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RawR

Part-time ingenue, part-time ace

About Me

india--edmonton--chicago--manhattan--montréal
"It is only in adventure that some people succeed in knowing themselves - in finding themselves."
-André Gide
Now she's walking through the clouds
With a circus mind
That's running wild
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairytales
All she ever thinks about is riding with the wind

-Jimi Hendrix
-I love the smell of old books, especially my aunt's 80-year old book of Wordsworth and P.B. Shelley poetry with yellowed pages.
-I believe men and women are EQUAL so shutthefuckup with the misogynistic SHIT.
-I believe we are ALL headed in the right direction.
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****"So in America when the sun goes down and I sit on the old broken-down river pier watching the long, long skies over New Jersey and sense all that raw land that rolls in one unbelievable huge bulge over to the West Coast, and all that road going, all the people dreaming in the immensity of it, and in Iowa I know by now the children must be crying in the land where they let the children cry, and tonight the stars'll be out, and don't you know that God is Pooh Bear? The evening star must be drooping and shedding her sparkler dims on the prairie, which is just before the coming of complete night that blesses the earth, darkens all rivers, cups the peaks and folds the final shore in, and nobody, nobody knows what's going to happen to anybody besides the forlorn rags of growing old."****
-I think half the magic of being alive is not knowing what is going to happen the next minute, the next day, the next year.
-I'm done writing this shit for now... Nap time.
"JUST FLOW, FLOW...
SHUT UP, LIVE, TRAVEL, ADVENTURE, BLESS, AND DON'T BE SORRY!"

"...Ah, life is a gate, a way, a path to Paradise anyway, why not live for fun and joy and love or some sort of girl by a fireside, why not go to your desire and LAUGH..."
-Kerouac, BIG SUR

My Interests

The human condition...EVERYTHING about it, books, booze, shoes, afterparties, coffee, wearing short shorts in winter, Jack Kerouac, NYLON, Rainer Maria Rilke, dirty electro, even dirtier house, reading all night, dancing till 8AM, DIY fashion,

jazz, Annie Leibovitz photos, Patrick Demarchelier photos, yellow pumps, used bookstores, summer tans, poetry readings, book readings, mind games, drinking vodka-m150 at Blizzarts,

first dates, first kisses, Norah Jones on the ipod when it's snowing, Grey's Anatomy, Christopher Kane dresses, Joyce Johnson, Chicago dreaming, SoHo walking, St. Laurent living, St. Denis shopping, strange conversations with old ladies at the pastry shop, pink lipstick, orange nail polish, astrology, trying to plan my life...but secretly enjoying the uncertainty.


To go on a pilgrimage, I discovered,
you do not need to know what you are looking for,
only that you are looking for something,
and need urgently to find it.
It is the urgency that does the work,
a readiness to receive that finds the answers.

~janine pommy vega

Also, all of the epiphanies I had during the invincible ages of 17, 18, 19, 20 during solitary bike rides along Chicago's lakefront. Absolutely priceless days of my life!

Other good times:

sashaaaa+digweed at cro, back in nyc

I'd like to meet:


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Thinkers, drinkers, dreamers, dancers, writers,
part-time philosophers.

People who understand the difference between Fashion and Style.

People who look beyond the day-to-day routine for that elusive "something more" (whatever that may be).
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"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. Security is mostly a superstition."
-- Helen Keller

"All the golden land's ahead of you and all kinds of unforeseen events wait lurking to surprise you and make you glad you're alive to see."
--Kerouac....of course!

"Boys and girls in America have such a sad time together; sophistication demands that they submit to sex without proper preliminary talk.
NOT COURTING TALK- but REAL STRAIGHT TALK ABOUT SOULS, FOR LIFE IS HOLY AND EVERY MOMENT IS PRECIOUS."
--Kerouac

The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. You trade in your sense for an act. You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. There can't be any large-scale revolution until there's a personal revolution, on an individual level. It's got to happen inside first. You can take away a man's political freedom and you won't hurt him- unless you take away his freedom to feel. That can destroy him. That kind of freedom can't be granted. Nobody can win it FOR you.
-Jim Morrison (good god, he was beautiful!)

Music:



Chicane, Sasha+Digweed (for old times' sake), Carl Cox, Nick Warren, Desyn Masiello, the Global Underground CDs, Miguel Migs, Justin Long, Armin Van Helden, Derrick Carter, Mark Farina, David Guetta, Pheek, Stacey Kidd, Ian Pooley, Timo Maas, Dave Seaman, Richie Hawtin, Deep Dish, Infected Mushroom, Martin Solveig, Mylo, Sander Kleinenberg, Derrick May, Dubstar, Sandra Collins, Ivy, Paul Johnson...and all the kickass underground DJs in Chicago and NYC
Also, dirty dirty dirty electro that makes me want to touch myself.

