I like to fall off of garages!
I remain in awe of what occurred within my vision...i thought you were actually dead. ~Carlos
One of my main interests is drinking. I love to sit back with a 24 case and read all I can on the internet. People have called me an alchoholic and I am. I'd be worse if I had a source to get it everyday. I drink until I get stupid and thats why I now have these scars on my neck. When I drink I get the balls to say what I want and tell everyone else to shut the fuck up. That being said another one of my great interests is to argue. I could argue for hours about the stupidest shit. I'm also a big computer nerd, I get blamed for a lot of peoples virus problems via instant messages and myspace messages telling me I did something to them. 99% of the time it wasn't even me.
I'd like to meet:
I drew that small picture above one night after a few too many beers under my keyboard. I'm guessing I had someone on my mind that night. I drew the picture right under my keyboard for some odd reason. I had the pencil and a sketch pad only a few feet away but instead I took a break from typing some random bullshit down and started with one line. That one line then developed into what you see above. Simple yet straight to the point, just how it should be. I forgot it was there until just now. Everyone takes a look at a heart and the first thought that pops in their head is love. This heart, it's right there in front of me and will always be there until I burn this desk to keep myself warm one night when I have enough beer and gasoline, but for now it will always be there, under my finger tips, just out of my reach for now until I want to lift my keyboard and see it or touch it. I know who I had in mind that night and I'm glad the keyboard covers it now. I get upset when I think about them now. Things are weird with them, they seem to just not care along with the other people that I use to see everyday. Things just change and I know this, I also know how it starts. I know what is going to happen in the long run, I don't think they do quite yet.
I've invested enough of my time into people and helped them through a lot of rough times to learn a very valuable life lesson, don't care about others' problems. If you can understand the old saying "You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make them drink it" then you know where I come from. Some people are just not meant to be changed or helped. Eventually after time you might be able to help them get out of one habit but it's only a matter of time before they fall back into the same habit; being from drugs and then over to alcohol, or self mutilation to drugs and every other wich way. I have poured a lot of time into nothing and it shows very clearly. Putting your problems aside for other people is not very healthy especially if it for a long period of time. You get backed up and when you turn to that person hoping they return the favor, they are never there.
Since this had dragged on enough I'm going to end it short and sweet. This is the Who I would like to meet section. To put it in a nutshell, NO ONE! I'm done meeting new people and trying to make friends. The few that I have now and can converse with shall do me just fine. Ohh yeah if you think you might be on that outer loop, then you are. Don't bitch about it, suck it up, and move along. Since you have shown me you don't care then I don't really give two shits if you loose a friend. Trust me you will know who you are. I'll give you a hint: If you have ever called me after falling off a garage to see if I'm alive or I've invited you over to hang out and drink at my house you are a select few
Music:
It's just noise in the background to keep the silence from swallowing me until the morning.
Movies:
.. width="425" height="350" ....Ahhh movies. Foreign films with subtitles and some music on at full blast is one of the greatest ways you can watch a movie. Though sometimes the sound from the t.v. is ok also
Television:
T.V. rots the brain so I don't watch unless it's on the discovery channel.
Books:
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Anything from A-Z. I even read manuals sometimes if I cant find a good book ..
Heroes:
Fuck you. Trust me you are NOT one of my heroes. You want to know why. You read this didn't you? Well all this stuff you would have known by now if you cared enough that I would consider you that.
