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indecipherablememory

About Me


e·phem·er·al adj. 1. lasting for a markedly brief time.
.:[I AM]:.
friendly, contrary to popular belief.easily amused. real. honest. not taking any shit. an anachronism. tenacious. independent to a fault. driven. strange. free-spirited. a super dork. proud. going against the grain. thinking. listening. dreaming. reaching high.
i am not like you.
i am an artist.
i am a writer.
in i am going to become a doctor.
i am the girl that most boys want, but will never have.
i am the girl that other girls seem to love to hate.
i am confident, but not to the point of arrogance; it's called being assertive.
i'm the one the masses love to judge.
i'm loud and up-front, and quiet in the corner.
i'm selfish, and selfless.
i'm grounded, but aloof.
i'm a blessing, and a hazard; a red alert.
i follow my own standards.
i change for no one.
i walk along my own private road; sometimes that's a gift, and sometimes it's a curse. i wouldn't have it any other way.
whether you agree, or beg to differ -
i am myself.
and sometimes a little extra.
there is nothing else i would rather be.
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"some men see things as they are and say why. i dream
things that never were, and say why not."
--robert kennedy--
"the individual has always had to struggle to keep from
being overwhelmed by the tribe. if you try it, you will be
lonely often, and sometimes frightened. but no price
is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself."
--friedrich nietzsche--
"so when you go solo you hold your own hand
and remember that depth is the greatest of heights
and if you know where to stand, then you know where to land
and if you fall it won't matter, cuz you'll know that
you're right."
--fiona apple--
"there are no shortcuts to any place worth going."
--anonymous--
"she's a planet in her own galaxy."
--colony 5--
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My Interests

art, music, anime/manga, roleplaying, microbiology - and just about anything medical, epidemiology, writing, exercise, poetry, role-playing, web design of amateur sorts, clubbing, concerts, reading, dance dance revolution, comics, guns, cartoons, singing, day-dreaming, ranting, the esoteric, bubble tea, candles and insence, makeup, shopping, cars, foreign languages, fetish clothing, psychology, criminology, mythology, DIY projects, laughing, putting stickers on just about everything, dancing, candy, animals (especially wolves and dogs), mild weather, t-shirts, swimming, time alone, butterflies, fingerless gloves, boots, flowers, muscle cars, war tactics (yes, war tactics), nostalgia, violin, urban decay, jewelry, learning as much as i can, being myself

I'd like to meet:

open-minded people. intelligent people. anyone who dares to be different.

Music:

alanis morissette, and one, angelspit, antonio vivaldi, a perfect circle, apocalyptica, apoptygma berzerk, arzt+pfusch, aslan faction, assemblage 23, ayria, battery cage, the birthday massacre, bjork, blaqk audio, bush, caustic, cesium 137, chevelle, classic rock, collide, colony 5, combichrist, covenant, das ich, david bowie, death cab for cutie, decoded feedback, delerium, depeche mode, de/vision, the dreaming, the dresden dolls, edge of dawn, eisbrecher, emilie autumn, enigma, evanescence, feindflug, fiona apple, flesh field, flyleaf, funker vogt, garbage, genitorturers, god module, goldfrapp, grendel, hanzel und gretyl, hocico, hungry lucy, icon of coil, imperative reaction, informatik, insane clown posse, jack off jill, johnny cash, joydrop, juno reactor, j.s. bach, k's choice, kidney thieves, the killers, KMFDM, lacuna coil, lords of acid, loreena mckennit, lovedrug, madonna, marilyn manson, the mars volta, metallica, mike & the mechanics, mindless self indulgence, muse, my life with the thrill kill kult, negative format, neuroticfish, nine inch nails, nirvana, orgy, panzer AG, pj harvey, poe, portishead, psyclon 9, radiohead, rammstein, rasputina, rhea's obsession, rob zombie, rotersand, sarah mclachlan, seabound, silent hill music, [:sitd:], skinny puppy, skunk anansie, smashing pumpkins, the smiths, splashdown, stabbing westward, suicide commando, switchblade symphony, system of a down, system syn, tactical sekt, the tea party, tool, tori amos, type o negative, universal hall pass, VAST, velvet acid christ, VNV nation, v. rachmaninoff, w.a. mozart, wolfsheim, :wumpscut:, zeromancer ... et al ... i can't name everyone...

Movies:

grindhouse, transformers, 300, hot fuzz, 3:10 to yuma, fight club, ginger snaps, silent hill, the nightmare before christmas, equilibrium, moulin rouge, chicago, kevin smith films, pulp fiction, reservoir dogs, kill bill, donnie darko, sin city, american beauty, osmosis jones, silence of the lambs, chronicles of narnia, the LOTR movies, the matrix, the last unicorn, princss mononoke and other miyazaki films ... b-movies, anything with zombies, horror movies in general ...

Television:

all those oldschool cartoons: thundercats, transformers, voltron - the classics. also, discovery health channel

Books:

the dark tower series, harry potter, imajica, the thief of always, the last unicorn, the divine comedy, medical books, walking dead series, david mack's kabuki, the alchemist, white-wolf RPG books

Heroes:

mom

My Blog

2008

happy new year, everyone. i hope this year is even better than the last.
Posted by .:ephemeral:. on Wed, 02 Jan 2008 04:24:00 PST

merry christmas...

...to all ^_^
Posted by .:ephemeral:. on Mon, 24 Dec 2007 09:54:00 PST

A23

assemblage 23 tomorrow night. can't wait.
Posted by .:ephemeral:. on Thu, 11 Oct 2007 07:25:00 PST

boomerang

"watch me, i'm weightlessthough i'm on the groundsee me, i'm flyingno longer around"
Posted by .:ephemeral:. on Fri, 21 Sep 2007 07:35:00 PST

im in

i am back from california.i was accepted to SCU.the reality of such a wonderful thing hasn't really hit me yet. i'm still sitting here with my finger upon my chin in quiet amazement.i'm going to be a ...
Posted by .:ephemeral:. on Wed, 05 Sep 2007 02:11:00 PST

story time

i decided that i'm going to devote more time to writing, and working on the story i've been writing in my head for about four years now.maybe once it's written, i can start doing the comic pages for i...
Posted by .:ephemeral:. on Sat, 11 Aug 2007 06:52:00 PST

oh. hell. no.

oh, yes.my jeans. my most coveted pair of jeans.has.a.hole.i take that back - multiple holes, actually.the knee is starting to rip.the seams on the sides are starting to rip.and there's a small hole i...
Posted by .:ephemeral:. on Fri, 03 Aug 2007 01:27:00 PST

the trip

i have nearly everything i need.i'll be ready to start actually packing in a couple of weeks.i wish i could be excited right now.my motivation is low.there are so many reasons why.tonight, i'm startin...
Posted by .:ephemeral:. on Fri, 03 Aug 2007 08:34:00 PST

down to business

this next month is going to be insane.i have an interview at southern california university of health sciences.over the next five weeks - before flying out to california at the end of august - i've mu...
Posted by .:ephemeral:. on Tue, 24 Jul 2007 03:43:00 PST

chipmunk

so...there is a chipmunk.in my house.i tried to catch it to put it back outside.ultimately, with the help of my brother, and incompetent clawless cat,  i failed.i left the door open for awhi...
Posted by .:ephemeral:. on Sat, 14 Jul 2007 11:17:00 PST