brittany

I'm Brittany, and if I really cared what you thought, this would have been private a while ago. I have a lot to say. I'm not the girl I use to be, so please collect your mindless self and steer away from me. Half the time, I dont make sense and confuse everyone, even myself. I trust no one, but maybe a total of 5 people in my life. I believe bad things will come around to those who really deserve it. Dont come here for sympathy, or praise. Dont come here for friendship, I have that already in very few people. I'm really scared to die, and death is usually on my mind 95% of the time. I really dont understand why. I have a very great interest in the living dead, and ghosts I guess you could say. I move on from a lot of things, very quickly, why dwell on the past. Live for today and live for yourself. Make the best of everything while youre here. I really dont know what life holds for me anymore. I come from a background of probably the worst things you could ever imagine. For the longest time I really thought I lost all hope in myself, but something told me to keep going. I lost my best friend for a while, and lost myself in a whole lot of confusion. So many loved ones were dying, I couldnt control my ways with guys, and I lost control. My life is one fucked up book, with lots of empty chapters. I honestly dont care what people have to say about me anymore, it shows how pathetic and low people are in this world. I'm bettering myself each and every second of my life. I love my family, no matter how shitty they can be at times. I love my boyfriend, no matter how far away he is. I love my friends more than I could ever imagine. I have a really big heart once you get past my shell. I am slowly picking up all my pieces and forming back together into the girl I once was, and not some disappointment to everyone. I could say I'm sorry to anyone and everyone I've fucked over or been shitty to in the past, but to me people dont deserve it. I live my life, you live yours. I am more of a person than I've ever been in my life. I cant believe how strong I have been for the past 17 years of my life, and I wouldnt have it any other way. Everything happens for a reason. I wouldnt live my life any other way.