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About Me

Im not your average girl. I am not going to try to make you like me. This is me, this is who I am. If you dont like that, then have a nice life.
I am not perfect, never will be, never will think that, never will come close. So dont expect so much of me.
I am broken, more broken than I have ever been. Why am I broken? Because of heart breaks, and loved ones lost, and losing myself in the process, and most of all regrets. So in saying that, I ask you to be gentle with me.
I am an insomniac, yes, I cant sleep. Sometimes I get tired, sometimes I sleep. But usually I am thinking, and stressing, and hoping and writing.
I am a writer. I write poetry, stories, erotica, songs. I'll edit your essays for class. Writing is my passion I've been doing it since a pen was put into my hand, and will continue to until i am no longer capeable.
I dont have a plan for my future, I have ideas, hopes, dreams. And someday I will figure it out.
I dont feel that California is where I belong. The major problem there is that I dont know where I feel I belong.
Im going soul searching...
To find myself
To unbreak myself.
I'm looking at you through the glass... Don't know how much time has passed Oh, god it feels like forever But no one ever tells you that forever Feels like home sitting all alone inside your head

My Interests

Tattoos
Music
Singing
Dancing
Writing

I'd like to meet:

My path to life because it has been blurred for far too long

Music:

"I can see right through your lying eyes. And I know- the nights I'm not with you, you're fucking her too. It's like deja vu. Who ever said people change? It's the same old bullshit story. These words spill through your teeth with no meaning. You can mumble my name in your sleep alone. Because I'm done with these games you little boys play. Do me a favor- get the fuck out of my way. So I can pass go and collect my prize. Stop spitting lies. Your alibies aren't working for me anymore. I've learned not to trust your eyes. Close your eyes, your lying eyes."
Until December Burns

Movies:

Garden State
Little Miss Sunshine
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Boondock Saints
Dogma

Television:

Family Guy
Weeds

Books:

The Bell Jar
Choke
A Million Little Pieces
My Freind Leonard

Heroes:

The ones who dont fit in, the rejects, the suicidal, the drug addicts, the homeless, the young ones, the lonely ones, the musicians, the ones who dont strive for perfection, the independent ones, the unsure ones, the ones who cry alone, the psych ward patients, the virgins, the homosexuals, the ones who dont strive for perfection because it may seem nice, but perfection is out of our reach, and these ones are the only ones who realize it.

My Blog

Dreaming of A Reality

Give me a nameSomething more meaningful than this life I have been forced into. Count my yearsAnd someday soon you might just stop.To give up. Have you broken me yet? Have you ripped out my heart? Eno...
Posted by PlasticSmile on Mon, 19 Nov 2007 02:39:00 PST

something to think....

Freedom is non-existent in this place we call homeWe all walk the same waySpeak the same words-They all have the same meanings. We break the same rules.We lie the same lies.And not too often, do we fi...
Posted by PlasticSmile on Mon, 19 Nov 2007 02:31:00 PST

Your Name In Chalk....

We've got a crisis on our handsIn this twisted worldthere are some fucked up lies that we weave. And if you chose to leave me here I swear I'll write your name in chalkTo be washed away in one fell sw...
Posted by PlasticSmile on Wed, 10 Oct 2007 02:12:00 PST

Wet, Sweat, Hot

Your eyes, They lie.Seduce my nerves. Rub your calloused fingers across my neck.Squeeze my hips against yours.And we can begin. Your chapped lips, running along my spineBrings shivers from my toesTo m...
Posted by PlasticSmile on Wed, 10 Oct 2007 02:02:00 PST

Unfortunately Beautiful

Unfortunately for you he is beautiful.Unfortunately for me he is unfortunately stunning. Your voice brings me to my kneesRight now perfections is limited.Unfortunately infatuation is too cliche.and un...
Posted by PlasticSmile on Wed, 10 Oct 2007 01:45:00 PST

Fall To Regrets

Dreams that don't come true often fade into nightmares.The ones you never wake up from-and the recurring ones that haunt you everytime your eyes close. And the pain seems to not exist sometimes.And th...
Posted by PlasticSmile on Wed, 10 Oct 2007 01:25:00 PST

As I Am, Yours

Love me as I am, Yours, I belong to you. Think of me as the stars and the moon. I am surrounding you. I am swarming through your thoughts. Take me as I am, Yours, for the taking. Breathe my name. Bre...
Posted by PlasticSmile on Tue, 21 Aug 2007 03:54:00 PST

love in Your name

SometimesI think you think too much andif love is a thought then pleasestop thinking for a moment.And in a moment,Slip away ... Down,to the dark, hallowempty place. To be alone.Because your thoughts a...
Posted by PlasticSmile on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 05:44:00 PST

Thoughts on pain

June 11, 2007 Pain You like wake up from a bad dreamAnd the whole world has stopped for a moment ,Yet seems like an eternity.And I look at the clock in the reflection of the mirrorAnd it's ticking bac...
Posted by PlasticSmile on Sun, 17 Jun 2007 04:01:00 PST

Insomnia... or something like it

Sometimes dreams aren't good enough.And when they don't come you have to use your imagination.Sometimes you imagination isn't good enoughSo your mind seems to wander... ... Or wonder.What's life like ...
Posted by PlasticSmile on Mon, 02 Jul 2007 11:20:00 PST