About Me
"My souls already lost
And it's funny 'cuz they're saying 'He's hott.'
But they don't see the fucking tears that I've cried
And they don't hear me when I scream when I die
I wanna live good, I wanna live right
My insecurities are eatin' me alive
I need a friend, someone close to my heart
That'll help me through my struggles
You can help me through my times"
"""""" I WANT YOU OUT OF MY LIFE FOR GOOD AND YOU ARE NOTHING TO ME BUT AN OLD WORN OUT MEMORY """"" 11-19-07 12:01pm - K.A.M
I didnt deserve any of it...
"""katylee Ox (11:47:01 AM 10-14-08): I DONT WANT YOUR TRUST I DNT WANT YOU IN MY LIFE I DONT EVEN WANT YOU TO KNOW MY NAME"""
I didnt think you would be that type of person too...
The friend/s you "HAD" will realize what really happened one day or they will deny/contort every single thing that really did happened...there is s chance though that they wish to be forgiven and truely are apologetic... FACT:It doesnt change the past no matter what they are now but, what they SHOW YOU in the present is what you use to determine what happens from there....
DO NOT TRY to diagnose, label, place,predict, assume, walk on, underestimate, advise, claim or TELL ME you understand WHO I AM UNTIL I HAVE TOLD YOU THAT YOU UNDERSTAND ME... THATS HOW I GOT HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE.....
Updated 1:50pm 10-12-08 (more to come within the week)
THIS THING STILL SPEAKS EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW (for the time being)EVEN IF IT LOOKS THE SAME I ADD NEW THINGS TO IT AND IT CHANGES ALL THE TIME ENJOY...
I’m different in more ways than some of you will ever have the pleasure of knowing. I SERIOUSLY SUGGEST YOU READ THE BEGINNING OF THIS ENTIRE PROFILE BEFORE YOU CONTINUING... READING I don’t really fit in with a CROWD, CLICK, or GROUP. You want to PLACE ME YOURSELF, be my guest and show your lack of intelligence and character!... I ensure you now! That I am myself nothing more nothing less! I’m into writing and try appreciate it when I can. If you check out the blogs you will notice a lot of my writings are well not the most positive... this is so because its is so easy to write about and relate to, not only through myself but through the output of others as well. My writings are not only about me... they also include my understanding/interpretation of people I know, knew, and are trying to know. That or through my own experience.... I used to sketch, but now I sort of lost the time to do so. Its hard to get in the mode of it anymore it used to be something I do to focus my mind on one single thing... but old racing habits have returned. I take interest in individuals who don’t just see a something such as a bird but, instead wonder where and how far it has traveled. I prefer those who try and look at things from ALL ANGLES ya know, well rounded on thoughts and WHEN IN CONVERSATION OR CIVIL ARGUEMENT CAN PRESENT LOGIC AND REASON BEHIND THERE THOUGHTS. Someone that sees more than what is there in front of them (doesn’t necessarily have to be all the time). There is such a thing as too much don’t get me wrong it can be taken overboard. You must understand that I try and puzzle things together... if not you find yourself in deep frustration.... “People†Themselves are so interesting I could talk about lifestyles, actions, looks, moods, ect. for HOURS, and maybe even DAYS. Sociology is an extremely interesting subject and I think every single person should have the experience of a class or something along those lines. When I walked through the halls at school I didn’t just see bodies...I seen diff lives, questions, mirrors, and chances... I don’t accept people that can’t accept being wrong when reasoning is brought to them, cant maturely stick up for themselves, and other opinions. I myself am not perfect but, I know my limitations and let people do what they want for the most part because I myself have went through so many stages in my life. I know what others tend to think about you throughout each stage...Altoona I have realized is the perfect breeding ground and divider. In my experience for the past few years I am confident enough to make the title of Altoona Breeding Grounds. It has grown since I started waking up as a kid to becoming an adult. I have witnessed the moisture that no longer is within this place... The social, economical, educational, environmental, and personal stage that we are all apart of. I know that people and places change but they can do that on there own I have realized that your environment can determine a lot of who people become. The youth here either wants to dream big and do nothing, dream then go get it, or