THE STROKES, Rachael Yamagata, The Verve, Miles Davis, Billie Holiday, Nina Simone, Charlie Parker, Ella Fitzgerald, Yeah yeah yeahs, Radiohead, Supergrass, U2, Hot Hot Heat, Placebo, Audioslave, Interpol, The Killers, Depeche Mode, Franz Ferdinand, Foo, Weezer, Bush, Ani Di Franco, Kate Earl, Postal Service, Semisonic, Noooo Doubt, Hole, Garbage, Michelle Featherstone, Dishwalla, Cornershop, Ash, Madonna, Gwen Stefani, Alanis, Zero 7, Air, Thelonious Monk, Nirvana, Jet, Suede, The Used, Fi-OH-na Apple, Sarah McLachlan, Cardigans, Sheryl Crow, Oasis, Smashing Pumpkins, Incubus, 311, Chilli Peppers, Morcheeeeba, Massive Attack, and yes, The Spice Girls.

'90s Madonna = Ridiculously Gorgeous

Movies:

COFFEE AND CIGARETTES!!, Good Will Hunting, Breakfast at Tiffany's (

Television:

I haven't watched TV in about 6/7 years. Waste of good time. However, last week I began watching Grey's Anatomy because.....because well, holy fuck, it's SUCH A GOOD SHOW!!

Books:



Off the Road -- Carolyn Cassady
The Five People you meet in Heaven -- Mitch Albom,

The Power of Flow,
Random Writings of Aldous Huxley,
Three Black Skirts -- Anna Johnson;
To Kill A Mockingbird -- Harper Lee;

Mags:

Heroes:

* MY PARENTS -- they have the biggest, most unselfish hearts -- I LOOOOOVE them!

* Jack Kerouac -- Whether or not he [Kerouac] ever completed his own vision quest is irrelevant in that he gave us a starting point and the first corner edge of a map to our own often lonely-road-search for soul and self.

My Blog

People Known and Loved

Dry coffee cups in the den upstairsFaded bookmarks in several books at onceShoes always seem on their way out the doorEach finger dipped in a different paint jar Each thought floating away with a diff...
Posted by RawR on Sat, 07 Apr 2007 12:32:00 PST

The Jukebox Plays Again by the Glass Window

I've found my glass window once againAfter months - we meet                             &nbs...
Posted by RawR on Thu, 05 Apr 2007 11:54:00 PST

Orange Nail Polish Vignettes

Sunrises on Sunday morningsAlways that same feeling of unadulterated satisfactionSmells like smoke and sweatTastes like home-fries, eggs and coffeeFeels like painful feet from dancing in 3" heelsAnd l...
Posted by RawR on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 08:01:00 PST

Shades of Optimism

There are strange shades of optimismIn the colors of the sun that I see from my bedside windowIn the yellows and the oranges That burst into the newborn skyI see a reinvention of my hopes and my dream...
Posted by RawR on Sun, 07 Jan 2007 05:43:00 PST

Paper Plane Travels

In 1995, my best friend and I We tossed paper planes out of the classroom windowI scribbled secret notes on the wingsThat I hoped someone would readOne of those little planes flew all around the world...
Posted by RawR on Sun, 31 Dec 2006 09:45:00 PST

On My Rooftop on a Sunday Evening

Sunday evening, on my rooftopIn my blanket of flowers and brown leavesAnd the girl I see in my pocket mirror She's asking me questions againI look very close and then I look right awayWho spins and we...
Posted by RawR on Mon, 11 Dec 2006 04:20:00 PST

Where does all the time go?

Seriously. Where does all the time ago?There is never enough time to do everything I want to do - whether socially or at work or for myself.Then there are tasks like laundry and dishes.Then there are ...
Posted by RawR on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 04:30:00 PST

Where is my sense of calm?

I think I've lost it. I really do.I've been home now for 3 days, and as opposed to being boring, it's actually been really amazing and relaxing.It makes me realize how much relaxing I DON'T do during ...
Posted by RawR on Tue, 21 Nov 2006 07:58:00 PST

Little but Monumental Weekend Moments

Life is crazy. Seriously.As some may know, I moved here to Montreal 5 months ago. As some may also know, I love it here. I've met lots of really great people here...something I am very grateful for! I...
Posted by RawR on Sun, 05 Nov 2006 01:44:00 PST

I love

the feeling close to the weekend when people are just bursting with excitement and making plans about where to go, what to wear, what to do, where to dance during the coming weekend.I can waste hours ...
Posted by RawR on Thu, 02 Nov 2006 04:50:00 PST