emi von hanna

hi, i'm emi
& if you're looking for an easy fuck, you wont find it here.
i'm emi & you probably envy me with every ounce of yourself. i probably dont like you at all. i'm everything you want to be, but aren't. i dont need your bullshit, i already know i'm the best there is. you've probably tried to make me look bad, just so you dont feel so invisable next to me. i'm used to people staring at me wherever i go & everyone telling me how much they love me. your boyfriend will forget you even exist when i walk by & all your friends will stare & wish they could get within five feet of me. i'm conceited & i love attention, so let's talk about me. i'm shallow, vain, two-faced, & a complete bitch, but there's something about me that people just love. i'll shove my life down your throat & you'll choke on what i am. i'm fame & you're probably just looking for a way to be noticed. i'm not dependable, not patient, not understanding, & not honest. but that doesn't stop anyone from wanting a piece of me. i've fucked over plenty of people & i'm not stopping now, i leave people ripped apart & hurt, but i'll tell you now that i'm not sorry. i'm not sorry for anything i've done. i'm who i was born to be & i'm not going anywhere. i'll judge you & stereotype you, then shove you in a category; so prove me wrong. i wont waste my time on you, so dont bother wasting yours on me. if you cant keep me interested, you're not what i'm looking for. i wont put up with your crap, i'm warning you now. only sixteen & i can honestly say that i've been there & done that. i'm cold & i dont let people in, it's my way of not getting hurt. dont fuck with me. i dont like girls, that's never going to change. drama is a waste of time so drink it in & choke bitch, i've been over it. what i do, or do not do, is absolutely none of your business. just because we frequent the same venue does not mean you know me or that we're friends. you're nothing special to me, i can guarantee you that. if you knew me a month ago, you dont know me anymore. i'm not stupid, vulnerable, or naive; i will chew you up & spit you out. i will always show what's on my mind. i trust very few people & you're probably not one of them. dont underestimate me, i'm capable of anything. i'm hard to understand & i dont know anyone who's even come close to figuring me out, but i wouldn't change who i am for the world. dont try to run my life, i have my own brain & i can think for myself, thanks. dont give me your opinions or remarks unless i ask for them, keep your head down until i tell you to speak. i make things complicated because i can. i'll put you through hell & back to see if you can handle it, if you cant then you're not worth my time. i doubt you'll be up to my standards, but i'll give you a chance to prove me wrong. i know that i'm difficult & a lot to deal with. i've only found one person who can handle everything i throw at her, but sometimes it's even hard for her. i've changed a lot since 2006, you probably dont know anything about me anymore. i fuck up almost every good thing that comes into my life. i always get myself into sticky situations, the kind you'd pull straight from a movie. i make my life a lot harder than it has to be, but i have the strength to overcome almost anything. i hate it when people hit on me, i'm not fucking interested. i have a serious addiction to texting, so gimme your digits. i brush my teeth all the time. the only things i eat anymore are cheerios & bananas. i'm addicted to jamba juice. i hardly ever wear pants. i make cute faces at people. i major in procrastination. i probably want to hold your hand. i get jealous really easily & i have the social ability to ruin anyone's life. i've very touchy. i love contact & body heat. i party. i drink a lot & i'm high a lot. i do some other drugs too & i dont want to hear you preach to me. take me as i am, enjoy me while i last. dont feed me any bullshit, candy is better. so is your tongue in my mouth & your hands down my pants, so just shut the fuck up & touch me already. i'm not going to wish for the past, because i know that it won get me anywhere. i'm not going to throw away friendships like they were nothing, because it hurts so much more than i let on. i wont waste my life wishing & hoping on things, i'm going to let things happen & make the best of them. i know that i cant keep doing things the way i have been, because it's hard on everyone that cares about me & it's even harder on me. i'm not willing to change who i am, just a few habits i have need to go. i'm going to live my life the way i want to, not the way people think i should. i can guarantee you i'm going to make mistakes that i wont be able to take back, but i wouldn't even if i could. i want to learn from my mistakes & keep going, because i know that i can. i wont let you make decissions for me or even influence my decissions. i'll always do what i want, whether anyone supports me on it or not. i know what i want in life & i'm not going to let anyone get in the way. i dont need anyone to stand by my side anymore, i'm not dependant on anyone but myself anymore. i dont really know where i'm headed or where i'll end up, but when i get to where i want to be, i'll know it.
i plan on leaving this town & never coming back.
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