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Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of humankind. Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined. With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of people.
I have wished to know why the stars shine. Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer. This has been my life; I found it worth living.
- Bertrand RussellBecause America is already a joke
Hardcore animal lover
I am just as vindictive as I am compassionate. And I'm very compassionate.I can't work at XMed forever.I think a lot before I sleep.I have a terrible self-image.It doesn't matter how much you try to make things better - fuck up once, and it sticks forever.I'm kind of a snob.I'm judgmental in a non-prejudiced way. I think I just hate people for what they aren't.It isn't immoral if you're moral the rest of the time.I hate people who are scared of animals.Yeah, I'll tell you how to raise your kid, and I'll probably be right.I live a life of the mind.Books are ridiculousy sexy. Rambling about your favorite band isn't.If you're close-minded and scared and ignorant then I'm here to tell you that.I have Daddy issues.If you're my friend I will defend you, and I'm not afraid to defend you from yourself.Mental break-downs are great starting points for change because the silly, happy shit you feel when you watch a sunset just doesn't do the trick.I like being intimidating.The only thing I truly believe in is being skeptical.People come and go; I'm not afraid to say goodbye.The grass will always be greener.Truth is relative.There is a difference between a human and a human being.I rescue lost children and pets.I think we all believe the same thing, in different ways and under different names.I think we're all stupid, helpless and gullible and we cherish white lies.You spend your life trying to make it all mean something.The point is the journey.Spend half of it selfless, and half of it selfish.A when you die, I hope you were right, and they were all wrong.
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I saw a man pursuing the horizon;
Round and round they sped.
I was disturbed at this;
I accosted the man.
"It is futile," I said,
"You can never -""You lie," he cried,
And ran on.- Stephen Crane"Many people have died for their beliefs; it's actually quite common. The real courage is in living and suffering for what you believe."
- Brom, from Christopher Paolini's Eragon"All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us."
- Gandalf, The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring"I live in the constant certainty of failure, and the constant certainty of genius. It is a species of madness, but greatness is not possible without it."
- Orson Scott Card's The Worthing Saga"To enter one's own self, it is necessary to go armed to the teeth."
- Paul Valery"Don't let the world bring you down
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
Remember why you came
And while you're alive
Experience the warmth
Before you grow old"
- Incubus

Heroes:


My Mom
Teh Kmim

My Blog

A hand pops out of the grave.

Dude, I'm not dead.  I'm just between jobs and gots no Internetz.And if I do manage to steal Internetz from public places, I get on Facebook. The only things of interest that I have to say a...
Posted by Smam on Thu, 22 Nov 2007 01:07:00 PST

Never whole.

I'm so goddamn unhappy.  These feelings wash over me and disgust me, and I want to dry-heave and vomit until my body can just pass out and leave me without thought or pain... but all that comes a...
Posted by Smam on Sun, 04 Jun 2006 01:52:00 PST

rabble.

I haven't been sleeping so well lately.  For some reason unknown to me, my throat decides to start itching right when I decide it would be a great idea to get in bed.  I mean, wtf.  I g...
Posted by Smam on Sat, 03 Jun 2006 12:28:00 PST

Mrack.

This morning kicked off to a sad start.  I woke with a call from Mana.  Mel's pet rat took a turn for the worse and was basically in the process of dying.  We all went with her to the v...
Posted by Smam on Thu, 01 Jun 2006 12:01:00 PST

RAWR HAR HAR!!!

Salutations, chitlins.  I have a hunch that this blog will be insanely long and all rambly-like, so I'll make it easy on you guys and number every thing, so you can just skip ahead whenever I sta...
Posted by Smam on Wed, 31 May 2006 11:37:00 PST

somewhere in between.

The past two days have been insane.  I am tired, cranky, sore, bruised, sick, overwhelmed... etc.   Ironically, I'm still capable of moving on and getting everything done.  It's am...
Posted by Smam on Sun, 28 May 2006 12:21:00 PST

jigga-what?

So I just read Stacey's blog.  Why do all the interesting things happen when I'm not there?!?!  Or is it simply that my presence calms the universe and prevents chaos?  Heh, let's go wi...
Posted by Smam on Wed, 24 May 2006 02:46:00 PST

"too-bing?" Kmim is insane.

I'm sitting in my chair, still wearing my stinky, wet bathing suit.I am glad my house is a festering death-pit at 85 degrees Farenheit, otherwise I'd be pretty damn chilly. Actual conversation with te...
Posted by Smam on Mon, 22 May 2006 01:17:00 PST

Informative-type stuff. Ready, BREAK!!

I don't know how much I've ranted about this already, but remember that tomorrow night is opening night of The Da Vinci Code.  I will be going early to pick up my ticket, and I suggest that none ...
Posted by Smam on Thu, 18 May 2006 01:23:00 PST

'the sun is warm, the grass is green.'

Hung out with teh Kmim for most of yesterday.  We were running back and forth all over God's creation... bringing some of my shit from the house to the new apartment... going to the Dollar Tree f...
Posted by Smam on Wed, 17 May 2006 02:42:00 PST