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I Want To Go Back to early 90's I Hate This Future Its All Fucking Fake And Lies

About Me

Im here for friends not for popularity please dont just add me bcoz after you view my pics then you never talk to me even I post a comment on your page I Will Delete you message me first and then I will Add you:)
Well my name is MARKUS Im quite different Of course and not being ashamed of it.Going back to my own personal experience,of course it creates complications when I make use of my own autistic processes to pursue interests and goals that are meaningful to me,and make no effort to do things the way other people do them.It violates people's expectations.
But a lifetime's experience has demonstrated that I have no choice in that matter--I'm going to violate people's expectations no matter what I do, because I don't know how to act normal even if I wanted to. If I accept other people's norms as my own goals even though I don't understand them,then I assure that when I can't conform to other people's expectations, I fall short of my own standards as well.
The idea of wanting to fit in for its own sake,of being different as a misfortune in and of itself,is not an idea I've heard expressed by autistic people.If an autistic person is unhappy about being different,it's because non-autistic people have taught the autistic person that bad things will happen to you if you're different.
There were some things I was aware of from a much earlier age.I noticed that other kids picked on me.That was just part of life:I didn't like it,and at times I wondered what there was about them that made them so nasty,but I certainly didn't think that I should be like those nasty people.
But if I define myself only in terms that are meaningful to me,and I refuse to accept standards and roles that aren't part of my reality.Since I'm not a non-autistic person,there's no reason why I should try to act like one,and there's no sense of failure attached to not acting like one.
I think everyone needs to realize that being autistic is nothing to be sad or ashamed or embarrassed about.Stop trying to deny or minimize the differences,and stop pretending the autism can be separated from the person.Autistic people are very different from non-autistic people,and those differences run all the way down to the core of personality and awareness.

My Interests


music,Industrial goth,EBM,Aggrotech,electro Industrial,Dark Techno,Electronica,Darkwave,New Wave,Industrial Horror vampire,black metal,deathrock,goth punk and Fucking 90's Metal. etc,Horror Movies,crossdressing,makeup,art,photography,poetry,The Night,Individualism, Mysteries,Graveyards,Moonlight,Candlelight,The Autumn, gothic culture,Satanism,Satanic Rituals,witchcraft, zombies,vampires,suicide,murder,cemetery,black and red eyeliner,Long hair,spooky make up,leather jacket,fish nets,stockings,singing,growl,playing guitar,drums, tattoos,piercings,porno,my computer,road trips,gig, marijuana,use crystal methamphetamine,alcohol,wearing black clothes,boots,Winter, Rain,Snow,I like movies specially HORROR,hang out with my friends...

I'd like to meet:



Anyone interesting really with same interests as me with a sence of humor People I can related to... A girl who is honest, caring, cute and smart specially goths... Open-minded and/or like-minded INDIVIDUALS,Musicians,Tattooers,piercing people,Artists,Models,hot girls,Goth people....pretty girls with dark makeup that wear corsets and thigh-highs and a taste for horror. anyone who live their lives the way they want and don't give a fuck what others think.

Music:



Suicide Commando
Old albums of Psyclon nine
Columbine
Agonoize
necessary response
TAMTRUM
Dulce Liquido
VNV Nation
God Module
Grendel
Man and Machines
UNTER NULL
Obszon Geschopf
Asphyxia
Aesthetic Perfection
X-FUSION
The Cruxshadows
Wumpscut
And One
Virgin O.R Pigeons
Engelmacher
Hocico
combichrist
Spineflesh
mindless self indulgence
Das Ich
Zombie Girl
london after midnight
Spectrum-x
DISOWN
End of the rope,ETHS,nine inch nails,Genitorturers,Hanzel und Gretyl,Skinny Puppy,Christian Death,Specimen,Bauhaus,Voodoo Church,alien sex fiend,coal chamber,devil driver,The Agony Scene,Threat Signal, still life decay ,Deathstars,MORTIS,Watch Me Burn,the birthday massacre,latexxx teens,dope star inc.,Godhead,sister kill cycle,KMFDM,human factors lab, Pittersplatter,GOD IN A MACHINE,american head charge,white zombie,TOOL,wednesday 13,depeche mode,the cure,ace of base,rasputina,Switchblade Symphony,velvet acid christ, murderdolls,(Mid 90's of MaRiLyN MaNsOn),bleeding through,fashion bomb,john 5,lacuna coil,snake river conspiracy,bloodsimple,arch enemy,dope,orgy,cradle of filth,shadows fall,slipknot,,mudvayne,motograter,lamb of god,chimaira,,killswitch engage,static x,crossbreed,mnemic,Meshuggah,otep,kittie,my ruin,old school korn,old school deftones,old school system of a down,old school sevendust,hatebreed,soulfly,snot,(hed)p.e.,dry kill logic,spineshank,illnino,twelve tribes,zao,36 crazyfist,mushroom head,adema,stone sour,children of the bodom,earth crisis,heaven shall burn,as i lay dying,neck,skin lab,downthesun,in flames,40 below summer,silverchair,smashing pumpkins,fear factory,rob zombie,slayer,super joint ritual,one minute silence,pantera,sepultura,slayer,machine head,the union underground,the haunted,five point o,raging speedhorn,the blackdahlia murder,darwin's waiting room,amen

Movies:


[HorroR, Psychological Thriller]

Hellraiser,Night of the Demons,Dead Alive,slugs,Evil dead,Army of Darkness,The Dead Next door,Castle Freak,omen,ginger snaps[123],pet sematary,donnie darko,Dolly Dearest,AMITYVILLE,Graveyard Tramps,house of 1000 corpses,devils rejects,Master of Horror,night of the living dead,the Blob,Woodchipper Massacre,tales from the crypt,creep show,the Leprechaun,Satan's Blood,HOLLYWOOD VAMPYRE,nigthmare from elm street,Satan's playground,the texas chainsaw massacre,lost highway,mad house,jeepers creepers,helter skelter,faces of death, EDWARD SCISSORHANDS, bram stoker's DRACULA, the craft, beatlejuice, addams family, THE CROW

Television:


ShowTime TV Series MASTER OF HORROR,Some Early 90's Are you afriad of the dark,Twilight Zone,the Night Stalker,married with children,The Simpsons
Jerry Springer Show, MTV America Headbangers Ball,Saturday night live,Courage the Cowardly Dog,(Much Loud)on hollywood star,america plus(Dead last)

Books:


Long Hard Road Out of Hell & The Unholy Alliance Documentary books about Marilyn Manson.book of the dead, stephen king

Heroes:


Manuela Ruda
Satanists blame Devil for 666 ritual killingthe early 90's horror metal band White Zombie.