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Life is one big puzzle...

Pretty eyes never saved the world from anything

About Me

I see the wrold through rose colored glasses. I am okay with that. I have faith in human kind, my mistake. I walk with my head up but with my arms crossed over my body. I think everyone is good and I am bad. If you ask for a favor I will do it like it is a command. I want to walk with my head held high and my arms at my side. I tend to talk to much and put forth to much effort. But I care and I listen. I put everyone else before me, I don't hear any complaints. I am selfish because I want everyone to care as much as I do. I will be the greatest friend you will ever have. Or so I have been told.
I feel like i am walking alone. That no matter what I can't get you to notice me. I make myself "available" in ever since of the word.
I've come to learn that scars are only skin deep. You can learn anything from any situation. Life will throw rocks so you better learn how to come out swinging.
I will make the best of any situation, if I can. I will keep smiling no matter what is going on inside. My walls are now up for good, no one is getting in, ever. Always speak your mind even if your voice shakes. I'm not like anyone else but I can sure pretend. Saying your fearless, emotionless, and unbreakable doesn't make you strong it makes you hard and untouchable.
I love to smile I love to laugh. I have to giggle and I must sing. My friends are my everything. My family even more. I try to please the world but just seem not to.
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My Interests

I love to play the piano, when I get the chance. I like to hang out with friends and do random stuff. I like to sit in cars and talk. I love ghost stories, even though I am a big chicken.

I'd like to meet:

People are often unreasonable, illogical, & self-centered; forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of being selfish & having ulterior motives; be kind anyway. If you are successful, you will win some false friends & true enemies; succeed anyway. If you are honest, people may cheat you; be honest anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; build anyway. If you find serenity & happiness, they may be jealous; be happy anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; do good anyway. Give the world the best you have & it may never be enough; give the world the best you've got anyway. You see, in the final analysis, it is between only you; it was never between you & them anyway.

Music:

I am learning to listen outside of my comfort zone. To pick up a a cd and listen until the end.

Movies:

Ummm well currently getting into some old movies. Just things that were before my time. I am so old hahaha

Television:

Nope not really

Books:

I live to read and read to live. Anything you put in my hands I will read. I spend so much money on books

Heroes:

Truth be told my mother. No matter what she has been there. She taught me how to be strong and love myself and pull myself out of the bad times. She showed me the type of person I want to be. Someone who is strong and does things for others without expecting anything in return.

My Blog

Its been a bad day

Depression has robbed me of myself. I have ceased to know what to do with myself. I feel as if I am past redemption from this pain&this darkness. What if I don't recognize true happiness again? I...
Posted by Life is one big puzzle... on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 07:09:00 PST

I've had enough

Sometimes I just wanna break down, quit putting on this act, playing this role of someone who's always strong and before long, it's too late. I've become cold and distant, my thoughts are inconsi...
Posted by Life is one big puzzle... on Mon, 08 Jan 2007 09:23:00 PST

Thoughts!

At some point you learn to accept the fact that the people who you wish wouldn't change, do! Goodbyes hurt, but only mean forever if you let them. Pictures never replace being there and nothing lasts ...
Posted by Life is one big puzzle... on Thu, 30 Nov 2006 01:00:00 PST

Rant rant rant

The wonder is what gets you. The feeling of inadequacy is great, true, but not knowing sucks. Depressing is the man, uhh woman, who sits and ponders a stupid mans ways. Feeling lost just wastes time. ...
Posted by Life is one big puzzle... on Sun, 24 Sep 2006 10:14:00 PST

Meh and Bah

It's the most awkward thing, seeing us separated. Normally we're side by side laughing and joking but now you hide. When we sat this morning we didn't say a word. It was like we didnt know each other....
Posted by Life is one big puzzle... on Mon, 28 Aug 2006 07:50:00 PST

Sappy is good too!!!

The sea opened beneath them. Beaches lay white against its verge, dotted with sun worshipers. Mountains rose jagged and primitive. As they gained height the colors in the scene below became so intense...
Posted by Life is one big puzzle... on Sun, 02 Jul 2006 09:54:00 PST

Just thoughts

The desperation was apparent. You could smell it in the air. The need to escape was around me. Oddly I was alone. I was looking at myself and wondering why I wouldn't just let go. I could slip so easy...
Posted by Life is one big puzzle... on Sat, 01 Jul 2006 10:05:00 PST

Emo me

  See only flaws in myself See only wrong in what I do Your beauty is my pain Your sorrow is my gain You say nothing and I fill in the blanks. You give me words and I use my own.   When I w...
Posted by Life is one big puzzle... on Thu, 15 Jun 2006 09:18:00 PST

Randomness

So sorry it has taken me so long to blog in this blog. Well I guess really any blog. A lot has changed. I am now back in Alabama. Woohoo I missed my family so very much and needed to be with them so b...
Posted by Life is one big puzzle... on Wed, 23 Nov 2005 08:28:00 PST

Mehhh

So yeah I decided to try this thing. Not like anyone really reads it or is interested in me. Haha. Funny I know. But anywho. Montana is way different then Cali. The people and how they deal with thing...
Posted by Life is one big puzzle... on Sun, 21 Aug 2005 10:50:00 PST