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She said, "I want it NOW!"

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About Me


Don't blush when I rip you open.
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This will be all over the place because that's the way I like it:Addicted writer. Compulsive thinker. Somewhat analytical. Experimental. Consumed. Whims. DANGER! I do nothing without feeling.It's hard for me to always see beauty in myself, but so easy for me to see it around me. I'm easily touched, stained, and imprinted if hit *just* right... the problem is for it to be sustained with proof and accuracy. I want to be a clown; I wear clown shoes. Clowns turn me on [well, certain ones]. I love being drawn on. I could be drawn on for hours!I've learned to not care too much, or too little, but just enough for/about most things. This increases and lessens depending on who you are, and what you are to me. Regardless, a contradiction comes to in to play with certain individuals--- I usually end up caring too much. I like to believe I'm not like anyone else in the entire world. I don't think I'm all too different, either. At times, I'm totally indecisive.I love grandpa pants and grandma sweaters. My immediate family is important to me. I love them immensely, no matter what. I am always a listener [until what I am hearing is not genuine]; I listen more than I speak, usually.I used to have many piercings although I lack them these days =[. I'm still inked. Indubitably. FUCKING life, having to grow up and get jobs. FUCK. I just want to play in the sand and build a sandcastle or two. Profound. Strange. Erratic behavior. I crave and dive into independence, but I need a hand to hold along the way. I gain strength through others. Without those I care for, I am nothing. You make me.I've been in California for over a year, now I'm back in hell. I've replaced the East coast with the West in my heart... I WILL be back!I have clammy hands, weak wrists, and cold blood {brrrr!}. I am drawn to hispanicness. I want to speak Spanish fluently one day. I thoroughly enjoy Frida Kahlo and Pablo Neruda.I am disgusted by hate crimes and racism. Discrimination on account of one's appearance, skin color, sex, etc. sickens me.I hate lies. Flourescent lights bother my eyes horribly. Many instances merit that trust is merely non-existant. Far too few exhibit whole trust; I probably don't trust you.Pessimistic optimist. Misanthropist. A beaming ball of inanimate joy! Bland--- default. Dull spoken. Misleading first impressions- ensuing false ideas. Slow to warm up, and then CAUTION! HOT.. Read my VisualDNA ™ Get your own VisualDNA™
And I'm so high, not even you and all your love could bring me down
A change of speed, a change of style.
A change of scene, with no regrets,
A chance to watch, admire the distance,
Still occupied, though you forget.
Different colours, different shades,
Over each mistakes were made.
I took the blame.
Directionless so plain to see,
A loaded gun won't set you free.
So you say.
We'll share a drink and step outside,
An angry voice and one who cried,
'We'll give you everything and more,
The strain's too much, can't take much more.'
I've walked on water, run through fire,
Can't seem to feel it anymore.
It was me, waiting for me,
Hoping for something more,
Me, seeing me this time,
Hoping for something else.
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DON'T TRY TO ADD ME WITHOUT SENDING ME A MESSAGE OF SOME SORT WITH SOMETHING FASCINATING IN IT THAT URGES ME TO ADD YOU BACK OR CONVINCES ME TO. IF NOT, I WILL PROBABLY NOT ADD YOU BACK.
[Unless I know and adore you].
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Just a few things that interest me:

Robots

^ Mr. Bloom ^
&
ANIBALISM.

There is still that singular perfection, and it's perfect in part because it seemed, at the time, so clearly to promise more. Now she knows: That was the moment, right then. There has been no other.
-The Hours

I'd like to meet:

Those who understand me better than I understand myself. People who don't give up on things that are supposed to be held sacred to them. The love of my life [preferably my own Leonard Woolf]. FUN, interesting, EXCITING people =D, & loving robots!

Music:

[In NO particular order]: Joy Division , HOCICO, My Ruin ,MSI, Peaches, Elliott Smith, Interpol, Miss Kittin, Babes in toyland, Combichrist, Prince, Wolfsheim, Apoptygma berzerk, bigod20, Depeche mode, Evil mothers, Sheep on drugs, Robots in disguise, THE LOST HIGHWAY, Nocturne, The Misfits, Velvet acid christ, Assemblage 23, Ministry, Professional murder music, Bauhaus, Batmobile, Koffin Kats, Angelwhore, Deftones, Fear Factory, Marilyn Manson/Marilyn Manson the the Spooky Kids, Tilly and The Wall, Nirvana, Counting Crows, Blues Traveler, Rage against the machine, Devildriver, Coal Chamber, The Moldy Peaches, Kimya Dawson, Caifanes, Juanes, American Head Charge, Radiohead, Pzycho bitch, Scarling, The Damned, Skinny Puppy, Janes Addiction, Neil Young, Pantera, Norma Jean, Zao, VnV Nation, Gary Numan, Circle takes the square, Azure ray, Aphex twin, Oasis, 6 feet under, Cannibal Corpse, The cure, Sopor Aeternus, Dave Navarro, Orgy, Snot, Chimaira, Nothingface, Jack off Jill, Mortiis, Morticians, Capricorn, FREEZEPOP, The Dresden Dolls, Honey to ash, The Lvrs, Acid Bath, Prodigy, Snake River Conspiracy, The Birthday Massacre, Rasputina, The Smashing Pumpkins, Hole , Nightwish, GlassJAw, Bright Eyes, The Cranberries, Candyshop, The Horrorpops, Head automatica, Art of fighting, Joan of arse, Air, Billy Corgan, The Meteors, Haujobb, Caliban, Coco Rosie, Morrisey, The Smiths, Suicide Commando, Punish yourself, NIN, Bile, My Bloody Valentine, Rip/Torn, Spoon, Circle of dead children, Front 242, Joanna newsom, Lou Reed, Necro, Pixies, Siouxsie and the banshees, The Bravery, Tom Petty, Gambler's Mark, The Red Paintings, Wesley Willis, many many more.

