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About Me

pick me up love, lift me up, love, everyday...
i think this video is probably more "me" than anything else in the world ever. i know i'm lame, i know i'm cheesy, but if i could just hug everyone in the world all day every day i would be the happiest. i have so much love. sometimes i wonder why or where it came from. it hurts to have sometimes, but i sincerely hope that, when i die, everyone can say "she had so much love in her." i just want that light to shine.i do it for the joy it brings, because i am a joyful girl. because the world owes me nothing. and we owe each other the world.
(ani difranco)
i'm gypsy.
i am fully aware that i seem ridiculous in most conversations. i'm not jaded or sarcastic. i don't like to hurt people or see people hurting. i will never lie to you. i laugh a lot and i smile a lot and i love too much. and i am really, fully, completely real.
i go through phases where i eat the same food every day for, like, weeks or more. kind of like a 2 year old.
conversation hearts are my favorite candy ever. i want a conversation heart tattoo behind my ear. they're my favorite because they are cute AND taste like awesomeness. someone really amazing just left me over 200 boxes of them on my doorstep. that's what "love" looks like when you look it up in the dictionary.
my insides are copper, i'd kill to make them gold.....
(fall out boy)
i snort when i laugh too hard. i laugh too hard a lot.
i want to learn to dance.
i think cotton candy is pretty much the most magical thing on the planet.
and then Chicago ♥
and then glitter
and then snow.
i don't want to ever grow out of thinking things are magical.
and i'm not proud that nothing must seem easy about me....
(tegan and sara)
i stay up until 3 am pretty much every night
i'm kind of a big crybaby
i freak out a little (or a lot sometimes) when stuff doesn't go as planned.
sometimes i get lazy and don't call
i grow too attached
and i think that my life is so amazing because i have people in it that love me in spite of those things
we all shine on, like the moon and the stars and the sun.......
(john lennon)
my HEART will always live here:
there's a light on in chicago, and i know i should be home...
(fall out boy)
i love chicago. i love illinois. i love the midwest. :)
but i am afraid the rest of me will always live here:
i never really gave up on getting out of this 2 star town...
(the killers)i hate dallas. i hate texas. i hate the south. :(
when the world has taken everything you have to give i promise i will never say "i told you so"....
(paco estrada)
some things that are very important to me...

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"A new command I give you: LOVE ONE ANOTHER. As I have loved you, so you must love one another." (John 13:34 NIV) br

My Interests

i LOVE:
God. He is the love of my life.
cotton candy
Hello Kitty
Thai food
THE TROIS!!!!!
going to church
ro-ad trips
when my myspace gets hacked and everything gets all messed up and i stay up until 5 am making another one
music
really crazy eye makeup
my amazing job
color!!!
room temperature cheese
bookstores
boys that are way too young for me
first kisses
the way cold smells
music
sunflowers and daisies
undercooked mushy french fries
starship pegasus, the greatest place on earth
homestarrunner.com
the fall out boy message boards
music
hoodies
reading an entire book in one sitting
driving with the windows down
hummingbirds
things that are fun
music
sleepovers
south park
frozen yogurt
my amazing little sister
figuring things out on my own
driving
music
trips to the "farm"
waiting in line for hours for shows
spiderman
music
snocones
drive through safaris
goosebumps
knowing God is listening
music
words
libraries
slurpees
p and p night!!!!
swinging in the park
music
enthusiastic people
and you
IM me: firedancer1024 on aim
i hate
drugs
snakes
hate
and
I-30

I'd like to meet:

i just realized how lame it was that Pete Wentz was in my "who i'd like to meet" section. that is obviously not true because i could have already met him a zillion times but i am scared i would just stand there and cry like a baby and not say anything meaningful. so... maybe if this section was called "who i'd like to meet if i was not a total spaz and afraid of crying when i met my hero" then i could honestly say pete wentz.
then...
there are the people i would like to meet and dance with:

justin timberlake

gabe saporta
and then there are people i would like to meet and also dance with, if by dancing you mean "make out":

TEGAN!!!!!

michael cera

katherine moennig

frank iero

Music:

