Loosing Control [The life of me Vii]

Alright, so right now I'm hollow. Ask me why, I have no idea. No I lie I know exactly why. I used to be this bright starving soul. But now I have no clue what or who I am.
I never found that special place where I was always welcomed with open arms. Ask me something tomorrow and I guaruntee(spelling)it'll change a week from now.
I have no idea who I am but I do know who loves me and who I will always love. They are the people who are always right there no matter what wrong I have committed; Who I've muredered or who I've stolen from. They are the people who say "Victoria I love you so much!" day after day even when I'm about to kill myself. Not those punk ASS mothers who say it just to play with my emotions.
Ok well if you're reading this and you have no idea whats up Im sorry. No one really does, so dont feel too bad. Theres few people who actually matter in my heart. Annabella because even though we are so distant shes been there when she can and she, I truely believe, loves me. My mom because shes helpin me pay for the wrongs I have done.
Kristi shes just like me and feel so comfortable when Im around her. Shes like my soul mate Im sure, but just in that way.
And him. I love him I know that now. So you've made it this far, congrats I guess. Well to know me: I love asia, anime, liquor, booze, and most of all family and true friends. I love music and video games big time!!!!! I love other stuff too but I have to kill you if you found out! ^^ I actually now from this moment have an opinion on everything. Im learning who I am. Cuz I guess growing up that never happened. Most people say I'm the coolest most lovable person alive. Believe what you wish like me or not I really dont care!If you dont like me move on please don't try to be a hard ass with the key board to get your panties in a bunch.
Cuz you know what I don't give a fuck! Here's a tissue for your issuse!
Welcome to my life