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bRiTtAnY-bEtCh!!! Date: Jul 2, 2008 11:32 PMfound this fantasy layout at HOT FreeLayouts.comMy life has become a dark black hole How to get out, I don't yet know Putting on a smile when I really want to cry Wondering if it's even worth the effort to try Maybe one day the clouds will begin to move out And decisions I've made will know longer cast any doubt I did what what I believed was for the best I see now it should have been God's choice to lay it to rest I took it upon myself to not even try And to that little soul I said goodbye My dreams now haunt me, even when I am awake For I clearly see I've made a horrible mistake Please Lord I beg of you now To try and forgive me somehow If you cannot I understand, but please take my baby by the hand,and Show the love from which this coward ran!Mandy ClarkMy life has become a very dark and lonly place I havent yet figured out how to escape The pain comes from inside and is eating me from within I search and search for any way out, I have yet to find an end You cannot see the pain reflecting in my eyes To the world outside I have become a master at disguise I awake every morning and go through the motions But at no point an to knowone do I have any devotions Afraid to love, that is not the key Not knowing how to love tells you more of me Terrified of the world I am not Terrified of myself, thats the spot Wanting so bad to make it all just go away But accepting tomorrow will be the same kind of day!! I sit and watch as the world goes by To become part of this world I try and try I'm safe here just looking out To walk in the world my mind would be overwhelmed with doubt However to not venture into this world means I have given in And that would mean my begining has also just become my END!!I'm in a battle and not sure if I will winFor this war I am fighting comes from withinThe scares are long and the wounds so deepThe constint turmoil keeps me from sleepA struggle ensues to arise each dayI fall to my knees and begin to prayPlease dear Lord, listen to my pleaHelp me to exscape and come home with theeI'm tired of all the hurt, tired of the painI've begun thinking I am completely insainI need your guidance, please show me the wayI'm begging you Lord I cant go on another dayThe pounding in my chest, the fear in my mindAll I am asking is for you to send me a signShow me theres a reason a reason to liveFor I know you've already forgiven me for all my sinsMy girls will be alright, for you made them stronger then IPlease dear LordI'm Ready to DIE!!!!!
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I am a 30 year old mother of three! My familyis the world to me.I love to travel and meet new people.I enjoy reading and writing poetry. Over the last few months I have begun new chapters in my life and I have traveled across the country to find myself, to which I now know that I have! The first thing I think that I have learned about myself is that I am know longer going to live my life to please anyone other then myself! I am happy with who I am as a person and if you dont like that then dont be a part of my life! Some might say I have been a bit selfish but is that really the case I mean after all it is my life right? Why not be selfish? I am only looking for one thing and that is happiness, selfish or not, I dont think I am asking for to much! I still have alot of learning and living left to do, and my vow to myself is to not let anyone or anything stand in my way, nor keep me down!I like to think I ameasy going and down to earth, I love to joke and have agood time with whoever I am around. I think I am one ofthose people you either love, or love to hate! LOL I amstuck in my ways and I speak my mind. I love to talk abouteverything, about nothing it does'nt matter. I love being amother, being amother has no hand book, fly by the seat of your pantseveryday! You make your decisions and hope it doesnt comeback to bite you. I think I have done a good job thus far,I have 3 wonderful children, dont get me wrong they are farfrom perfect but they are each wonderful people. I cant wait to see what they become!
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