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I love my babies Ayden & Adalyn

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Ayden Michael Saenz

Born Still

August 27th, 2007 at 9:38p.m.

6lbs 13.2oz 20in

Goodbye
I always took for granted, what I thought I'd never lose. Because I never thought it would happen, until I heard the dreaded news. They say you were chosen for his garden, His preciously hand picked bouquet. "God really needed him, That's why he couldn't stay." Saying goodbye is never easy, It's the hardest thing to do. But what hurts me even more Is not the chance to say it to you. So today, Jesus, as you are listening in your home above; Would you go and find my baby, And give him all my love! Visit Ayden's Site



"...In just a little while I will be gone, and you won't see me anymore. Then, just a little while after that, you will see me again." JOHN 16:19

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I'd like to meet:

I would like to meet my baby boy again, to hold him one more time and to kiss his sweet little face.Ayden you were the best gift your daddy could ever give to me. I'm just glad we could hold you and kiss you before we lay you to rest. We love you and will miss you always.Sweet Dreams My Ayden Michael.

"A Pair of Shoes"
I am wearing a pair of shoes. They are ugly shoes. Uncomfortable shoes. I hate my shoes. Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair. Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step. Yet, I continue to wear them. I get funny looks wearing these shoes. They are looks of sympathy. I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs. They never talk about my shoes. To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable. To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them. But, once you put them on, you can never take them off. I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes. There are many pairs in this world. Some woman are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them. Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much. Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt. No woman deserves to wear these shoes. Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman. These shoes have given me the strength to face anything. They have made me who I am. I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.
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Movies:

The missing piece of my heart. ..
Make an on-line slide show at www.OneTrueMedia.com

Books:


imikimi - Customize Your World

Heroes:

Adam & My mom for being supportive and helping me through this tragic time, my sister for being there when I needed her most and when I barely needed her at at. Amanda and Chris for supporting Adam and I in every little thing and even more. My Aunt Rosa, and Uncle Jo and my cousin's Shelbie and Hailey for being there for all of us and for sponsoring my Ayden's site. Without all of these people and many other family and friends I don't think I would have been able to face the days to come.

My Blog

Today’s Appointment

I know that I said I would keep everyone updated on Adalyn but and there has been about 3 appointments that have come and gone since my last blog. Well as for the MTHFR I have the two abnormal genes a...
Posted by I love my babies Ayden & Adalyn on Tue, 10 Jun 2008 09:23:00 PST

Our first Ultrasound

On Wednesday we had our first ultrasound and well I was so excited to see our new little baby growing inside me. I mean seeing the baby is like confirmation that "I am pregnant"... I guess it's the wh...
Posted by I love my babies Ayden & Adalyn on Fri, 01 Feb 2008 02:32:00 PST

Just some new news...

Well I ended my last blog with the question " what does 2008 have to offer" and well now I have the answer.. it has another blessing to offer, I have been blessed with another baby. Adam and I found o...
Posted by I love my babies Ayden & Adalyn on Mon, 14 Jan 2008 10:34:00 PST

Looking back at 2007,,remembering the day I found out I was pregnant

As I sit here and think about how one year ago today I was at Adam's apartment taking a home pregnancy test, while he was at work. It seems like only yesterday I was taking that test and watchin...
Posted by I love my babies Ayden & Adalyn on Sat, 05 Jan 2008 10:21:00 PST

Late nights are starting to catch up to me again.

It's late..I keep yawning but I can't sleep. The late nights that hit me right after Ayden are starting to hit me again..I think it's the whole Christmas is almost here thing.. and I've never been a r...
Posted by I love my babies Ayden & Adalyn on Wed, 05 Dec 2007 11:57:00 PST

Just some feelings....

I feel so alone in this world, like an outsider looking in. In 2mths time my world has completely turned upside down. First I gave birth to a lifeless son and now Adam and I are no longer together, b...
Posted by I love my babies Ayden & Adalyn on Mon, 19 Nov 2007 09:32:00 PST

My Ayden

Well I have to say I miss him more than anything. I feel so empty without him!! It hurts to become a mother and now I have no baby to feed, to change, to bathe, or to hold. I feel like god decided I w...
Posted by I love my babies Ayden & Adalyn on Wed, 26 Sep 2007 08:04:00 PST

An Unfinished Mother

An Unfinished Mother Written by Clara Hinton | Mar 14, 2004 When child loss occurs, a mother goes through a difficult time of emotional turmoil and questioning. "Am I still a mother?" "Does my child s...
Posted by I love my babies Ayden & Adalyn on Mon, 10 Sep 2007 08:51:00 PST

Longest week of my life

WELL IT'S 3AM AND I CAN'T SLEEP, ALL I CAN DO IS THINK ABOUT AYDEN AND MY ENTIRE PREGNANCY WITH HIM. I AM SO ANGRY AND CONFUSED AND MY HEART HURTS SO BAD. I JUST KEEP THINKING HOW I CAN NEVER HOLD HIM...
Posted by I love my babies Ayden & Adalyn on Mon, 03 Sep 2007 01:52:00 PST