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esa niña isabella

I know nothing about life, but I know everything about living.

About Me



my name is andrea isabella.
i am nothing special,
just the combined efforts of everyone i know.

im loving life.
i don't care what you say.
your opinions just built my character.

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A person is never as
quiet or unrestrained as they seem,
as bad or as good,
as vulnerable or as strong,
as sweet or as feisty.

My Interests



I'd like to meet:



like i said, i like all types of music.
haha, i'm so random, aren't i?

Poetry
I love poetic sayings that come from the soul, and poems that touch the heart.

You have come to my rescue again and again im my impassable, sometimes despairing years, you have allowed my brilliant friends to destroy themselves and I am still here, severely damaged, but functioning.

The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core strength within you that survives all hurt.

I have no idea wether we live again. It doesn't seem likely from scientific or the philosophical point of view but certainly all things are possible to you.

We know little, we can tell less but i know one thing I can tell, I will see you again which is of such beauty. You will be more at home there than you ever were here.

Let the light of the late afternoon shine through. Let it come, as it will, and don't be afraid God does not leave us comfortless, so let evening come.

If you don't know the kind of person I am and I don't know the kind of person you are a pattern that others made may prevail in the world and following the wrong god home we may miss our star.

For there is many small betrayal in the mind, a shrug that lets the fragile silence break sending with shouts the horrible errors of childhood.

For it is important that awake people awake, or a breaking line may discourage them back to sleep; the signals we give- yes or no, or maybe -should be clear: the darkness around us is deep.

Whatever your end may be, accept my amazement. May I stand until death forever at attention for any your least instruction or enlightenment.

Dusk, I realized then, is just an illusion, because the sun is either above the horizon or below it. And, that means that day and night are linked in a way that few things are; there cannot be one without the other, yet they cannot exist at the same time. How would it feel, I remember wondering, to be always together, yet forever apart?

Maybe the deepest part of who we are is what scares us or breaks our hearts and we don't want to share that with anyone and when we do we don't want to lose that person.

These things happen... the soul's bliss and suffering are bound together.

It's true i've been hurt in my life. Quite a bit. But it's also true that I have loved, and been loved. And that carries a weight of its own.

disappearances happen. pains go phantom. blood stops running and people fade away. there's more i have to say, so much more, but... i disappeared...

She dances, footsteps like raindrops, patter across the stage, second glances, she pirouttes and slowly fades away.

There's a certain kind of pain that numbs you, there's a type of freedom that can tie you down, sometimes the unexplained can define you, and sometimes silence is the only sound.

Music:

• America
• The Beatles
• Ben E. King
• Billie Holiday
• Bill Weathers
• Blondie
• Brand New
• Bruce Springsteen
• Bryan Adams
• Cat Stevens
• Chantal Kreviazuk
• Chicago
• Coldplay
• Dragonette
• Elton John
• Eric Clapton
• Imogen Heap
• James Blunt
• John Lennon
• Julieta Venegas
• Kansas
• Madonna
• Norah Jones
• Phil Collins
• REO Speedwagon
• Rod Stewart
• Sarah Mclachlan
• Selena
• Shawn Colvin
• The Sounds
• Stevie Nicks
• Stevie Wonder
• Tegan and Sara
• Tom Petty
• The Traveling Wilburys

i like all kinds of stuff, i'm pretty open to anything.

Books:

• A Mermaids Singing
• Random Acts of Senseless Violence
• The Kite Runner
• The Five People You Meet in Heaven
• Paula
• Nights in Rodanthe
• The Color of Water

any books by Lisa Carey, Nicholas Sparks, Isabel Allende or Mitch Albom

Heroes:



Grandmother.
I can't hold your hand, or look into your eyes, and when i talk to you it just echoes in my mind.

Mother.Father.
I move foward slowly into the new day. If you have taught me one thing it was never to fail life.

Andy Warhol.
Sally Mann.
Miss Van.

My Blog

its not so easy loving me.

why is this so hard for me when it's the simplest thing to do?to let someone love you and love them back in return..it shouldn't be hard.beginnings are difficult and i knew going into this that it was...
Posted by esa niña isabella on Fri, 03 Aug 2007 03:52:00 PST

my sister is the shit!

last night was pure craaaazy!!  so my sister, her friend and our cousin went to this club last night around 12, it was a last minute thing too we almost didnt go.  so we're there and this gr...
Posted by esa niña isabella on Fri, 03 Aug 2007 08:00:00 PST

you know what i hate?

I hate people who let me down. People who say one thing and do another. And i especially hate  those who can't own up to their mistakes. I hate those who end up being what they promised me they w...
Posted by esa niña isabella on Thu, 19 Jul 2007 09:46:00 PST

just thoughts from a wise girl...

....ME! :P  haha.well shit, time's flying by!  but i have to say that it's been a good time.  and all those little moments in between that i thought would break me are nothing more but ...
Posted by esa niña isabella on Thu, 12 Jul 2007 05:47:00 PST

it's life...[my life]

Everyone always asks for my advice,yet i can't even solve my own problems. Im always a mess.I can never keep my own secrets.I laugh too hard at stupid things.Little things get to me easily.My favorite...
Posted by esa niña isabella on Wed, 04 Jul 2007 08:17:00 PST

a change of mind

i've always just wanted to reach out,to touch a complete stranger and never even know my impact.i want to go somewhere where nobody knows my name.nobody knows who i am.where my mistakes are unknownand...
Posted by esa niña isabella on Sat, 30 Jun 2007 05:40:00 PST

word of advice

Sometimes bad things happen for no reason, no purpose. They just occur and we're left to pick up the pieces the best we can. The world doesn't end just because you think it will, and sometimes g...
Posted by esa niña isabella on Fri, 29 Jun 2007 09:31:00 PST

and it's like this...

im in love with him. he stole my heart, my whole heart. my god, he makes life so beautiful. i'm in love with his mother, i'm in love with his whole family. they've done so much for us. how could i ev...
Posted by esa niña isabella on Tue, 12 Jun 2007 12:12:00 PST

yeah read this one too **ahem**

so it's kind of stupid writting about this but whatever.  it took me years after people first got myspaces before i got mine.  why?...nosy people i want to keep out of my life.  when i...
Posted by esa niña isabella on Mon, 04 Jun 2007 09:41:00 PST

not enough time in the world

and lately all i do is think about things.i yearn for an accomplished life.what that means to me has nothing to do with success,not success by your definition at least.forget about the cars and the mo...
Posted by esa niña isabella on Fri, 25 May 2007 09:02:00 PST