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About Me

i'm kinda a really happy person, if you don't piss me off. i'm basically useless, but i'm really nice, usually. i'm also a total basket-case and tend to get lost really easily. i think waaay too much about everything and it rarely gets me anywhere. i help others better then i know how to help myself(some people say you can't help other people if you got your own shit to fix, im against that teaching). i adore Oceans, rivers, lakes, any large or even not so large bodies of water such as, lets say, a bathtub full of water and bubbles. water is my friend. i just moved back to california after a really really long time in china. i love califorinia, even when the economy sucks.

My Interests

playin in the surf.. sandy toes.. my kittens.. long lost friends.. bloody steaks and baked potatoes.. my ex girlfriend stacie.. talking to plants.. massages.. creek hoppin and roamin through the forrest.. climbing trees.. beautiful sunsets sunrises and stars.. the rain.. chocolate covered gummy bears.. beautiful people.. cigerettes and coffee.. being a nice person.. dancin at the disco.. pretty music.. dimples.. grocery shopping.. tryin to cook.. making snow angels.. being out in the country.. houses with dirt floors.. smiling at peoople.. being fed icecream.. getting fishy tattoos.. bubble baths.. intresting books.. laughing at my bro.. old people that need people to listen to them talk.. beggars on the streets.. shootin pool.. running down hills.. being a bad worker.. tibet tho ive never been there.. street food.. ballroom dancing.. oranges.. california..

I'd like to meet:

the dalai lama because he's happy and shiny and nice. my moms mom the grandmother i resemble but never had the chance to love.

Show Chell the love! :)

Music:

beatles nirvana pink floyd jimi hendrix black crowes kinda seems like im stuck in the past huh?

Television:

do people really still watch tv? i find it rather silly.

Books:

the celestine prophecy, castenada, siddhartha, shibumi trevanian, murakami, clavell, burroughs.. junky, a million little pieces. i got books and authors all mixed up. i'll read anything, seriously. its hard to get a good book in china.

Heroes:

the Dalai Lama.. cuz he's such a beautiful person.

My Blog

in memory of a beautiful man

i just heard that a friend has passed away. i'm not shocked, and it was fairly expected. but it hurts none the less. in a lifetime we only meet so many people that truly touch us. lao mo was definat...
Posted by the sad one on Tue, 15 Apr 2008 11:24:00 PST

this has already been a bad year

i've been kinda depressed lately. im angry at whoever it is that decides that beautiful need to be taken out of my life. i miss rick in a way that doesnt even make sense. i've been in china, i never s...
Posted by the sad one on Tue, 11 Mar 2008 05:45:00 PST

being me again

i think since i've been in china i've been slowly but surely losing my me-ness. i think i used to be kinda nice, scary sometimes, but relatively nice. lately i've been seriously unsatisfied with my ni...
Posted by the sad one on Mon, 10 Dec 2007 06:08:00 PST

back in the china region

so i guess the trip back to cali was a bit of an anti climax.. i was hoping for more.. more of what? i dont know. all in all it was alright. hung out with my stacie, saw a few people i might neve...
Posted by the sad one on Mon, 13 Aug 2007 05:49:00 PST

i killed my cactus

im so sad. i honestly didnt think he needed water, i mean ok so the ones in the wild dont get water for whole seasons at a time right? so when i noticed mr cactus all weird looking.. i gave him a wh...
Posted by the sad one on Fri, 29 Jun 2007 06:43:00 PST

ben

i was sitting outside the clinic one day when this very tall old black man with a serious limp walked up to my window and introduced himself with the kindest smile i'd ever seen. ben's from down...
Posted by the sad one on Sat, 07 Apr 2007 08:50:00 PST

2 years.

wah!! its amazing how fast time goes by now. i feel like i should attend NA just so i can get one of those chip things that they get. i wonder if they have those here. yeh so.. wow. again. its amazing...
Posted by the sad one on Tue, 03 Apr 2007 08:01:00 PST

explaining the picture.

im amazed that some of you actually know about the treatment that was done on my back :) and for those of you that dont.... after the wonderful deep tissue tui na.. literally means `push-grab` the la...
Posted by the sad one on Sat, 31 Mar 2007 02:22:00 PST

hello night-time

i was actually paying attention to all the things that loaded on my page when it finally loaded and there was a victoria's secrete page and i was thinking about how much i wanted to go and buy somethi...
Posted by the sad one on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 11:46:00 PST

i'm a mean girl

michelle is.. a dork mostlya girl obsessed with being shiny like the dalai lama but can't seem to reach that shinyness because she still likes to hit people and get very very angry for no good reason....
Posted by the sad one on Thu, 18 May 2006 03:57:00 PST