Edser

"Without Music Life Is Utterly Pointless..." Nietzsche said something kinda like that and its true. Its hard to sum myself up in some sentences, well not really, essentially I'm just another human but egotism and that thantos forces me to feel different. I spend alot of my life really confused about things or trying to numb myself out of being confused, I obsess over things I will never be able to understand such as time, reality, human behaviour, love, trust and the nature of human relationships with both each other and our world (other animals who inhabit it). I spend alot of my time trying to work out exactly what I want from life and when I reach that point I become overwhelmed by the absolute pointlessness of so many actions I am part of everyday. I like to write but then realise that it means very little and come to the conclusion that all that matters is experience and moments, but then end up in this horrible catch 22 where I'm looking for moments and experiences and either a) frustrate myself and those around me or b) totally miss out on whats happening at any given moment in time. I like to think of myself as a positive person in my interactions with other people, however my view and mindset could be considered melancholic. I love people but hate the power they have over me to lose absolutely every ounce of self control and rationale I have, but therein lies the beauty of people. I haver worked in the Homeless Services for over 8 years now, and social care/work is my chosen career, it can be challenging but it has thought me a hell of a lot about life too. So other than rambling on about crap I like to do the following, scream my fuckin lungs off in De Novissimis (doom/black metal band), write lyrics for aforementioned, I like to read books about music and human nature/philosophy/religion, I like to gick myself searching for new records in stores, I like to travel and wanna see so much more of this mad strange planet and learn more and more about the music of different peoples/cutlures. I like to smoke da'herb! I like to drink guinness and southern comfort. I like to write about music and try my best to publish 'The Devil On 45' zine. I also have recently set up the DIY IRISH HARDCOREPUNK ARCHIVE which I run to the best of my anal documenting ability! Recently I've gotten a bit mad into making soundscapes/ambient/drone using smaples of factories and warfare intermingled with excerpts from movies or documentaries. I like to cycle and to walk, to ramble and trek, and when i get to a real nice spot, sit down, have a bift and take it all in. What is important to me? I LIKE TO GET FUCKED UP! I like to start pointless arguments and hold my ground no matter fucking what! I like to act like a dick and then in equal parts hate and love the reasons why I did that. I like to feel emotions, I like being numb. I'm a huge bundle of stupid contradictions and hypocrisies but am okay with it as we all fuckin are!I am actually pretty sound!