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About Me

Hi everybody
Thanks for visiting MY myspace
I have opened this to help me track my weight loss
I started a diet and exercise regime on January 1st 2007 and aimed to see major results by my birthday which was 1st March
I was a NZ 16 clothing, and my goal is to be a US Size 0
My main problems areas are my thighs, calves, ankles, arms and butt. But my major issue i have with my body is my tummy. It is massive - refer to my pics to see how seriously huge it is. Since i was 13 i have always had a little tummy but at the age of about 18 it ballooned. I moved away from home and started comfort eating and well...yea....i just kept eating and eating and eating. I also was diagnosed with PCOS (polycystic ovarion syndrome) and was told by the doctor that this condition also contributes to weight gain especially around the middle
I will add more to this space as time goes by, will start adding photos and regularly update a blog with specific details on my weight, BMI, Height, Mood and other essential and nonessential body measurements
I have created this webpage to help me stick to this dream body plan - so please write any comments and also add me as a contact as i would love to meet new friends on my journey
MORE ABOUT ME:
I AM 23
I AM ENGAGED
I DON'T LIKE PHONYS, CHEATS OR LIARS
I WAS MIA FROM AGE 16 - 18 AND HAVE BEEN ANA/MIA SINCE JANUARY 2007
I WAS ON ANTIDEPRESSANTS THROUGHOUT ALL OF 2006
I USED TO CUT AND SELF HARM
I NEVER GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL, BUT GOT ACCEPTED IN TO UNI THEN QUIT THAT HALF WAY THROUGH MY DIPLOMA
I AM OBSESSED WITH POP MUSIC AND CELEBRITIES, SEVERAL GIRL CRUSHES INCLUDING; CHERYL TWEEDY, HILARY DUFF AND NICOLE RITCHIE
MY FAVOURITE COLOURS ARE PINK, PURPLE AND CHAMPAGNE
I LIKE TO TAKE PHOTOS - ESPECIALLY LANDSCAPE PHOTOGRAPHY & BLACK AND WHITE
I LOVE MOVIES - I OWN OVER 140 DVDS AND SEVERAL TV SERIES ON DVD
MY FAVOURITE DAY IS SUNDAY
I LOVE BALLET, AND CURRENTLY ATTEND ADULT CLASSES ON A FRIDAY EVENING
I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO BE BLONDE
FAVOURITE FLOWER: ORCHID & LILY
.*Eating Disorder Survey*.
General
Age?: 23
Height?: 5ft8
Weight?: 160lbs
Lowest Weight?: TBA
Highest Weight?: 206lbs
What weight do you want to weigh?: 120lbs
What eating disorder do you have?: Ana & Mia
In Depth
How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: under 1000
Do you throw up your food on occasion?: Yes, Lots
Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: Yes
Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?: Ballet
Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: Yes
Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?: like 48hrs lol thats it
Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: Overdose on caffiene
Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: Yes
Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: No
Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: No
Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: No
Body Image Q's
Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: Yes
What part of your body would you change?: All of it
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: 0
Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: Most the time
Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?: Yes
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: Yes
Health/Food
Do you think you eat healthy enough?: No
Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: Yes
Fat grams?: Not so much
Calories?: Yes
Are you often tired/fatigued?: Yes
Do you feel more energised after eating food?: No
Do you eat meat?: Yes
Do you eat your food in a certain way? ie cut it up into small pieces, etc.: No
Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: No
Have you ever thrown up blood?: No
Is your heart bpm above 49?: Yes
Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: Yes
Other Stuff
Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?: Yes
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?: I am Pro-Ana
Do you have any other mental disorders? ie Bipolar, BDD, etc.: Slight OCD, Slight Depression
What's your favourite food to eat?: Pizza
Favourite drink?: Coke Zero
Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?: No
Do you want to recover?: No
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Anorexia
First things first...
What's ur Name?: Steph
Age: 23
If ur for real, then you'll kno what these mean...
GW: 120lbs
LW: TBA
HW: 206lbs
CW: 160lbs
Here We Go...
How do you feel about ur weight?: Sick
Why do you want to lose?: To be skinny and wear a smaller size
Why do you fear gaining?: cos gaining is moving me futher away from my gw
Were you abused as a child?: No
Molested?: No
Raped?: No
Do you feel neglected?: Yes
What do you want most out of life?: Happiness
What do you wish you had more than anything?: Steve's baby
This or That?
black or white: Black
night or day: Night
earth or air: Air
fire or water: Water
light or dark: Light
happy or sad: Happy
love or lust: Love
silver or gold: Silver
hot or cold: Hot
perfection or happiness?: Happiness
life or death: Life
Favorites
Season: Summer
Drink: Coke Zero
feeling: Contentment
emotion: Happy
day of the week: Sunday
month: November
More About Ana
Is Ana your friend? Or is Mia? Or both of them?: Both
How Many Cal's do u consume a day?: Under 1000
How Often do you Feel Faint?: Lots of the time
How Often do you Black Out?: Never
Do you even care about yourself anymore?: Yes, i care about getting my body down to 120lbs
Why are you doing this?: Cos i hate my reflection
What do you want this to accomplish?: To make me happier
What if it Doesn't Work?: IT WILL
Are you Willing to risk your life?: it won't get that far
Do you think you have a problem?: NO WAY
Do others know about it?: A few, but they think i've quit
Are you guilty at all about it?: No
What do you regret?: Gaining all the weight in the first place
How Long can you go without eating?: 48hrs max, lame huh!
How long have you been doing this?: This time around? since January 28th 2007
How long do you plan on doing it?: Till i reach my gw
Does anything else matter?: Yes, Steve matters
Are You Suicidal?: No
Do you Care?: about....?
Are You Lonely?: Yes, all the time
Are You Trapped?: Sumtimes
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Your Life Soundtrack:
This is your life's soundtrack, chose a song for each scene that fits you.
Opening Credits welcome to my life - simple plan
Waking Up Scene wake up - hilary duff
Getting Ready Scene don't cha - pussycat dolls
Car Driving Scene it's my life - bon jovi
High School Flashback Scene billy s - skye sweetnam
Nostalgic Scene this time i know its for real - young divas
Angry Scene one step closer - linkin park
Agony, Painful Scene over it - katherine mcphee
Break-up Scene potential breakup song - aly & aj
Sad, Breakdown Scene where'd ya go - fort minor
Nightclub/Dance Scene my my my - armand van helden
Buddy/Sidekick Scene you and me song
Dreaming of Someone Scene hopelessly devoted to you - olivia newton john (grease)
Contemplation Scene do somethin - britney spears
Love Scene i'll stand by you - girls aloud
Kissing Scene i don't wanna miss a thing - aerosmith
Relaxing Scene silence - aly & aj
Action/Fight Scene no good advice - girls aloud
Victory Scene what dreams are made of - hilary duff
Closing Credits goodbye my lover - james blunt
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