I have been gone so long I feel like I have finally turned into a butterfly! Hiding in a cocoon of loud music and selfish endeavours, giving Life has put me back on track for the goals and dreams that lay dormant for so long.As a 19 year old (now 27) I remember writing in my journal "Ways I was going to change the World." I only got to step three before I realized that it isn't as easy as talking about it. I thought I would be a super star by 25. I thought I would buy the middle of America to save it from destruction. My personal plan was to have concerts there all the time and then people could come to this place to hear music and donate to whatever charity they wanted to help. If they wanted to stay and live they could, as long as they helped the project. As I met people who are now my best friends, their ventures became my ventures and then it became a community of foster kids who would raise abandon animals. A single mothers home, a retreat with alternative medicine and yoga. It would raise awareness, and encourage others to give and appreciate. We would live in tree houses, and live from the food we ate. But, we would still have the sickest music ever because without music what fun would any of it be.These ideas were lost for a little while I returned to old habits. Then one of my old bad habits (sex) turned into the best thing to ever happen to me. Me, yes me, Party girl Tuesday, self proclaimed socialite becomes pregnant. Bombarded by negativity "Don't have it" "have an abortion" "Your life is over" "What are you thinking?" "It's an expensive piece of luggage you have to carry for the rest of your life" I decided to have it. I decided that maybe God, or Love, or whatever you want to call it, may be onto something, maybe giving life could be a good thing.I had her at home, no drugs, just me and the universe! The most amazing pain I have ever felt, and the most accomplished thing I have ever done. She consumes me with love every day and has me yearning for the goodness I used to chase. She (Onalee Blue) makes me want to make the world a better place, she makes me remember my mission, and on top of all the other greatness I want to define, she now has made me an advocate of the power of a natural birth. Giving life the way life intended, consumed by the power of love! If a woman can do that...a woman can do anything.Now years later, and with the realization that I can't sing, so I probably wont be a superstar, my motives are pure and simple. To make an impression, to spread thanks and good, and the stories that I believe will someday change the world...but you can only make a difference one person at a time, and hopefully Onalee will carry on the tradition.We are collectively working towards the retreat, but in the meantime we are making changes around us. We could really use your help!Pretty much everything on my page you can click on to donate, vote, watch, sign petitions, or read more about it...so click away
