Fuckin Lucy

I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me. But it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it. and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.