"If for one minute you think you're better than a sixteen year old girl in a Green Day t-shirt, you are sorely mistaken. Remember the first time you went to a show and saw your favorite band. You wore their shirt, and sang every word. You didn't know anything about scene politics, haircuts, or what was cool. All you knew was that this music made you feel different from anyone you shared a locker with. Someone finally understood you. This is what music is about."
-Gerard Way (My Chemical Romance)
music is the world to me. it is absolutely everything. i remember staying up all night watching MTV with my mom when i was a very small child. (MTV was born the same year as me!!) she took pride in my being able to name a band from the song playing the way some moms take pride in their kids playing soccer games or winning beauty pageants. listening to Journey always makes me think of my best mom memories. she gave me my undying love of the beatles. i remember renting the entire beatles anthology series with her and staying up all night for several nights in a row watching them. i remember listening to country music with my grandmother in the car. we would make popcorn and watch hee haw. any time i hear randy travis it puts me right back in that station wagon with the person i loved more than any other person in the history of my life. i remember nine inch nails in high school and realizing that there were people in the world that understood my pain. i remember counting crows for much the same reason and they got me through high school and insane depression and falling in love for the first and second times and getting my heart broken both times and stay with me even still today. i listen to the wallflowers and third eye blind and remember a time when i was the closest to my sister. we were the best of friends. those were some of the best times in my life. i hear stuff like the spice girls and think of michelle and how i NEVER would have survived high school without her. most of this stuff i rarely listen to anymore, but when i come across it it still chokes me up, it still makes me remember. thats why i think music is the greatest gift that God gave us.
and then, of course, theres the greatest band to ever happen to my life. :) and they make me feel everything possible in the spectrum of emotion. they literally saved my life. they got me out of bed and up to face life when i just wanted to give up. the words made me realize there was hope. the music made me realize there was still magic. they got me through the worse year of my life. they brought me and my 2 best friends closer together than any friends i have ever met. they bring so much joy and excitement and adventure to my life. my skin is permanently inked TWICE in honor of them :)
i love this band more than i love any band in the history of music!!!!!
the chemists who found the formula to make your heart swell and burst

♥ ♥ FALL OUT BOY!!!!! ♥ ♥"would you mind if i sat next to you and watched you smile? so many kids but i only see you, and i don't think you notice me..."

"we only want to sing you to sleep...in your bedroom speakers... we need umbrellas on the inside..."

"we're the lifers here till the bitter end, condemmed from the start. ashamed of the way the songs and the words own the beating of our hearts..."
obviously... there are other bands in the world to me. :) but to list everything that ever made my life a little more worth living would take forever.

Movies:

Moulin Rouge is the most beautiful movie i have ever seen!!!
this movie is to movies for me what fall out boy is to music!! thats saying a lot! any time i feel like crap, this movie is sure to at least partially remedy that.
i'm not a big movie person, but i do love anything that makes me cry or sigh or feel like a little kid again or believe in love.
some movies that go in those categories:
grindhouse!!!!!
garden state
juno
love actually
a knights tale
elizabethtown
Romeo and Juliet (the awesome music having Leo DiCaprio version)
♥ the notebook ♥
spanglish
peter pan and ANY peter pan related movie like hook and finding neverland
all 3 scream movies, but especially part 2
any kevin smith movie (especially dogma and chasing amy)
any tim burton movie (especially nightmare before christmas, edward scissorhands, and big fish)
both toy story movies
snow white and the seven dwarves (even though it is horribly sexist.... but there will always be a part of me that is waiting on my prince)
elf ("smilings my favorite")
say anything
pretty much ANY movie with vampires, werewolves, monsters, or zombies. ESPECIALLY night of the living dead, the lost boys, 30 days of night, planet terror, creepshow, the nightmare on elm street movies, halloween, underworld, van helsing, blah blah blah...

Television:

i pretty much watch about an hour of tv a week or less. if i AM watching it though, it's probably:
buffy! ♥
dawson's creek
the l word

Books:

(i probably read too many romance novels)
read
Alice Walker
Dave Eggers
Tiffanie Debartolo
Shakespeare
Mark Twain
Anne Rice
Willa Cather
Oscar Wilde
Elizabeth Berg
Jeanette Winterson
CS Lewis
Dylan Thomas
Robert Frost
Franz Kafka
Gena Showalter
Christine Feehan
Emma Holly
Shiloh Walker
Meljean Brook
Lora Leigh
Susan Sizemore
Lori Foster
Shannon McKenna
Angela Knight
J Robert Lennon
Alice Hoffman
this list grows everyday. one of my favorite things to do is wander around a bookstore for hours and find new things.
i love every kind of book (except nonfiction) and i probably read, on average, about 3 books a week.
here are 10 books i think everyone should read in their lifetime:
1. The Velveteen Rabbit by Margery Williams (my favorite book of all time. I collect different copies of this book. Buy me a copy of The Velveteen Rabbit, I will probably love you for life.)
2. God Shaped Hole by Tiffanie Debartolo
3. A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius by Dave Eggers (Eggers also wrote my favorite short story ever: "After I Was Thrown in the River and Before I Drowned")
4. The Color Purple by Alice Walker (then read Posessing the Secret of Joy, my second favorite book by her)
5. The Boy With the Thorn in His Side by Peter Wentz
6. My Antonia by Willa Cather
7. The Tale of the Body Thief by Anne Rice
8. Where the Wild Things Are by Maurice Sendak
9. The Chronicles of Narnia by CS Lewis (yes. im going to count them all as one book. you should read them all)
10. Talk Before Sleep by Elizabeth Berg