Movies:

The Hours, Bela Lugosi movies, Brick, Stay, Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind, Chaplin, Grindhouse, Get Well Soon, Purple Rain, Buffalo '66, No Vacancy, Sideways, Memoirs Of A Geisha, Vincent [Short], Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, Amelie, Ed Wood, American Beauty, 8MM, Alice in Wonderland, Killing Zoe, Mulholland Drive, Angela's Ashes, Crash, Bela Lugosi Movies, Party Monster, Snow White and the Seven Dwarves, Frida, Ghost world, Labyrinth, Tank Girl, 24 Hour Party People, Dogday Afternoon, Scarface, Sylvia, Boris Karloff movies, About Schmidt, Strangeland, Dummy, Adaptation, Requiem For a Dream, The Doors, White Oleander, One flew Over The Cuckoos nest, Breakfast at Tiffany's, The Virgin Suicides, Eraserhead, Gone With The Wind, Secretary, Spun, Babes In Toyland, The Phantom Tollbooth, Sin City, Big Top Pee-Wee, The Gold Rush, The Machinist, The Dreamers, But I'm A Cheerleader, Natural Born Killers, Foxfire, Night Of The Creeps, Purple Rain, The Raven, Drugstore Cowboy, Little Marines, Carnosaur I II & III!!!, Falling Down, Half Nelson, Silent Hill, Candy, Me and You and Everyone we know, Sherry Baby, more.

Television:

Curb your enthusiasm, The Boondocks, various HBO Real Sex/Hooker episodes, Blind Date, Talk shows, shows on the history of body modifications/tattoos/piercings/cultural piercings and body mods, MTV Espanol, Lifetime, Drug/Disorder/Addiction documentaries, Middle School Confessions, Mr. Ballooney B., Game shows, Latenight INFOMERCIALS!!!

Books:

The Hours; Don't Try This At Home; The Long Hard Road Out of Hell; Mrs. Dalloway; She's Come Undone; The Phantom Tollbooth; Catcher In The Rye; The Perks of Being a Wallflower, The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty; Memoirs of a Geisha; Junky; Choke; Running With Scissors; No One Here Gets Out Alive; The Bell Jar; The Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy; The Little Prince; The Satanic Bible; The Giver; The Cay; The Giving Tree; Lenore; Hallucinogens; Pablo Neruda poetry; Various Nietzsche works, some Bukowski, and yes... I enjoy self-help books!

Heroes:

My mother, my brother Jesse, Mr. Anibal Arturo Casco Avila, Alex Rodriguez/Bloom, Aimee Monarrez,Ian Curtis, THE Bela Lugosi, Dave Navarro, Miss Tairrie B., Virginia Woolf, Frida Kahlo, David Hart, Vincent Gallo, Ms. Amanda Palmer & Mr. Brian Viglione!!!!

My Blog

Broken

I just watched the movie "Broken" with Heather Graham and Jeremy Sisto [hawt!]. It was a lot better than I was expecting it to be, I actually really liked it. Not to mention that they played some pret...
Posted by She said, "I want it NOW!" on Tue, 04 Dec 2007 09:18:00 PST

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!! OMFG!!!!!!!!

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Posted by She said, "I want it NOW!" on Tue, 27 Nov 2007 11:17:00 PST

Guilty conscience?

Well, you... you're just a piece of shit.
Posted by She said, "I want it NOW!" on Sun, 25 Nov 2007 12:56:00 PST

It’s a killer...

Somersault To september Hope I last Til november Birthday boys Don't remember All around I see Reminders Of then
Posted by She said, "I want it NOW!" on Fri, 16 Nov 2007 06:31:00 PST

Article/collage

I left because you would not change that deep part of you that none of us can change, the who of who we are, the part that dreams at night, that needs to order the world in a certain way. I don't blam...
Posted by She said, "I want it NOW!" on Thu, 08 Nov 2007 02:40:00 PST

I love these fools with all of my <3

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Posted by She said, "I want it NOW!" on Mon, 05 Nov 2007 02:00:00 PST

Personality Survey [Thanks Christina]

That Personality Test :: Your ResultsThe latest personality test from ThatSurveySite... now featuring more and better questions than ever!&nbsp;Emotional (44%)[..........|.........]Logical (56%)Co...
Posted by She said, "I want it NOW!" on Wed, 31 Oct 2007 03:27:00 PST

My Celebrity Look-alikes

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Posted by She said, "I want it NOW!" on Mon, 15 Oct 2007 01:23:00 PST

J-O-B

Finally... a job.Where? JCPenney. But that beats fast food or cleaning!I don't even know how much I make yet, have to talk to the main manager... but I had orientation today. The worst part, so far, i...
Posted by She said, "I want it NOW!" on Fri, 10 Aug 2007 05:09:00 PST

This is just to say...

I posted a bulletin and was called out on being wrong about one of the survey questions I answered wrong... I actually *have* kissed someone in the rain before. I'm sorry that I didn't recall it at th...
Posted by She said, "I want it NOW!" on Sun, 15 Jul 2007 07:55:00 PST