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yana

Great peril perpetually dogs the footsteps of those who permit themselves everything when satisfying

About Me

I am not a traveler,not an adventurer.Things happened to me in my search for the way out.By force of circumstance I became a Chinaman-a Chinaman in my own country!I took to the opium of dream in order to face the hideousness of a life in which I had no part.Henry Miller

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Thirty years old!The age I'd reserved for suicide - before,when I believed in the genius of youth.Today I no longer believe in anything - life fills me with no more horror than death does,and vice versa.I put the question to all my friends:Are you ready to die this instant?Not one of them ever responded.I am ready - But I am also ready to live for another hundred thousand years.Isn't that the same thing?Blaise Cendrars

My Interests

I LOVE Jared Leto,Modern Art,punk rock,french movies,pink champagne,chocolat,coffe and croissants in the morning,Jean Paul Belmondo,Comme des Garcons,high heels,fishnet stockings,garter belts,Alexandre McQueen,Egon Shiele,surrealist poetry,Amedeo Modigliani,Paris,Mark Chagall,Rome,to sleep as much as i want,Dolce & Gabbana,kissing,shoes,fur, Herve Leger dresses,chilean sea bass,to curl under the blunket when it's raining,being in love,Otto Dix,books,museums, cemeteries,big cities,black and white photography,Helmut Newton,trip-hop,David Lachapelle,Rene Magritte,Angelina Jolie,tattoos,Vincent Cassel,skinny boys who use eye-liner,Monica Belucci,Notre Dame de Paris,Juliette Binoche,Amsterdam,Jonathan Reese Myers,GOTH,Hyeronimus Bosch,cala lilies,Salvador Dali,waking up next to my boyfriend,surrealist paintings,falling asleep next to my boyfriend... I HATE color pink,Christmas carrols,rap,country music,martial arts movies,illiteracy,hip-hop,bad shoes,bad memories,color yellow,bad poetry,bad grammar,vulgarity,people who lie and cheat,people who say "that's hot",people who meddle in my life,the country,people who love Paris Hilton,being cold,working out,muscles,mediocrity,platitudes,bad taste,bad manners,cheap men,ignorance,peanut butter,cowboy movies,politics,math,oysters,gigolos,rumors... By nature and by choice I am extremely indolent.Oscar Wilde I must say that I ruined myself:and that nobody,great or small,can be ruined except by its own hand.Oscar Wilde The tragedy of old age is not that one is old,but that one is young.Oscar Wilde To live is the most rare thing in the world.Most people exist,that is all.We can have in life but one great experience at best,and the secret of life is to reproduce that experience as often as possible.Oscar Wilde Our father who is in heaven,please stay there.Jacque Prevert If Gilberte now confided so fully,it was because she was not of a very jealous nature and neither possessive about her conquests nor capable of fidelity,life having taught her,as it had many of her kind,that it is unwise to have too many illusions.Andre Salmon I was obliged to open your legs inorder to know you and attach my mouth to the insignia of your modesty.Lautreamont Donc je suis un malheureux et ce n'est ni ma faute ni celle de la vie.Jules Laforgue The Hopes nd Fears,the Joys and Pains of Life,dissolve in Air and vanish into Nothing.Samuel Johnson Ther is no use of being alive if one must work.The event from which each of us is entitled to expect the revelation of is own life's meaning - that event which I may not yet have found,but on whose part I seek myself - is not earned by work.Andre Breton An implacable and grave voice whispers in our ear that passions are deceiving,that a beautiful face is the result of our myopia and a lovely soul the product of our ignorance,that there must come a day when the idol,to more clear-sighted eyes,is an object,not of hate,but of surprise and scorn.Charles Baudelaire Envisaging death calmly is valid only if one envisages it alone.Death in the company of the beloved is no death,even for unbelievers.The painful thing is not to leave life,but to leave whatever gives it meaning.When love is one's life,what is the difference between living together and dying together?Raymond Radiguet

I'd like to meet:

