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I'm of the Human Race (meaning we are all God's Children, and She loves us with a complete devoted Unending Love). I had given Birth and raised as a single mother Two Wonderful Children who think of me as the Worlds Worst Mother, and have shut me out of their lives forever and will never forgive me for what ... they have never told me. The sad thing is they have also shut out their biological family members also. My favorite phrase and how I have lived My Entire Life even as a child has always been : "People who live in glass houses shouldn't throw rocks". And to Love & Help All Mankind as if we were Brother's & Sister's (We Are ALL GODS Children) My Children were always my entire life and I devoted myself solely to their happyness, which may have been wrong .... but I have no regrets I Will Always Love My Children even if they don't love me and be there for them. I have moved back to Florida to try to start a New Beginning and be near my own Mother. I was not near my wonderful Father during his illness & death and can never forgive my self for that. Actually I'm hoping I will pass before my Mother, I can't imagine a life without her in it. I'm with Family who Love & Care about me. But there is always that void, that deep loss, you can't give birth and have that bond between you and your children and just have it gone one day, dispearing into thin air with no explanation at least it's not possible for me. I had a Female English Mastif "Sunshine" but had to find a new Family for her as I couldn't bring her with me to Florida. I still hurts and I miss her so much. I have two(use to be male's) Black Cat's, "Pickles" (don't ask, he just named himself! lol) And baby Ambrose, Who love me unconditionally regardless of my many faughts! I'm a member of a group called "Unforgiven Mothers", we try to help each other get thru the days of pain. I am exptremely grateful for their friendship & help. I have two God Daughter's Jessie & Sissy and am Grama to their children. Which is a blessing. I have children of many friends who Loving Include Me as Their "Mom #2" & "Grama #2" to their children. It is a blessing to be loved by so many. I have many good & true friends. I lead a very busy life between friends & helping others in need and caring for my parents here in Florida. I am not working at this time, due to an injury from a fall, and am soon scheduled for major surgery, but hope to get right back in the work force as soon as I can. I have always worked and enjoy it very much.