Barbie Queen* shondaa.Ready For Love ?
-& somehow ive come to the conclusion that maybe love isnt for me . it cant be . as much as i try to be the best person to be in ah relationship with i always endup being the one hurt in the end . is there anyone out there for me. i want somethin real . im gettin older and i just want someone to love me . im so tierd of being played as the fool . im feed up . my heart is so fragil i swear . i try so hard i do . and here it is again . not once but twice what should i do follow my heart or let it go . is this really worth fighting for ? i keep telling myself this is real and it is worth fighting for but why fight wen the person on the other end isnt . why try wen noone else is . i swear i tryed to set or diffrences aside . and now its just like thats what pushed us apart . i wear this great bigg smile on my face to .give everyone the empression that everything is all good . and im ok knowing im not and its not going to change. this is ah day to day change a day to day task of trying to move on with my life . and then this . pulling me right back . should i believe him . should i trust him . or should i keep walkig away without turning back. as much as i love him somethin is telling me dnt do it . but my heart is willing to fall back i the same trap . what the fuck is going on seriously . why me . i dnt deserve this bullshit . and its so hard to express that too yuh because . im not the type of girl . to share my feelings . but here it is this is love ad if these are the things you have to go through . the question is is my mond mentally ready for this . i hear my friends saying one thing and my family saying another ughrrrr i hate this fuckin feeling . /