Wickedly insane brilliant people... What is good and what is evil?Are they one and the same thing,by which we savagely bear witness to our impotence and our passion to attain the infinite,even by the most insensate means?Or are they two different things?Yes...they had better be one and the same,for if they are not what will become of me on the Day of Judgment?Lautreamont Royal soul delivered over in a moment of forgetfulness to the crab of debauch,the octopus of weakness of character,the shark of individual abjection,the boa of absent morality,and the monstrous snail of idiocy!Lautreamont. Honesty is a little house which smells of incense,which is very unpleasant,and which has only one door,immidiately visible;dishonesty is much vaster,and smells of honey and alcohol;at first one can't find any door,although there are many.Beware,for this house is very tempting,and difficult to leave.Pierre Brasseur Funny,that no matter where you are in the world,there is always someone eager to help you destroy yourself.James St James -Everybody's youth is a dream,a form of chemical madness. -How pleasant then to be insane! -At any rate,let us love for a while,for a year or so,you and me.That's a form of divine drunkenness that we can all try.There are only diamonds in the whole world,diamnds and perhaps the shabby gift of disillusion.Well,I have that last and I will make the usual nothing of it...His was a great sin who first invented consciosness.Let us lose it for a few hours.F.Scott Fitzgerald Purgatory she ignores as she ignores Hell,when the hour comes she enters the dark cell of Death,and as a phantom of frail Breath reborn,she,hateless,gazes upon Death.Charles Baudelaire When we are very strong,-who draws back?very gay-who cares for ridicule?When we are very bad-what would they do to us?Deck yourself,dance,laugh.I could never send Love out of the window.Arthur Rimbaud For the Gods to be royally entertained their victim has to fall from very high.Jean Cocteau Pollinating spit on petals looks like glass But is still spit.Our poor flowers?Lost. Can french poets resist an Ashokan ode? Can addicts resist a bag of blow? As if butterflies take a high road To avoid shitting on daisies below.Arthur Rimbaud Death is chasing you,you've got to hurry,and while you are looking you've got to eat,and keep away from wars.That's a lot of things to do.It's no picnic.Celine There is no tyrant like a brain.Celine.

Music:

AFI,30 seconds to Mars,My chemical romance,Muse,Kill Hannah,The Used,Panic!At the Disco,Prodigy,Massive Attack,Portishead,Flyleaf,Avenged Sevenfold,Three days grace,Placebo,Oasis,Green Day,Evanecsense,Marylin Manson,Jacque Brel,Charles Aznavour,Vanessa Paradis,Eric Satie,Chopin,Velvet Underground,Edite Piaff,Adriano Celentano... Don't walk in front of me,I may not follow.Don't walk behind me,I may not lead.There is only one hapiness in life,to love and to be loved.George Sand Love like you have never been hurt.Joseph JoubertLa vie est une rose dont chaque petale est une illusion et chaque epine est une realite.Alfred de Musset.. What is life but a biologic vaudeville,une chute horizontal?..The same farce always begins again,and always one permits oneself to be taken in by it.Jean Cocteau Preposterous they were,indeed;so is the rose;so are the solemn arguments of average upright citizens.Jean Cocteau You know Pablo sais if you love a woman you give her money.Well now it is when you want to leave a woman you have to wait until you have enough money to give her.Gertrude Stein She had been faithful to him in the fashion of Monmartre,that is to say she had stuck to him through sickness and health but she had amused herself by the way.Gertrude Stein.. As for me,I'd picked up and dropped so many dreams,my mind was cracked and fissured,full of drafts and disgustingly out of order.Celine

Movies:

Jean Luc Godard,Pedro Almodovar,Alejandro Jodorowsky,David Lynch,Luis Bunuel,Guy Ritchy,Emil Kusturica,Quentin Tarantino,Krzysztof Kieslowski,Terry Gilliam,Roman Polanski,"Les Enfants Du Ciecle","Borat"... So our lives are misery,endless misery!Why do we exist?Still,I would prefer to think that thinds will be better as you would have me believe;-however ridiculous life becomes,man manages somehow to carry on.Arthur Rimbaud Once,I remember well,my life was a feast where all hearts opened and all wines flowed.One evening I seated Beauty on my knees.And I found her bitter.And I cursed her.Arthur Rimbaud You find my words dark.Darkness is in our souls,do you not think?Our souls,shame-wounded by our sins,cling to us yet more a woman to her lover clinging,the more the more.James Joyce Whose who die do never recover.Cleopatra -Some people think that kind of romance only happens in stories,but that's because they never get to know their neighbors,really know them,in out in out,which breaks my heart,because then they miss out on the best of life,that girl next door stuff,know what i am saying? -The trouble is,said the girl,in my hotel the room next door is vacant.Somebody died in it.They sealed it up.Aside from that your idea is bloody brilliant. -How about the other side of you? -Mister,there is no other side of me.I live at the end of the hall.W.T.Vollmann

Television:

Little Britain,The Office(BBC),Extras,BlackAdder,Mister Bin,The young ones,Green wing,Absolutely fabulous,Are you being served,Keeping up appearances,Sex and the sity,CSI,FUSE,Steven's Untitled rock show...

Books:

Isidore Ducasse,Arthur Rimbaud,Edgar Allan Poe,Charles Baudelaire,Jean Cocteau,Celine,Oscar Wilde,Gabriel Garcia Marquez,Julio Cortasar,William Burroughs,Feodor Dostoevsky,Michail Bulgakov,Vladimir Nabokov,Alexander Blok,Victor Pelevin,Colette,Frantz Kafka,Raymond Radiguet,Andre Breton,Andre Salmon,Paul Eluard,Sylvia Plath,Guillaum Appolinaire,Blaise Cendrars,Marc Jacob,Gertrude Stein,James Joyce,Henry Miller,Anais Nin,Marquis de Sade,George Sande,W.T.Vollmann...

Heroes:

MALDOROR