Ms Nycci

I like to think of myself as a very loving and caring person, I think my main problem is that I care too much and that is not always good. I am finally realizing that I cannot save the world and I cannot sometimes save myself. I am finally coming to grips with my mortality and that has been a hard pill to swallow. To my baby sister Kenya I want to say that I love you! You have always been my ace and I know that it may be because we are so alike. I adore your spirit and your heart! My children have been my inspiration, and drive to fight this hard and to make sure that they grow up and learn about life. Not the hard way like I grew up but in the process I think that I may have babied them too much and in turn ruined their chances of fulfilling their life goals or just wanting more out of life. I love you all and only hope that you figure it out before its too late. Especially you Mo, you need to see the world from the eyes of someone not so full of rage and hate but of love. You will need to take care of each other and the only way to accomplish this is to love each other and just love in general! I have had many friends come and go in my life. Some have been memorable and others I wish to never remember again. But through it all I have been strong, for those who know me well, I have fought so hard that I have shut down emotionally and now I am just plain tired of fighting. So if you feel that I have shut you out for any reason, please take no offense. Right now its all about me. Tracy, my lover and friend, thank you for showing me that life is what you make of it and it is worth living. I was dying inside when you came into my life and no one saw it as clearly as you. Sorry that it hasn't been as easy as I hoped but at least we are doing our damn thang! I love you baby.