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That which does not kill you, only makes you stronger

About Me

I miss life, real life, like family and friends...oh, I do have some great friends, people I would do almost anything for, but I miss living life. No fun, no laughter, just lots of blah. And am I wrong for believing life does not have to focus on sex? I meen, sex is great, but some people let it destroy their lives... I want more. I try to always be nice, honest, and do the right thing, even if that meens I lose. I lose alot. Maybe the cowboy song was wrong...good guys don't always win.

My Interests

I love to read...never get a chance to though. And I love bubble baths for hours, and mostly I enjoy alone time, time spent with just me doing what I want with who I want when I want...like that ever happens. I am also addicted to pogo games, I turn on food network, and set by the computer till daybreak.

I'd like to meet:

Honestly, I would like to meet Tyler Perry, the guy that does all the Madea movies. I relate to them. I think he grew up hard and had alot of choises he had to make and maybe some were not easy.

Music:

I am very flexible with music, it goes with my mood.

Movies:

I'm more of a "fluffy" movie person, always looking for the good things. Make me laugh, make me cry, make me think, thats a good movie.

Television:

OK, so I am a Food Network junkie. I watch that stuff from morning till, um, morning (I can't ever sleep)

Books:

lately books are only used to level out the coffee table, altho, a set of books that has affected my life deeply is called The cross and the switchblade...fantastic books, read them and you'll never be the same.

Heroes:

I have real life heros...people I sincerely admire. Kyra is one of those people, tiny little thing with a personality 10 feet tall. She has dynamite for a soul, and takes no shit from anyone. She would never find herself in my shoes. I seem to know alot of awsome people...hometown heros, everyone of them And then theres Karen, she honestly is my guardian angel. Has been since I was like 16. She is never more than a heartbeat away, and she's the kind of friend that loves me cuz I'm me (and in spite of that same fact). She is not only my hero, she is the wind beneath my wings.

My Blog

several dumb things

So, it's only Tuesday and I have managed to do several dumb things this week, and for those of you who know me well, you may be thinking..."and whats new". I do manage to foul things up on a regular b...
Posted by ##### on Wed, 12 Sep 2007 11:57:00 PST

angels without wings

I cried last night, yes, for those of you who know me well, that is not an uncommon event, but this was different.   You see, I have not had the best of lives, but I have been given my...
Posted by ##### on Fri, 31 Aug 2007 07:01:00 PST

keep your friends close...keep your enemies closer

Lets suffice to say it's been a rough month or two.  I was fired, on my birthday, from the one job in my life I truley loved.  I did, I loved the people, I loved the business, I loved the cu...
Posted by ##### on Tue, 26 Jun 2007 10:43:00 PST

losses

I live beneath a black cloud.  It's true, 1 1/2 years ago my house was destroyed by fire.  2 weeks later my beloved Panda died of heart failure.  On my birthday this year, I was fired f...
Posted by ##### on Mon, 04 Jun 2007 10:12:00 PST

addiction

I remember almost to the day that my addiction began, it was a warm fall afternoon in mid-september, 2002.  An ordinary day that forever changed my life.  A room full of strangers, making th...
Posted by ##### on Sat, 10 Mar 2007 04:54:00 PST

Depths of hell

The depths of hell no longer frighten me, I walk within it's unholy realm daily.  Torture and pain are commonplace, and endless tears are my comfort.  I wind my way among strangers and ...
Posted by ##### on Fri, 02 Mar 2007 09:07:00 PST

the gift of life

The gift of life is given with pain, but ultimately with love.  That continues throughout our lives, as we watch our children grow, make mistakes, hurt themselves or others.  And sometimes t...
Posted by ##### on Fri, 09 Feb 2007 11:56:00 PST

dazed and confused

I was really proud of myself, I figured out this blog thingy, I have posted several items, I have done numerous questionaires...and then I was hit with the survey demon.  I take the survey, I cop...
Posted by ##### on Tue, 23 Jan 2007 12:40:00 PST

sleep

for me, sleep is an elusive animal.  it lurks nearby, but never actually comes near enough to recognise.  when I finally succumb to a drug induced calm, sleep nudges me gently, teases me, an...
Posted by ##### on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 01:00:00 PST

important scientific discovery

I have made a remarkable discovery, it may make me very rich.  As I was cleaning my refridgerator today, I found out that tomatoes, under just the right conditions, turn into pea soup!!!  Wh...
Posted by ##### on Tue, 16 Jan 2007 01:18:00 PST