settles for the step stole they call home. Keep in mind this is my personal opinion and that there is more to this if it was brought up in conversation its kind of hard to express everything right now on a myspace profile haha so I think I said enough about that. We all have or will go through it sooner or later several times. A lot of people claim they know me or can predict me. Sometimes they even know my thoughts... a lot of people do know a good bit about me... There is some sides I have that about 95% of the people who know me, don’t know. I promise you that if you think you figured me out to the point where I know you think you have figured me out I SWARE TO YOU AND TO THE GROUND YOU WALK ON THAT I WILL SHOCK YOUR WORLD! Umm.. I tend to bounce subjects around then come back to them all within the same conversation TO CREATE THAT KNOCK OUT PUNCH don’t think im going in circles or ranting if you follow closely you will see it building up... My advice to you for when you want to bring something up against me, you better have done your homework, and have at least pocket aces to even think about competing! Don’t read me wrong if you make a point and do it intelligently I will stop and tell you your right simple and plain... thought I would throw that out there. Yeah… Enough serious garbage... umm lets see I don’t like onions on my cheese burgers unless they are cooked my favorite all time food toping (pretty much) is ranch dressing! It goes good on more things than you thought were possible... I Embrace winter but I’m ALWAYS waiting for summer. The winter season tends to heighten my thinking capacity … just something about it opens a lot up but, in the same boat it sometimes has bold intentions. Summer season… baseball, long nights, adventure,… I guess that says it all. I hate nail files (none metal) and will cringe in fear if I’m around or see them (will explain if you ask) STARBUCKS yeah… I have a massive plan one day! I haven’t really had a flavor I didn’t like so yeah star bucks says get some! here is a good topic.... HALO AND VIDEO GAMES!.... Ok HALO pwning noobs will be done my whole life until I cant. It really has taught me a lot! " I Like several diff types of music pretty much if its decent sounding I will like it... I do have a certain preference and that is Acoustic I just do...I play guitar myself not really the best but, I’m content for the most part . Don’t try pressure me into shit even little things sometimes I need it but, you can tell when.... Right now is well….. I’m not going to lie in the past two years going on 3 (Still currently goin on 10-12-08) I have had a lot of (there is no other way to put this) fucked up things happen (I know my probs can never compare to others do dont even get at me that way) including losing two best friends. Follow me here, I lost two best friends to the joint betrayal efforts against myself! one inwich was a girlfriend , a best friend for about 5 1/2 years, and several people/friends who I basically grew up with (teen years) all in the last year… I have had knifes forced into the back, been broken, pushed, fucked with, strained, betrayed, lied to, and put against the very wall they helped built by those you would never expect to do so! I think Im in the final step into getting over it but due to recent events I think its enviable that Im due for some change, the type of change that will allow me to have even more self-respect, earn others respect, and make my message CLEAR (10-12-08 1:49pm)... I still remember and always will and trust me I have learned! and don’t worry just because we are quiet doesn’t mean that’s who we are.My enemies seem to underestimate me, ohh trust me I dont mind. my life well I have no idea what to be, am to be, and how to be it.... I just have this feeling that I was meant to be great and leave some kinda of dent in the minds of many I will get my break one day its jus finding its way to me. Until then a patient push forward is all I can do. When that time does come, It will be taken it for it has. Don’t know why I put that but think about it... this is what it is "13" Sports… a decent pitcher and 2nd basemen... Ohhh shit traveling hell yeah as long as I drive!!!!! Since I got my license- seriously all around PA, MA, OH, WV, NJ, NY (not the city), CN, MD,and CA. Not much more to say but If something from here doesn’t spark you to ask questions or start a conversation... TURN YOUR HEAD AND WALK AWAY! Show me your worth talking to...If you read this whole thing I want you to put the only number I put up here at the end of your comment along with my preference oh and what animal did I mention?... L8ER
