and more mature. Everything I accomplish for the rest of my life will be a direct result of what I have learned from losing him. Sha-Quaan, even in your absence, you are my strength. I pray everyday that you will somehow make your way back into my life, and I will be waiting with open arms. Everyday I get a little stronger, a little smarter, and a little happier. You are my inspiration and my hero. Love is no where near a strong enough word to describe what I feel for you, but I want the world to know that you are my angel, and the hope of seeing you again gives me the strength to go on when I feel like giving up.

My Blog

Happy

So everytime I'm upset I write a blog cursing the devil and expressing my anguish, and today it occured to me that I haven't written in a while because I've been so happy.  That's pretty ungrateful, s...
Posted by on Sat, 28 Mar 2009 15:21:00 GMT

For Quanny

I'm not deep enough to write something like this but my friend did and it's beautiful. It about the picture of Quanny holding the football. I was having a rotten day until I read this.Thanks Z!!!I rem...
Posted by on Sat, 31 Jan 2009 10:44:00 GMT

Bad day

I told myself that I was gonna change my page when I got a computer.  It had been dedicated to Quanny for two years and it was time to let him go. I was gonna keep the pics, but only in the album...
Posted by on Fri, 14 Nov 2008 15:07:00 GMT

I must be getting close

How easily we forget.  It's crazy... a year ago I was ready to die.  I was terrified of death, but I was convinced that I didn't want this life any more.  I wanted to go to sleep a...
Posted by on Thu, 02 Oct 2008 18:51:00 GMT

Confusion

What do I say? How do I begin?  I have no idea.  Everytime I think I have things flowing in the right direction in my life, a monkey wrench gets thrown in the plans.  What more must I d...
Posted by on Tue, 30 Sep 2008 16:55:00 GMT

The pain and joy of growth

Today I am happy.  I'm not bouncing off the walls and nothing substantial has happened, but I am content.  My depression has lifted, and it was no accident.  Although I still endure dai...
Posted by on Mon, 02 Jun 2008 10:45:00 GMT

Creation of an asshole

   You know, sometimes I sit on this site, and as I sift through various pages I wonder why so many people have such evil messages.  I think to myself, "It can't really be tha...
Posted by on Tue, 13 May 2008 10:45:00 GMT

Turmoil

Man this is so, so hard.  I never really loved myself until six months ago.  I didn’t think I was worthy, and I didn’t know how.  I thought that if I went far enough out of ...
Posted by on Thu, 20 Mar 2008 07:31:00 GMT

What do you do when love just ain’t enough?

Why must love be so complicated?  I finally fell in love for real... with someone who's love is equally pure, but it seems that 90% of the time one of us is sad, angry, hurt, or discouraged. ...
Posted by on Sun, 24 Feb 2008 14:53:00 GMT