Heroes:

For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him may not perish but may have eternal life.
John 3:16
"pure and gentle, a heart so beautiful....."
my forget-me-nots and marigolds...
"the only thing i havent done yet is die and it's me and my plus one in the afterlife"
"without you i dont have a place thats safe from all the monsters..."
"i know you would be there either way. i'm so glad it seems like these times will never fade..."
and then, of course...
Peter Wentz
♥ "and i am dirty, forgetful, lonely, arrogant, stubborn, secretive, and many other things i hear in whispers. but my heart is fucking in it. you could set your watch by it." ♥
"you have to know that their are other people who have felt like this before and it is hard but you will make it through it. i mean, you have to. the day after tommorrow could be the best day ever."
"and you're nothing special. except. what if you are?"
"long live the car crash hearts"
truefuckinglove
♥ foreverandever

My Blog

"you were never very kind and you let me way down every time..."

"I won't regret saying thisThis thing that I'm sayingIs it better than keeping my mouth shutThat goes without sayingCall, break it offCall, break my own heartMaybe I would have been something you'd be...
Posted by Olivers Aunt! on Sat, 10 May 2008 10:32:00 PST

"i am not afraid to keep on living, i am not afraid to walk this world alone..."

Do or dieYou'll never make meBecause the world, will never take my heartYou can try, you'll never break meYou want it all, you wanna play this partI won't explain or say I'm sorryI'm unashamed, I'm go...
Posted by Olivers Aunt! on Fri, 02 May 2008 07:50:00 PST

"crowds are won and lost and won again but our hearts beat for the die hards......"

i know that MAYBE 5 of you on my ENTIRE friends list care, but i want to tell you a little story about how a new Fall Out Boy DVD today called "**** live in phoenix" came out today. THEN i will contin...
Posted by Olivers Aunt! on Wed, 02 Apr 2008 07:24:00 PST

"swim back to me..."

"We fell asleep last night watching TV and the images worked their way into my dreams. We were watching turtles climbing the beach. The way she's looking at him is how you're looking at me. ...
Posted by Olivers Aunt! on Thu, 17 Jan 2008 10:46:00 PST

"a game of this or that, now versus then, better off against worse for wear..."

in an effort to try to cheer myself up and rediscover that life is more than "not so bad" and is actually "totally awesome", here is my obligatory "Best of 2007." i like top 10 lists so heres mine in ...
Posted by Olivers Aunt! on Tue, 08 Jan 2008 12:17:00 PST

"the feeling that it’s all a lot of oysters but no pearls..."

A long December, and there's reason to believeMaybe this year will be better than the lastI can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leavin'Now the days go by so fastAnd it's one more d...
Posted by Olivers Aunt! on Tue, 08 Jan 2008 11:31:00 PST

"oklahoma... where the wind comes sweepin down the plain..." (or something)

yay!!!pictures from the oklahoma city fall out boy show on oct 26th!!! (and by "pictures from the show" i mean "1 picture of peter wentz and a zillion pictures of us being dumb outside in line") i pr...
Posted by Olivers Aunt! on Tue, 27 Nov 2007 02:13:00 PST

"i need to take a pill to make this town feel ok....."

..> I can't imagine all the people that you know And the places that you go When the lights are turned down low And I don't understand all the things you've seen But I'm slipping in-between You...
Posted by Olivers Aunt! on Sun, 25 Nov 2007 12:57:00 PST

"if i had my own world, i’d build you and empire..."

today i realized something that probably every one else pretty much already knew. i think that God saves things for a "rainy day" for us, too. you know how you ask and ask Him for stuff and you r...
Posted by Olivers Aunt! on Thu, 08 Nov 2007 10:25:00 PST

"take me by the hand and tell me you would take me anywhere..."

hey guys!! my amazing Heather tagged me and asked me to do this. Rules: Someone writes a blog with seven weird/random facts about themselves. Then, at the end of the blog he/she tags seven of their fr...
Posted by Olivers Aunt! on Thu, 30 Aug 2007 11:29:00 PST