The Making of Stella Star |
My name is Stella Star; now that's not my real name, but I believe that's what I'm called to be. Stella, my real name, means Star in Latin, so that's not so hard to wrap your head around; but the way ...
Posted by Stella Star on Tue, 04 Sep 2007 08:12:00 PST |
Fighting the Demon... on the other side |
I had a very hard and stressful night last night. I had to deal with a friend that was dealing with urges of self-mutilation and suicide. And because I deal with both problems I knew where they were c...
Posted by Stella Star on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 09:28:00 PST |
I now know how it feels... |
I feel so useless at the moment, so helpless. I met a new friend the other day, they self-mutilate too; and we started talking and started to get to know each other. They told me that they were trigge...
Posted by Stella Star on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 06:58:00 PST |
Done |
The blades call was so sweet, I couldn't resist. But now I sit here with the act done, and I still feel as empty as I did before. The pills are still calling my sweet name, there cries get more and m...
Posted by Stella Star on Fri, 10 Aug 2007 10:57:00 PST |
Make it STOP! |
The blade calls my name, it's so sweet and kind. It speaks sweet nothings in my ear. I'm trying to ignore it, I'm trying to cover my ear's and not listen, but it's calling is so strong. Why won't thes...
Posted by Stella Star on Fri, 10 Aug 2007 10:12:00 PST |
Sweet Death |
Death seemed to be knocking on my door yet again this past Friday. I have to say I love the sound of it, the taste of it, the way it feels against my skin& it's almost heavenly. It was so effortless t...
Posted by Stella Star on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 09:20:00 PST |
Death |
'You almost died.' Wasn't that the point? 'Don't you understand that? You almost died&' I get the picture, thank you. 'Don't you get it; if you die we die too. We'd think of what we could have done di...
Posted by Stella Star on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 08:50:00 PST |
Traitorous Ground |
I've been really down the last few days and I seem to keep getting hit harder and harder upon. I hate the feeling, I feel like giving up. For me to just waking the next morning is a huge deal for me. ...
Posted by Stella Star on Fri, 03 Aug 2007 05:10:00 PST |
Desire |
I find myself doing things I said I would never do, yet I am doing them. You know how you make up rules for yourself, ones that are your moral 'no-no's.' Well I've seem to find myself to be breaking t...
Posted by Stella Star on Fri, 03 Aug 2007 05:08:00 PST |
Feed the Demons? |
The last few days have been really rough on me. I seem to be getting beaten up on more and more by my inner demons. I've finally come to the conclusion that I do have inner demons, I don't know if tha...
Posted by Stella Star on Tue, 24 Jul 2007 10:01:00 PST |
